人总是在"以为"中徘徊....
直到最后才发现一切是无畏的等待...

© Brigitte Khoo Jie Bin

A moment of thought...

I'm not sure what the things I had done is right or wrong
I'm not sure whether whatever I said had hurt anyone or myself
I'm not sure how my future will be
I'm not sure where I will be at in the near future..

Life is so full of "I'm not sure"
And that to me is a great insecurity
I want my life to certain and just follow my way
The way I want it to be

But things change.
People change.
Society change
Even I change myself

But changing for the better its dependable on one's insight.

At times I feel that the things I do
It is due to my stubborness
As wad someone always hated this stubborn me
I'm rebelious in nature
The more you dare me for something
The more I want to oppose and prove it wrong.

I understand that this is really not doing any good when used at the wrong situation.
Perhaps I need to judge against the situation properly.

Just back from work...
Sneezing away....Making all the wantons now...
During the meeting...or I would say brainstorming session...
I think alot...
I observe and realise...
The changes is alot....
Isit the teamwork as what they had said??
No comments to it.
People change...
And thats how realistic and practical people are....
For the way people do & speak
Somehow I feel they are strangers...
Complete stranger....
Making me feel that I no longer know them...
Not what I previously know them as...
I felt sad about it...
But I sort it out...
That's life...
That's how realistic life is, how realistic humans are....
Perhaps this ugly side....
Is nothing but the truth...
Truth only reveals the unsightly....
Which makes me disgusted by it...
I shall keep everything to myself....
Just do my due diligence...
Fret not... I will not be like them...
I will still believe in myself...
And not be influence...
Even the ugly truth won't defeat my beliefs!
And when the time come...
I will be freed...
Somtimes I really want to be freed from working so hard..
Have been working so hard...
And yet felt so unappreciated...
Not sure what I am working hard for?
And is this what I want?

Never I want it this way....

Super no morale, no motivation....

Gotta catch some sleep... Have been working too much.... Wantons all over now...
Shall rest well... sleep those sick bug away!! Nitey all~

First day of work in this new year.

Tsk Tsk.
And 1 whole week of OT is waiting for me...
With the 2 days of meeting..
And clearing of backlogs...
Am tired
Sometime...really restless...
No motivation, no morale....
At times...
Feel like giving up...
Feel like dunno why am I working so hard...
Really...dunno for wad...

I better turn in early...
Hopefully things will get better~

Oh yar! 1 good thing to talk about! My first testimonial I gotten from customer! LOL.
It did make my day though... abit bar...

Till then.. Need rest....

Back from our camping~

Wohooo~ Had a great fun!
Back with all the SUN BURNS!!
Ouch Ouch!
Had countdown at East Coast Park!
Quite unique~
We went crabbing too..
Though there wasnt any...
Took alot of photos....
Wahaha!
The bbq was great!! Lol.

Tired...
Think we slept quite well on the first day cos we are really tired
Me, lubbie, sis and her bf... we all 4 were snoring away~
OMG!
wahaha.

Ouch Ouch! The pain from the sun burnt!!
So burning hot!
Wonder how am I going to survive!!
Lol.

Gotta go lo~
Having dinner with lubbie later~

Wishing all a happy new year~
Hopefully this new year is a GOOD one!!
And omg!! Im turning 24 this yr!!!! (oh nar....I'm always 18 yar?!)