Mid week!
Haven't been updating that often.
Work is hectic with even tighter KPIs to hit
Drilling into mini amounts to bring down the values
Feeling so lethargic recently that I always doze off on laptop

Well, someone posted me a question recently that set me thinking too.
Will you go back to your ex if he asked you back
In the past I would say "Yes" without thinking
Now perhaps, too afraid of being abandoned again.
The reason why I would say "Yes" without thinking
He is really a good person
I felt comfortable being with him
He understand my unusual self I guess

I am not the very vocal kinda person
More of a "negotiable" kinda person
Seemed to be easily bullied
Even when quarrels I would not want to say anything impulse
I would think it through
And find a way out to avoid such conflict

Yet such a personality of mine irks to some people
Seemingly as a hypocrite

Much about personality
I guess probably there is no perfect person
It is finding the one who could accept it

So much of what is in the mind
Yet so busy up with work
Just hope my name won't be on the retrenchment list
Its mid week already!
Hang in there
Hopefully I wont die from tomorrow's weight training!
Aja aja fighting!

Till then peeps

Friday! TGIF?
I badly need more sleep.
It was such a good weather to sleep on this morning.
Nothing much to update
The same old work and go home kinda weekday routine

Thursday should be workout day
But bro got lazy cos of the rain
So was a home workout day
Not being monitored
I did half of the planned HIIT workout
Still I feel some thigh aching today

Have been thinking through a bit more too
Thanks to the drama that finally I had finished 42 episodes of it
Really need to know what I really want in life
Felt aimlessly living everyday
Passing day like just another day
But well, I am always glad to have my family with me
Even though we might have our quarrels
Still we don't bear any grudges
At least I don't
Had been quarantine over the weekends
And I supposed this coming weekends too
Might be bored but gonna keep ourselves safe during this critical period!
Hopefully all gets better and I can plan for holiday soon!


Till then peeps~
Stay safe and healthy!
Aja aja fighting!

Tuesday! Passed my Monday Blues.
But why Tuesday is also blue!
Weekends are always staying home due to COVID-19
Seems like the situation is under controlled
Though everyday there is more new cases.

Had been feeling stressed up
Not sure how to handle it
Some words are hard to put it across.
Too bluntly, it hurts.
Too rounded, it might not be able to put across correctly.
It is adding pressure on me.

Well, hopefully things get better.

As I watched romance dramas
Talking about relationship
And I realize how much I fear of it
Whenever I gather all my courage to move towards
Many times they just walk out of my life without notice
And I am forced to accept it
Losing faith and in fear
Will there even be a meant to be that is mutual?
Something that set the mind thinking

Short post here for a small break.
Till then peeps
Aja aja fighting!

Wednesday! Midweek!
Had been a busy week since the code Orange!
Pretty stressed up.
Need desserts to reverse the stressed soon!
Last Friday D&D was still fun
The presence of my lovely SG3 Peeps definitely make me let my hair loose a little.
Thanks for the "Whisky+Hot Tea" Combo, "Red Wine + Tiger Beer" Combo drink
Hopefully a better year for everyone
Though I am not with them fighting this pandemic, I am definitely rooting for you guys!
Didn't take much of photos.
Just 1 selfies here.
First try on smokey eyes.
Guess my make up skills up a little bit?

Just a short post and update here.
Till then peeps.
Aja aja fighting!

Fridayy!
Well, there is D&D tonight~
Leaving office in 30 mins time!
Kampung theme for this year.

Can't decide what to wear
Cos I'm feeling fat!
Wearing tight dress might be challenging

Many people will not be going due to nCov
SG3 Peeps still working hard
People who just came back from China gotta quarantine for 14 days
People who fall sick have to stay at home

Hopefully the whole nCov would be gone soon
Those who are supporting for this in a way or another
Jiayou and a super big thank you for everything

Gonna end work soon!
Till then peeps~
Aja aja fighting!

Tuesday.
Busy in the meeting the whole morning.
Had a good 2km run yesterday
Though I target at least a 2.4km
Thanks to the gastric.

Weighing the pros and cons
Kinda sort out my thoughts
Just let go of things that perhaps not worth the thought

It felt lighter

Simplicity is definitely much comfortable than complexity
Nevertheless, I feel I am still learning
To learn to let go of things that I used to stubbornly hold on to
There is no ending to life lessons
Its the every experience that makes each lesson well learnt from.
体验也是另一种领悟.

Life can be taken seriously and not.
Just how you prioritize every part of it.

Till then peeps~
Mid week is coming soon!
DND this friday at Raffles City Convention with Kampung theme.
Look forward or not?
I definitely look forward catching up with the previous colleagues and some drinking session after that!

Monday. As usual very blue.
Decided to go for a jog after work.
Had much thoughts ran through the mind.
Suddenly it hit me as to how unclear things are
The insecurities set in.
Which what always give me butterflies
And sometimes I don't have the courage to confront it
Or perhaps just follow as it goes and not probing further.
The 便利贴 kinda mentality always got stuck in me
And I will just quietly disappear if I am not meant to be existed.

Perhaps something I need to work on.
To be braver
To have a stand
To not be a weakling and acting all nonchalant about things

I need to find what I really want in life.
I feel that I am losing myself
And I am not sure where I am heading to
When things are not that simple
It makes me feels stupid

Something I will need to think through really hard.
And I hope I will get through it
Strike hard on my weakness
Though it is definitely not possible to change overnight

I will try.
To be better.
Aja aja fwighting!
Never say die till you really battle hard!
Till then peeps~