Just awaken from a dream about him and realised it had been long since I last blog.
The feeling so familiar yet so far.
Had been busy with my new work life.
A different type of experience.
A new beginning I believe.
As I look back, I've grown up.
More mature, more decisive.
As the environment changes, people do change.
But if its for the better or not?
Its rather judgemental.
I believe I am doing better.
And I really hope you are too.
Reflecting during those days, I wonder why all those complications we had.
My insecurity w my lack of confidence.
My stubborness w my over-demanding expectations of you.
My jealousy I had w/o telling you and saying it's ok.
If in this relationship I could be more truthful towards my feelings, it could have been better?
Its the walls I build up around me.
The fear of getting myself hurt.
And hearing from my surrounding, love that last seems to happen only in fairytales.
Where many heartbrokens due to third party, se* scandals, etc.
Which love can be true?
When feelings fade, all that is left are memories.
And only the ones that were being left, hold on to those memories.

Published with Blogger-droid v2.0.10