说好了把泪擦干
泪却逆着流两行

© Brigitte Khoo Jie Bin

在爱与恨的中间
似乎没有平衡点

© Brigitte Khoo Jie Bin

糖含在嘴里总会想起你
心里也会是多么的甜蜜
曾经有着那爱过的情节
这一切也都不需要剪接

© Brigitte Khoo Jie Bin

SAD!

It has been a week since I last update my blog. Many things happened. My laptop crashed again! Task Task! Yesterday had it fixed! I went to look for my friend 'cos she need someone to talk to. Then we talk alot and cry alot. I know that things may not be like of what we want but we must move forward!~ I will be there for you de!! No matter what!! Lucky never do anything silly lo!!! Haiz. Don't make me worry about you wor!! Reflecting...I really don't like my life!!! SUPER BORING!!! Nothing FUN FILLED like before!!! Is it because of work??? It seems that my life is always been encircle with nothing!!! Friends drifted...that is always part of my life as I move on to another stage. But I really don't like it! We used to be so closed and now seems so far. Good friends are hard to keep??? Somehow I'm starting to believe it!!! Arghz! Friends I never had real closed ones for long. Is it me???I really don't know. Am I not good enough?? I really don't like the loneliness. It's cold!*Depressed* *Sob sob*
Till then.

Saturday Night~

Saturday. Went to hospital to visit my aunt and cousin. They are both down with dengue fever. Hope they get well soon wor! Take care yea. Went back home and try reformatting my laptop! AND YES!!!! IT RECOVERED~! It's my first time reformatting my lappie myself~! Wahahaha. SO HAPPY~! But all my songs and all are gone!!! Sobx. Happy that it recovered!! *Sayang* my lappie!!!! I love my lappie~! Ahaha. Shall stop here. Need to catch some sleep. Tommorrow still need to go church wor. Till then and take care peeps~

Friday

Friday! Work as usual. No appetite for lunch. So didn't go for lunch. Had training with lead in the morning. But she trains me for awhile cos she got audit to do. Today don't know why so no mood. Doesn't seem to be in a FRIDAY MOOD!! Cindy got the Zhang Zhen Yue tickets to the concert at NTU and we go together!!! SO HIGH! Wohooo~! ENCORE: 爱我别走~! The LIVE is SUPER HIGH!!!! After the concert we went to the business block. The top floor!! The scenary from there is SUPERB!!!! Really very nice!! Thanks to Cindy for bringing me there. Though its a bit of a creepy. After that Cindy's friend came, they give me a lift home. Abit paiseh hur. But the car is SUPER COOL!! Thanks alot for the lift back home. Gotta go bath le. Till then~! *Sore Throat*

习惯

习惯一个人生活
就连话也不多说
虽然会如此堕落
也不想继续难过

© Brigitte Khoo Jie Bin

Tuesday~!

Tuesday! My laptop crushed. ARGHZ!!! I use my recovery CD but still can't reformat it. Shall do it over the weekends. Haiz. This week doesn't seem to be my week. My aunt admitted to hospital due to dengue fever and my cousin suspected of dengue fever too. Hope they get well soon. Have been bringing company laptop home cos KFC went back to his seat and I cant use the locker anymore. Tsk Tsk. Can't imagine I have to bring laptop to and fro work everyday!! So heavy. What if I wanna go out after work?? Arghz!

2nd week in procurement

Monday Blues! 2nd week at procurement department! Work load comes. Have been emailing the suppliers. Arghz. Time pass quite fast working at the procurement department compared to those days at MERPS. I get to touch on things I have not done before and busier is better than slacking in front of the laptop. There will be training with my previous lead this coming friday. Hopefully I can cope well with the training. Its SAP!!! Need to get some rest. Still having splitting headache. Till then~

Friday~!

Friday~! Again I had nothing to do!!! Super stress seeing Evangeline so busy. Like I can't help her with anything. Feel so bad sia. Arghz. Headache still quite pain. Lunch we had mee siam and popiah. I had a lot of mee siam and feel guilty taking it. 'cos this week didn't go exercising much. Only went running on monday which is like really weird!!! I seldom do running as a form of exercising in my schedule. It gives me blister 'cos I pulled the ankle socks really low. FRIDAY!!! Weekends are coming~! Next sunday shall go KBOX!!!! hehe~! Have to sleep early today!!! The headache is terrible. I hope its not Migraine. Did a bit research on Migraine.

What is a migraine headache?
A migraine headache is a form of vascular headache. Migraine headache is caused by a combination of vasodilatation (enlargement of blood vessels) and the release of chemicals from nerve fibers that coil around the blood vessels. During a migraine attack, the temporal artery enlarges. (The temporal artery is an artery that lies on the outside of the skull just under the skin of the temple.) Enlargement of the temporal artery stretches the nerves that coil around the artery and causes the nerves to release chemicals. The chemicals cause inflammation, pain, and further enlargement of the artery. The increasing enlargement of the artery magnifies the pain.
Migraine attacks commonly activate the sympathetic nervous system in the body. The sympathetic nervous system is often thought of as the part of the nervous system that controls primitive responses to stress and pain, the so-called "fight or flight" response. The increased sympathetic nervous activity in the intestine causes nausea, vomiting, and diarrhea. Sympathetic activity also delays emptying of the stomach into the small intestine and thereby prevents oral medications from entering the intestine and being absorbed. The impaired absorption of oral medications is a common reason for the ineffectiveness of medications taken to treat migraine headaches. The increased sympathetic activity also decreases the circulation of blood, and this leads to pallor of the skin as well as cold hands and feet. The increased sympathetic activity also contributes to the sensitivity to light and sound sensitivity as well as blurred vision.

How is a migraine headache diagnosed?
Migraine headaches are usually diagnosed when the symptoms described above are present. Migraine generally begins in childhood to early adulthood. While migraines can first occur in an individual beyond the age of fifty, advancing age makes other types of headaches more likely. A family history is usually present, suggesting a genetic predisposition in migraine sufferers. In addition to diagnosing migraine from the clinical presentation there is usually an accompanying normal examination.
Patients with the first headache ever, worst headache ever, or where there is a significant change in headache or the presence of nervous system symptoms, like visual or hearing or sensory loss, may require additional tests. The tests may include blood testing, brain scanning (either CT or MRI), and a spinal tap.

How are migraine headaches treated?
Treatment is can include non-medication and medication approaches. Non-medication therapies for migraine Therapy that does not involve medications can provide symptomatic and preventative therapy. Using ice, biofeedback, and relaxation techniques may be helpful at stopping an attack once it has started. If possible, sleep is the best medicine. Preventing migraine takes motivation for the patient to make some life changes. Patients are educated as to triggering factors that can be avoided. These include smoking cessation, avoiding certain foods especially those high in tyramine (sharp cheeses) or those containing sulphites (wines) or nitrates (nuts, pressed meats). Generally, leading a healthy life style with good nutrition, adequate water intake, sufficient sleep and exercise may be useful. Acupuncture has been suggested to be a useful non-medication therapy.

Abstract from: http://www.medicinenet.com/migraine_headache/index.htm

Thursday~

Thursday~! Still having headache. Is quite painful. Asked mum to make me some 'Cooling Tea'. Nothing to do at work. Keep surfing net until I feel so guilty sia. 'cos everyone is like so busy and I'm so free. Arghz. This week the headache makes me really sick. Can't even go out! I feel like going out sia. Till then. Should take more rest. Hope tomorrow will be better.

Wednesday~!

Wednesday~! Getting used to being in procurement?? Not quite nei. Nothing to do 'cos I'm not trained to used certain software and the training won't be that soon. The training will be conducted by my merps lead~! Hehe~! Today we meet momo~! Went to ?Akira there to look at the interior design that momo's house will be using. It was like 'WOW'. ITS NICE!!! I like the bedroom design they have over there. It's like my desired room wor!!! Wahaha. After that we went to IMM for dinner. Jessie left first 'cos she got something on. Then Yun came and join us for dinner at Ichiban. Hehe. We ate till like 9pm!! Then we went to Giant to buy some food for tomorrow's lunch. Reached home like 11pm. Yawnz. Still having headache. Suspect to be migraine. I hope not! Till then.

First day at PROCUREMENT!

First day in Procurement. The office over there is like not as cold as MERPS office. The environment?? I'm not quite used to the low division of the desk that you can see what others are doing. Working there seems stressed. Everybody seems to be busy. AND working there, there is like 75% chances that you may bump into the director!!! Wahahaha. I missed Cindy and Jessie. I missed the rest of MERPS people!!!! Today just did sorting of the files in the procurement file. I do not have my own desk, drawer and all. I missed my desk at TSB Building!!! Till then~! Need to catch some sleep.