After yesterday's post
I also did a closure post to that chapter in the other blog I created
Baby steps I am taking
But I guess I will soon be taking it well
Perhaps just couldn't stride away by what went wrong though
This year I am going to set some resolution for 2020 which I didn't do it for 2019.
Not trying to fix myself to a certain achievement
But most important is live on the value of being me and happy.

Year 2020 Resolution
1. To smile more than I cry, or best is no cry la.
        *But I got weak points for sad stories.
2. Exercise more, keep fit and stay healthy.
        *Ups it to twice a week, minimum 1 hour per workout
3. Open up more to people
         *Less of coldness
4. More Love.
         *Spend more time with family~
5. Another Solo trip
         *Maybe a backpack trip to Korea/Japan or Taiwan again?
6. More volunteer work
         *More active with Team Nila and newly join CDAC
7. Get hitched, with the right one!
         *Well, my friends say I have to add this one. Not sure if tinder does work out right.
         *Eyes really gonna open bigger and not be so easily hooked by sweet talks
8. Blog more often!
          *Noting down whatever emotions I have there and then.
          *Looking back at those posts make me realized how much I had grown

That's about all to set ahead for a better year I guess
Seems easy but keeping to it is tough
Have a blessed new year peeps~

去年的今天,
我哭惨了...
而今天,
我决定
该释怀了...
说也许容易
但做到真的很难
每次告诉过自己
不要那么执着
却是不听
希望我能慢慢的
不再追踪他的近况
当然希望他找到
他要的幸福
最后我会祝福他的
因为我是爱他的...
抹去所有掉过的眼泪
只想留下美好的回忆
那就是我们曾经开心在一起过
谢谢你出现在我生命里

Down with Fever and Sore Throat since Friday
Still not yet recovered.
Drown with work and backup-ing colleague
Despite working out intensively once a week
Immune system doesnt get any better
Keep having eye twitching on the left
Hope it is something good though recently not much of a good news to hear
Christmas is round the corner
Or rather it is Tomorrow!
As usual our family will be having lunch feast!
Hopefully I get well soon and get to feast all the food and drink!
Till then peeps
Have a blessed X'mas all~

Recently, kept having tight chest and I thought it might be my time is up.
Especially after Godfrey Gao's incident.
Will take more care and slowing things down.

Went to visit grandma at NTF and gym at westgate today.
As usual I walked the same route there alone.
Tough as usual.
I controlled my tears.

Passed by the place we sat for hours and me crying so hard there.
Couldn't help and tear up.
Taking the same route back.
Memories seem so hard to let go
The place when you asked me to be your girlfriend while I was struggling to give an answer.
The place we first kissed.
The place we broke down, I hugged you yet you pushed me away.

On the way back, I wished that you are doing even better now.
In the mind, the words I want to say to you.
I know you deserve someone better.
I hope you think for yourself more.
I hope you found someone better.
I hope happiness stays with you.

It is not my first time being abandoned anyway.
Just this time it really hit hard on me.
Thought I should be getting used to being abandoned.
Still it hurts.
Cos it's something not easy to let go.

Route to happiness seems impossible for me.
Just being unwanted or rather like a post it note, used and throw.
Seems like my destiny.

For now, I shall just try to be
What I am used to be.

Till then peeps.
Pre-Monday Emo-ness...