爱要怎么说呢?

暗恋让人觉得好无奈
自卑让人无法去面对
明明想爱却觉得配不上他
也许这就是爱不得的暗恋

爱要怎么说呢?

© Brigitte Khoo Jie Bin

Busy!

Today was suprisingly BUSY!!! Have been doing data migration for the whole day. Think I'm considered quite fast bar. Finish 200+ data migration in one day!! *Claps!! Except I did wrongly whereby I did double entry. Oopps. Cos was online chatting with Zen so didnt concentrate. Opps Opps. Was told to change his name. Hmm. Ken? Cos he look abit like Ken Hirai. Man de wor. Ahaha. Today is my cousin's birthday~! HAPPY BIRTHDAY~! And sorry I cant go over your house. Today I go receptionist there learn franking which is a bit different from the previous company's. Guess what? I have to frank 1400 mails!!! Think I super right!! I'll go mad!! 8:30-12.30 of non stop franking. But what worse is that I heard from my friend say the receptionist taking over is Ken's friend. Arghz. Scared. Hope she is nice. Haiz. Not only that I still have to help print the invoice to mail out! And I still have data migrating to do! Loads of things stacking up. I know I currently dont have things to do but the person sitting in front of me currently have nothing to do too! Cant give him some of those things to him? Today I busy doing data migration and he sit there do nothing. This kind of feeling NO GOOD!!! I understand how he feels when he busy and I am there surfing the net. Oopps. Ahaha. Tmr is Vesak Day!! Shopping day for me! I've got loads of things to buy! Wohoooo. I must enjoy this few days!! Work coming more! Ken going to leave GSK! Wenz migrating! Ling Birthday! Must treasure whatever I have at the moment, be it good or bad. Thats what I have to learnt, Let go of things that never be yours, Treasure those times when they are close to you. In life I often regret, maybe is all those regrets that make me stronger and treasure things more. I lost someone dear to me, tears are always there and tears are how much I miss her. At times I want to share something, I really hope she is here to share all my joys [My 21st birthday, graduation ceremony, etc] *tears. Sobx. I still miss her everyday though she left me 2 years ago. Tsk Tsk.

眼泪留下的痕迹
久久也不曾抹掉
心如刀割的伤痛
是谁也补救不了

PS: 笑容 是快乐的 , 是发自内心的. 你是否开怀大笑过?

© Brigitte Khoo Jie Bin

Never Give Up!

我绝不会放弃
因为我相信我可以

This song describes best how I feel:

我可以 - 蔡旻佑

寄 沒有地址的信
這樣的情緒 有種距離
你 放著誰的歌曲
是怎樣的心情
能不能說給我聽

雨 下得好安靜
是不是你 偷偷在哭泣
幸福 真的不容易
在你的背景 有我愛你

我可以 陪你去看星星
不用再多說明
我就要和你在一起
我不想 又再一次和你分離
我多麼想每一次的美麗
是因為你

寄 沒有地址的信
這樣的情緒 有種距離
你 放著誰的歌曲
是怎樣的心情
能不能說給我聽

雨 下得好安靜
是不是你 偷偷在哭泣
幸福它真的不容易
在你的背景 有我愛你

我可以 陪你去看星星
不用再多說明
我就要和你在一起
我不想 又再一次和你分離
我多麼想每一次的美麗
是因為你

我可以 陪你去看星星
不用再多說明
我就要和你在一起
我不想 又再一次和你分離
我多麼想每一次的美麗
是因為你

I will never give up on what I believe in~! Yes!! Thanks everyone for the encouragement! Now I have all the courage! I will jiayou de~!

Update!

Hiyo~! Haven been blogging for 2 weeks!!! Have been really busy!! Ok. Now I am currently and officially 21! I feel so old. Hmm...Updates on what I have been doing. Work is as usual except 2 days ago was quite a confusing day for me. My group of colleagues and I were in a conversation and they added the shuai ge into our conversation. I was abit awkward but somehow I feel something else which is nothing to do with shuai ge. (shall not mention here, hope it is not obvious)Ahaha...Maybe is me bar...think too much...but the feeling of it is quite strong...and thats make me feel sad for the day...though happy that he is the one that we are talking to...I even went to take the same bus as him...My other colleague from another dept called me and tell me that he took the bus is to bukit panjang and I happily think that I am able to meet my friends at bukit panjang interchange!! But the bus turned out to be going tiong bahru!! I realised it when the bus reached clementi...and I called my friend...she say yar...its a clementi bus...Wahaha...Kena cheated!! Cos she wanna me to take the same bus as shuai ge...Pengz...Then I drop off at bouna vista and he did not get off...tsk tsk...that day was really a confusing day!! Weird feeling! Maybe should give up...Its all because I think too much and yes I know it. But I really cant help feeling that way. You know woman instinct very accurate de. And I never failed to realise it last time. Ok. Shall see how on monday. If that feeling is really strong, I guess I will just give up any thoughts about that shuai ge. What can I do? (Shall not elaborate) But I really think he is a nice guy though we anyhow add him and ask alot of questions and he practically answer our questions. So this birthday is somewhat weird to me but it is nice to have chat with him though it doesnt give me a pleasant outcome that I expect. Haiz. Shall see how one Monday bar. Ok. Enough of that shuai ge. Oh yeah I shall use Zen instead of shuai ge from now on. On Sat, went out with Joc, Eve, Peiwen and Liqing to celebrate Eve and me birthday~! hehe...I really had a great day with them but poor eveline was feeling really sick. Eve!! Must take loads of care wor!!!Rest more yea!!!Joc and eve went home early cos eve was really feeling uncomfortable. Then Liqing, Peiwen and me went to Mos Burger and they had some drink and we talk. Anyway THANKS to EVE, JOC, MEL, PEIWEN, LIQING for the birthday gift!!! LOVE ya guys loads!!!! Muacks!!! We must keep in contact wor!! One of my birthday wishes: I hope to be forever 21!!!!! Wahaha...21 seems to be a big stage of life...experiencing the difference from the past... Not anymore a kid, need to make decision, must have own stand, no more childish act, must be strong, etc. Somehow I can sense all those...Just got back from home...cos just now after meeting Eve, Joc, Peiwen and Liqing, I went to meet up my friends at woodlands...we went for the UK Funfair!! Now currently no voice...Lost it from all those shoutings....currently is 2am...Need some rest le...Later in the afternoon treating whole family Lunch~!!!

五月天 (MayDay)

This is S.H.E 10th PLAY Album's song: 五月天 (MayDay). The above is the Music Video of the song, with Ah Xin from MayDay~!! Super Nice~! But I think Ah Xin abit shy with the last scene when Selina kiss him....ahaha...

Here's the lyrics to the song...

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曲:郑楠词:陈震 施人诚

黄金海岸的岸边

我们肩并着肩

洁净的蓝天

清澈的水面

吻成一条海平线

看你温柔的双眼

弹着吉他的弦

歌词是诺言

旋律是依恋

唱出一首五月天

Chorus:

五月的天

刚诞生的夏天

我们之间

才完成的爱恋

紧握的手里面

有好多明天

五月的天

梦开始要鲜艳

前方蜿蜒

一长串的心愿

我们一天一天

慢慢实现

大雨冲走了昨天

青春乌云几片

彩虹的旁边

有星星几点

迫不及待在眨眼

海风味道变香甜

沙滩镶满亮片

你哼着永远

我和着不变

合唱一首五月天

Chorus *

海浪 拼命欢呼跳跃

一遍又一遍

鼓励我们 看谁先吻谁的脸

为这五月之恋

再添一个逗点

再多的五月天

怕也不够我们沉醉

海燕 身边来回盘旋

扮演着领队

彷佛听见幸福在前面不远

为这五月之恋

再添一点信念

往后的五月天

和你走到比永远还远

Chorus*

FRIDAY~!

I Simply LOVE FRIDAY!!!!Wohoooo.....Today....Nothing to do again...I watched 200 pounds of beauty~!! Wahaha....I laughed so hard...that i turned red....and wads worse kaiming ask me why my laptop always tilt low....I tell him cos Im short so need it to be low...I think my red face betrayed myself....Arghz....hope he doesnt know it bar....wahahaha....I admit I turned red easily esp when I laughed real hard....and when I see shuai ge....when I see someone I like....and when I'm really shy.....wahahaha....everyone know that....have been trying hard to cover it....but to avail....hehe....today....easy day....cos I keep laughing and watching 200 pounds of beauty...I dont care whether anyone sees it....Oooppps...Im getting bad right!!! ahaha...this shall be the one and only.....dont dare le.....really scared people say I take people watching all these...Dont wanna leave bad impression here....hehe....Friday is my day~!!! Today almost cant get the bus...was walking towards the bus and he wanted to drove off le....so early nei....im partly to be blame...too into my movie and forget the time....Oooppppss.....I feel bad today for watching it....but I feel happy that weekend is COMING~!! Till then~!! Missing school and everyone~!!!! Take care peeps!

Sicko

Today so many people on leave!! The level 1 so empty lo!!!And SO COLD!!!! Yawnz....making me feel like sleeping....Haiz....Nothing to do again....Bored....I'm happy today~! I dunno why?? Wahahaha....LOL....maybe is bcos weekend is near~!!YESH!! And friends birthday are coming soon...wohooo...gathering soon~!!!YESH!!Mother day....Headache...mum and dad going genting on sat night...coming back only mon night....how to celebrate mother day nei?? friday mom got work lei....Tsk Tsk....Fever again....Ytd I also had it but it gone after I sweat out....Today after a whole day chill of the aircon....Fever is BACK!!! Make myself feel so sicko....and I feel so 'medicine'...Arghz...I dunno what I am talking....Work envt really too cold le....wear jacket oso not enough lei....Yawn...just ate medicine...thinking of having an early sleep...Tmr is my day...cos is FRIDAY~! WOHOOOOOOOOOO~! Till then peeps~

BLUES!!

I think I'm having blues almost everyday...dragging my feet to work....this kind of feeling really no good for fresh graduate who just enter the workforce right?? Thats really bad wor...Tsk Tsk...But what can I do?? I currently have nothing to do...everytime slacking around....surfing the net, browsing everyone's blog, online shopping....wahahahaha....so free lo...nothing to do....I really dont like the feeling of being a useless one at work....somehow feel that I am useless...and wonder why they hire me....Nothing for me to do....Looking at others busy with their work....Feeling guilty having nothing to do....and getting PAID!! Wahaha...but I know slacking time wont stay long....training coming up and I will have loads of stuff to do soon...but think most probably end May or June bar....I still got 2 weeks to slack!!! Wahahaha....Life is really such a bore with working....No PLAY at all....Friends are all busy with their life...Very difficult to ask them out...and when they asked me out....I'm not free....Tsk Tsk....one's time really very difficult to match....Life seems so meaningless to me....Yawnz....wanna catch some sleep...Tired?? From acting busy in front of them....have been yawning all day long....the aircon is making me sick!!

My day~

Wohoooo....Today I VERY BORED lei....The whole day didnt do much thing...Was really bored!! Ahaha....And saw the shuai ge during lunch....wahaha...he wears pink...same as me....ahaha...and he sit the same seat that I just sit wor....ok....I think too much le....wahaha...Today slack too much....I even pack up too fast that someone even say I left early today....Oopppss...Shall keep that in mind...not to leave so early....later people say I eat snake....tmr shall not leave that early lo...sobx....I realise something....Someone always tease me and ask if I can take it and wont cry hor....what makes him think that I will cry over his tease ar?? I came to realise...maybe someone saw me cry at work....which was like once I cried at work....cos I had a nightmare....my grandpa was like missing my late grandma....and seeing everyone being paired up....he feels lonely....then he sing a very sad song....which somehow say that he is lonely and he miss grandma....then I wake up....feeling very sad...somehow feel that the dream maybe is that my grandma want me to spend more time with my grandpa....cry for a long time...whenever I had a nightmare I need someone to console de....but that day I dont wanna wake anyone up...so have to calm down myself....but at work nothing to do then think too much....then I teared....So 'no face'...cry at work....but really cant help it....feel very sad....haiz.... really miss my grandma lei.....sobx.....till then le....will update often....

Sunday~!

Today was late for Sunday Mass....Oopppss...like 10mins late wor...cos nobody wake us up...after mass went to meet up with my insurance agent...which was like change from friday to sunday.....ahaha...he talked a new plan to me...which was like nothing much...cos I not interested in buying it...dont have stable job how to pay for the high insurance fee rite...lucky I'm clear headed....wohoooo...but so paiseh....he bought cookies for me....ahaha...thanks wor....then went back home....watched drama cos my friend last minute need to meet someone...heehee....watched 2 movies wor....Yawnz....Feeling sleepy le...tmr have to work....hope Monday Blues wont fall on me....till then lo~!

Sis Birthday~!

Sis birthday today...Went to Awfully chocolate to collect the birthday cake that I ordered....regretted not buying the banana one....then went to cold storage and bought drinks and Ben and Jerry ice-cream....bought the Crunchy Monkey~! Wohoooo...That was really nice...hehe...after that went home...then head to IMM for dinner....had Ajisen....we ordered 3 sets of ramen for a family of 5...plus 2 other side dishes...and I tell you...We dint finish our food...We are small eaters lo...i shared my ramen with mum...and there are leftovers!! My 2 sis share one ramen oso cannot finish too....wahahaha...After we had this full dinner....we went walk walk around IMM! The dinner really need to run 5 rounds le...then I went back home with my parents while my 2 sis went to walk around....After everyone reached home...we had the birthday cake! Its really very nice...have half a slice of it....Everyone should try wor...hehe....I've always been look out for good food though I dont eat much....cos I often go out with friends who loves to eat...hehe....Gotta go le...Need to catch some sleep le...Till then~!

明白?

我希望你会明白
我对你只有爱
如今却依然存在
因为有了你
我们拥有共同的回忆
让我的人生多么甜蜜

© Brigitte Khoo Jie Bin

MAY DAY~!

Its MAY DAY~! Wohooo~!! Holiday...Didnt go out lei...slack at home....face the computer and watch finish my drama....Hana Yori Dango II....It is REALLY NICE~!!! Arashi!!!hehe....Love the holiday with the drama~! Loads of midnight movie to catch too~! Wahaha...i'm a TV addict...shall continue with my drama...gonna finish the last episode of it....Till then~!