Super Emo today....
Faint...
Bruise on the eye....
SUPER PAIN!
Clumsy me??!
Haiz.

I start to sway again....
Not motivated
Abit demoralized....
Tired of IT!

Feeling like breaking free!!
This time...
I want it to be immediate!
I want to be firm with my decision!!

Shall start my backup now!!!
AJA AJA FIGHTING!!!!!!

Relationships are like glass. Sometimes it is better to leave them broken than try to hurt yourself putting it back together.

Topic of reflection...
When time could rewind....
what will you think you will do better and what will you think you will not do it again?

To me... I will say right from the start....
If time could rewind,
I would study harder during my primary school days....
I would not be so playful...
I would avoid talking things out too blantly...(I'm currently avoiding it)
I would not be so soft hearted....as in always abide to what was told..
I would not let anyone bully me...
I would try to be a bit more firm in making decision....slightly more decisive....

If I could.....

Tsk Tsk. Had been feeling blur these few days..... Dunno what I am doing.... Faint! Is really in a super sub-conscious mind state... Perhaps during these few days.... the sick bug is tagging me... and my mind is seriously not working.... I don't know what I had done right and what I had done wrong.... This sub-conscious mind state is KILLING ME!!!! I feel so NOT ME these few days!!!

Please bring back my healthy state of mind back!!! I don't want to make wrong decision and blur'ing anymore!!!!

TskTsk. Have been feeling super sick these few days. Super tired and stressed up.
But I know the encouragement and motivation given had let me fight through these few days.
Cough Cough! Sneeze Sneeze. Giddy Giddy. Blur Blur. Thats my situation these few days!
My voice is so disgusting!!! Ewks!
When talking to customer, I heard myself speaking... I was like OMG!
Faint.
Haiz.
Abit tired. Need to relax abit.
I want holiday!!!
Haha. Just to reward myself. I bought MIU MIU Wallet!!! Once I received my pay slip!!
Just a click away with i bank!!
LOL.
Maybe I should throw away my ibanking device! Splurge and splurge sia!
NVM! looking forward to receiving my WALLET~!!!
I want to watch PHOBIA 2~!!!!!
Tsk. This week. Tues, thurs, fri and SAT! doing OT!
I wanna breakfree~!
JB tmr~!!! Wohoo~!

I dont want to live for work!!
Tsk Tsk.
I don't like the work
I mish the old me!
Cheerful? Bubbly? Happening??
Where are they!!!

I seems to be lost...
Lost in the unfriendliness environment

JUST WANNA BREAKFREE~!!!!!!!!!!!

Aaachoooo.... Caught cold....
Sneezing away.....
Faint!
Cant sleep ytd...
Watched Phobia!!!
LOL! And seriously I dun think its scary lor!!! (as per one of my sissy friend!)
Wahaha!
I am so gonna watch phobia 2!!! LOL.
but I think the feel of watching at the movie and watching on the lappie...
the feeling maybe different.
LOL!
Today...I am SUPER STRESSED at work!
I'm feeling that my limit is reaching!!
Arghz.
I actually did have the impulse to print the letter
But not the courage to submit the letter
Haiz.

When I thought I could take it easy, it seems to be wandering around my mind....
When I thought I don't mind it, it seems like butterflies are in my stomach....

I want to live life the fullest!!!!!!

I don't wanna be soft!
I want to take up the challenges!
I wouldn't want to admit defeat!
I will do it until it reaches my limit of perserverance!
I want to be strong!
I want to breakfree from that timid me!

I know I got that weird 大小姐attitude
People do change.
But I want to change.
For better of cos!!
But when wrong influence came in?? How??


Tsk. The long weekend passed so fast!
Had a fruitful weekend.
Did something sweet and indifferent!

Aja aja fighting for the week!! OT on the way!!!!

Yesterday was SUPER STRESSED! Stress up to the MAX! hurhur!
Sometimes I feel whats the point of living up with all those!
At times I want to be selfish.
Seriously, the work given I really feel tired.
I had pulled through so much...
Another 4 months....
I started to slow down this few days....
I need to breakfree...
Seriously there is no motivation...
The achievement through work seems so meaningless...
Perhaps it doesnt make it a better person....
Perhaps considering the other factors that I had left out due to work..
It becomes burden to me.
My life? Wads that? Work and Sleep?
My friends? Just colleagues? Where do I have the time for them when OT is always needed.
BF? Our free days conflicted. Just the weekends.
Family? Just the last few mins before sleep do they see me.
Home? Just like a hotel for me to sleep?

My life? Never I call that LIFE!

Hurhur. Enough of those complaint.
Just need to enjoy the LONG weekend!

Happy HARI RAYA PUASA~!!

*Reviving my Blog*

It had been so long since I last update!!!!
OMG!
There is a lot of things that change.
My life, thoughts, emo'ness, work.....
Have been quite sadistic
People change.
For better? For worst?
Not up to me to comment.
Gap between us widen.
Quarrels get frequent
Trust had reached a limit?
Tolerence level just wanna breakfree...

也许你觉得一切不一样了, 那是因为人和心是会变的....

我还可不可以再勇敢 

悲伤已经让我无力承担 

这困境不知该怎么办 

我只想把一切大声哭喊 

雨天过后的彩虹 

带来着一份感动 

曾经期待着的梦 

总让我怦然心动 

也许当时我不懂 

那是所谓的心动 

© Brigitte Khoo Jie 

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