bAoc is SOOOOOO FUN!!!

Yipee...we today almost finish that bee flag...Omg....the flag is so nice...I promise we will definitely get the best flag....its just so cute...haha...so nice...i'm loving it....heehee....this few days had been always going for bAoc thingy...and i am so high...cos bAoc is just so fun...playing all those mind games...and got to know that i am so slow...haha...but we did solve alll those quiz wor...heehee....Bonding is fun..Got to know more friends there...and our NCOs are just so funny...really cant stop laughing...love bAoc to bits...cos there is where i get those laughter...Yea...we are about to finish our flag...and the moo...its soon to be done....Super high now....just cant wait to finish them...cos it will definitely be so nice...yippee...haha...opps...loss control...that enthusiastic part of me owas cum out late at night...thats my life...so now really cant sleep...oh my...hmmm...nowadays feel so high..."infected" by bAoc and joc and eve....haha...think the last time i feel so high is the dunearn campfire...haha...i am not quiet sort one...haha...just that my enthusiasm cums in the night...opps..thats why my post is ever so long....heehee...sorrie to make you all see so much words...wanna share another story....there is a ger who have been secretly in love with a boy...by chance her friends knows him...and they got to play basketball together...and they get to talk...one fine day...the ger realised that her cca has a combined camp which the boy will be oso going...she feel so excited...on the first day of camp...after the bath...he walked past her..feeling cold...then the ger give her jacket to him...and she shiver for the whole night....throughout the camp...after the camp...they did not go home right after..instead they meet up with some of their basketball mates for a basketball game...after the game the boy sent her home...after that rumours came about that the ger likes her...one day...as he borrow her textbook...returning it to her..he slip a piece of paper in the book....written: do you like me?...wad a poor start up...and during recess he came up to the ger and ask for the answer...blushed...the ger tell him her feelings...and they were together...but it does not last long...as they were still at a young age...the ger decided that they should focus on their studies...and she gave him her first kiss and left him...she did not tell him why she left him...fifty years later they met at the basketball court...they both had married...the ger still have feelings for him...and she decided to be with him...and after consulting their the other party...they went abroad and lead the life they had wanted fifty years ago...i really feel very touched inside...the ger's first love is so deep...and till old age she still remember him and all those memories they had shared...this is a real story shared by my friend's grandma...the ending abit like that of SHE-I Love You 's mtv....its just so touching....Love really does wonders.... stop here le...too long a post...can read until sleep de...haha....

Thoughts...

hmm...today still the same...go to skool den go home...very envy cm leh...he get to work at techpoint for 2 days so sian mu...i also wanna work...he some more aggitate me...say he saw him early in the morning...when my handphone beep..i really thought is he reply my message leh...den see his message...pengz...den go back to sleep...haha...if is he reply i sure be very awake de...opps...later kena scold...heehee....oh yar...should ask cm to help me ask when his bdae...he still dun wanna tell me when his bdae leh...friendster oso cannot check wor...haiz...i only wanna give him another bdae present to him mar...wa..to think...i like him for about a year and a half le...oh my...abit ridiculous for a girl to do that lor...but i think i am the devoted kind bar...still am clear minded that all this is just one sided feelings lor...till now still think of him...haiz...but i really miss him wor...hmm...to think huh...last time really didnt accept the sum1...den still accept his gift..but is like he insist that i must take it de...oh my....and this is happening to me...i give him present and he just accept...is this call retribution...treating sumone who like you like that then the sumone who you like will treat you like that?? Seems true....but what i give him is not sumthing that contains all my hardwork...all those effort i put to make the cookies...and the decoration of the whole thing...its actually the thoughts that counts...but why doesnt it touches him a little...or maybe he could at least reply me and tell me that the cookies is nice...but i know he is not that sort that will say it out...haha...he is just those very dao kinda person...think he very attractive...or maybe should say i am attracted to those type of guys?? maybe is his unique looks( think abit like jay chou wor...eyes very small(single eye lid de)...styled hair...broad shouldered..actually is a typical ah beng lor...heehee）oh my..so long nv see him le lor...last time i see him should be christmas lor...went back give him present...become even shuai...dye hair more style...heehee...think i m so over him...oh my...abit like despo sia...hmm...this hols abit bored wor...no work..no money...so no life...cos cant spend as and when i like...but i can tell you this...bAoc is fun lor...i am just loving it....heehee...really had fun making the flag....yipee...really had fun with the crazy SCOs...and my friends...gttg liao...blog another time le....

PS: If she loves you more then I do...I will love you even more...so that she will loves you more....

© Brigitte Khoo Jie Bin

sick...

Result is out...think did badly leh...haiz...today actually decided to go pasir ris with them de...cos think is bonding mar...den stay at home also nothing to do...but who knows...yesterday i got fever...den i really hope today can recover de...but even higher leh...so sian now...today have to eat all those medicine...including cough...den my family eat all those nice food...den i can only eat macaroni stuff...is torturing!! haiz...hope can recover soon...den tml we can start again doing our flag...hope mummy letting me out tml..heehee...i wanna go out too...go Kbox..go sentosa..go shopping..haiz...getting real bored at home...should i sneak out of the house and join them for the SB gathering...really feel like doing that..can i??hmm...gttg liao..blog next time bar...dun like feeling sick...sianz....

My Story

Yea...We are going to complete the thistle flag...is the picture that i posted..bear that in mind...that is not pineapple...is THISTLE!!haha...is the scottish flower..hmm...really fickled minded me...initially dun wanna go for that interview le..but then my friend keep telling me to go...dunno whether tml wanna go or not leh...if dun go mum sure nag...stay at home do nothing dun go out find job n earn money back...hmm...but the working hour too long le...den i have to always go back skool for cca too...but no money!!OMG!!how shall i decide...i really need money...i wanna buy shoes,clothes,birthday presents,all stuffs...but no money...maybe i should consider that job??haiz...really fickled minded me!!maybe go and try...if dun like den quit after 5 days and get the pay??humph...irritating myself with stupid decision making...toss a coin and decide my fate??NVM..think see how's my mood...if i have good mood tml maybe try going..no harm trying mar...den sfter that still have to go marketing too...need to buy food to cook for dinner...haiz...so sian...nothing much happen to my boring life...haven been knowing new friends...is like should get closer to the society..know more people out there...not that i dun like my old friends hor..i treasure every friend i have...:P hmm...recently heard a story...got one girl and boy...they fell in love at a very young age...both are each ones' first love...but eventually break up due to some reasons by the female party....after 6 years, they met again...the feeling they had 6 years ago came back...but both of them are too stubborn...they dun wanna express their feelings for each other and keep suppressing their feelings towards each other...when they were both on the MSN..they very much hope to msg each other...but din have the courage...one day..they meet in IRC..where dey do not know each other identity...they say out their feelings...but they din realise the other party real identity...they always meet up in IRC and talk about their inner feelings they had each day...Finally...they decided to met up..when they meet up...they were shocked to see each other...they sat down and chat like there is an everlasting topic to talk on...in the end...they are together again....after i heard this story..i really believe that when love comes...you really cant escape...its all fated..if you are fated to be with him...though it takes a big round...you will still end up with him...this story is real touching...its a real pure first love... so drama...but will that happen in real life??Revival of old relationship works??But i really envy the girl..her first love is her last love...but my first love??really very envy those who have such a romantic love story...really too drama or shall i say too meng huan(梦幻) to believe that such thing even exist...this post sure a long one...stop here le...dunno tml wanna go or not leh...kkiez..blog again next time...

Campfire Rulex~!

Hey..Yesterday din get to blog...cos too tired le...so high yesterday...their campfire really good wor...so high tech leh...the video really very professional...i hope our campfire can be like that...haha...oh yar..yesterday actually did see my friend...haha..but din get to catch up with him...cos think he too busy handling his junior...haha..naughty bunch of kids...:P really very long never catch up with my guides and scouts friend le...haha..most of them go army le...den sum got girlfriend no time for gathering lor...how sad....last time we usually meet after our own troop finish our dinner or maybe considered as supper...den we go outside mac and chat den know new friends from there...haha...this is how we get to know the names of the guys we aimed during campfire...haha...den after that go home check friendster...oh...i really miss those days...but i have to say lar....i m not despo lar...just see the guys very cute only hor...but now like we dun get to even see each other that often le...so cant noe anything le...haha...they invite scouts from quite far wor...hougang sec they invite...and yar got one of their senior quite cute...omg!! hmm...is he that one we see at monfort sec de campfire...dat guy that play the guitar...really cute wor...haha..but think is different person bar...cos different though same district...heehee...so high yesterday....i just love guiding!!heehee...think tml im going to skool...dun feel like going for the interview liao...go alone really very sian leh....den work der alone more sian...dey sae der mostly aunties de...but think maybe they are now recruiting students??haha...aniwae im not going for the interview tml lor...wanna go for bAoc...its fun doing the flag...really looking forward doing that scottish bull...it will definitely shone out from the other group...cos our flag got that X- factor....heehee...abit boosting own group huh...gotta stop here le...spyware made me mad!!cant clear dem off leh....gttg liao..blog next time... let you peeps take a look at our masterpiece of one of the flag....heehee....

Hols is here...what am i doing??

It seems like I haven been blogging often...days are getting bored for the hols...cant find job...everyday go out with friends until no money le..oh no...haha...but i still enjoy every moment with them...(heehee:P) initially pinning quite high hope that i can go back and work de...but think impossible liao...abit sad but its alrite bar...think i should not go back der work bar...later very paiseh...haiz...contradicting lor...deep inside i really want to go back de... really "kou shi xin fei"..think i am such a person bar...especially towards BGR...cos I dun really dare to accept or even express my feelings...maybe i scared of getting hurt again or maybe i m just too protective...I really dunno....i admit defeat in such thing...oh yea...im very excited now...tml got campfire...is DUNEARN campfire!!OMG..i am soooo excited...have been looking forward to their campfire...cos theirs is held once in every 4 years...and the scouts!!haha....so excited now...getting high this few days because of the campfire...heehee...so long nv go campfire le...i so miss those days where we go for campfire and being so high...shouting at the loudest voice...combing at the cutest guy...haha...(not me only hor**) its so fun...im loving it lor...that part makes my life more filled with high spirits...OMG....I just LOVE Guiding....its part of me le...now hols liao...should go back more often...cos last sem din really get the chance to go back due to time table...yippeee...im so high...opps...gotta stop here le...gotta go skool for bAoc thingy...blog next time bar...will blog on sat...i m so excited....:P

Hols...no job??

So long nv blog le...haiz...still cant find job...i cant slack this hols..really need money for some spending plan...hope i can get it by next week...this hols too much things need to do...then i think alot too...i begin to miss him again...oh...the feeling just from nowhere appeared...is like everyday i still msg him which i din stop doing...and everyday check up his friendster account hoping that he would update his info or maybe add his own pics...haiz...all those BGR thingy...i thought i had already gotten over..then i read through my previous journal...all those feelings have always in my heart...its just that all those talks make me hide this feeling i had and pretend i had gotten over...but i m still clinching on the last hope...hoping that things may change for the better..."life is never smooth sailing...there are ups and downs dat make it a life...and if you dun face all those..you would never find the meaning of life" this is wad i interpret from today's gospel...whenever there is a fall..i must bravely face it...persevere may be a way but it may never always solve it...and thus only giving up will allow you to grow....from then i will become stronger and know what is the meaning of life...After listen his speech...really think its so full of logic...if i could do this...i wouldnt be so in pain now...to take this great step really need alot of courage...say is always ever easy than doing it...i just cant practise what i preaching...hmm....think one day i can make it...this kind of thing i think really need time to do it...hols is here...and haven been doing things that are meaningful...always go shop for things...stay at home play laptop until now almost going to crash liao...its like so many spyware...skool reopen den go skool for maintenance...oh yar tml need to go skool for the baoc thingy so excited...but i dunno must do what leh...:P heehee...gotta end here le...blog next time...

Wedding bell rings...not mine!!

Wow...today very tired wor...morning must wake up early to attend my cousin's wedding...very grand leh!!is not like the norm practise where we had dinner..instead we have lunch, church ceremoney, signing of certificate of marriage at a hotel...the food is really nice and i had white wine and red wine...really nice servers at the banquet...haha...now thinking when i married that time must be even more grand than this....haha...think so far liao...no bf yet how can married...haha...see people wear wedding gown so beautiful...so envy wor...*think too much liao...after the whole thing finish we went shopping at suntec city...my poor leg very pain leh...cos wearing high heels...the first time i wear such high de heels lor...so not use to it...haha...then went to granndpa's house..help out for the ceremony on tuesday...then i feel very bad...i promise stacy to go celebrate pangyi's bdae...but i have to go grandpa's hse...stacy...really sorrie leh...wanna also wish pangyi HAPPY BIRTHDAY~! really sorrie i cant make it on that day wor...hope you wun mind...i also have to apologise to jenna n pw...cos i promise them tml we go out de...but i have to go to my grandpa hse and help out...sorrie...i really feel apologetic....pang sei my friends....really sorrie...i really cannot make it...SORRIE..erm..i have to end off...really kinda tired liao...

Life...So many ups and Downs...

Yipee...Exams are over...stress release today~! I went to town...go for window shopping cos no money le..gotta find job soon...haha..saw alot of things i want to buy...exams really make me mad....i just cant stand that pressure...all those questions of all modules are just so difficult..besides i am not those studious person...i just cant exam..there is limit to my brains...Argh...forget it...all this over and i must enjoy my hols..maybe do something to break through the norms...like??haha...oh yar..his birthday is coming up soon...haha..still thinking of him...really cant help it leh...he may not have good temper and nice words dont often come out from his mouth..but that only good point covers all which his hardworkingness...the determine to put in effort when doing things...aiyo...over so long still think about him...haiz...now have to solve all problems not solved during the exam period...that friend( i still consider her as a friend but i noe she does not) i really wanna say thousands and millions of apology...I really dint mean to do things that sour our friendship...and that sudden change that you ignored me really make me feel very lonely and that how much you mean to me...I really feel apologetic...you may think i am not sincere enough as i just wrote it down here and din express it out to you in person...but i really bad at expressing it out...i dunno if you will still be bothered to read my blog..but i really hope we can like before...talk like usual and not avoiding me...i really tried to strike conversation with you but as you noe i am just that quiet sort...haiz...i just wanna say "I REALLY TREASURE YOU...WITHOUT YOU, MY LIFE SEEMS SO EMPTY!!CAN WE BE LIKE BEFORE?? FULFILLING OUR 'FRIENDS FOREVER' PROMISE THAT WE HAVE GIVEN FOR EACH OTHER." sometimes i really wonder why am such a person...am i really that bad...why friends are moving far from me?? did i change or is that i think too much...but i somehow feel the gap between all my friends...isit that i din make time for them?? but i always stay in touch though we din get to see each other...am i not fit to be someone's friend?? WHO AM I?? Why am I so lost as in to define one as a friend...they seem to be taking me for granted and after making full use of me ditch me aside...ignore me...haiz...friendship really hard to find one that is true to you and never abandon you....Life.I haven seen enough for there are more beyond what I see...more beyond the boundaryless sky where endless situations does happen...That is LIFE~!