USELESS = ME, JIEBIN, Just ME!

Long time never blog le....hmm...exams so far are really BAD...did badly for ECOM, PMKT and IEF!! basically all of the exams i had just took...have been feeling very stress...MOODY....A year has passed....i really miss her alot....i just love her so much....haiz.....really very sad...didnt do well for my exams....which i promised her that i will....i know i didnt work real hard for the exams....watching even more TV program instead of studying...and right now even blogging away....haiz...why am i so useless....cant even do what i promised her....results will be predicted as BAD....imagine all those Cs i am getting AGAIN....was a disappointment with the previous sem results.....ALL Cs......USELESS me......Cant do anything right....And im just of no concerns to the world....IM the lonely USELESS one....OUTCAST of the world.....Haiz....inferiority once again...begin to feel that USELESS=ME, JIEBIN,JUST ME!!....I just cant get things done in the right way....no1 even wants to bother me....And im just that lonesome one....walking down the street....Friendless....Emptiness....Loneliness.....Any word you can describe a lonesome person is just ME! i really dunno why the sudden change in me....but i feel that in the exam period....friends leaving me....and my loved one leaving me....crying over things that i should have tried harder....DEPRESSION.....this time is real deep....i just cant hide that depression in me....my heart bleed like never before....I may not show my feelings out...but really...everything that happened....my heart showed it most....maybe im just so useless....cant be expressive....leading to MANY misunderstandings....im really trying hard to get over things...i know life must carry on...the world wont stop moving just because certain things happened....it just the talk thing that makes it easy....really letting go takes more than a courageous step out...it takes more of BRAINWASHING....to really let everything go....the PAIN....pricking me all over....hmm...this post is sounding harsh....serious....but i will be fine de....just really wanna express that true feelings of mine....not the wishy washy feelings....with fear of exposing too much of my feelings out....gttg le...really need a break....Tmr's Sis birthday and Ash Wednesday....considering going for the CHOICES camp during end of march weekends...heard it helps knowing more friends and understand more about my religion.....prepare to buy present for sis le....till then.....

PS:
When is the last time you ever say thanks to your friends for always being there by your side....
When is the last time you hug your friend and tell them you love them lots...
When is the last time you message your friends and say you are missing them....
When is the last time you made you friends laugh to cheer their day up....
There is always the last time you did something for them....
And there's one thing you never know when you do it the last time
And thats TREASURE your friends
'Cos you will need a LIFETIME and NO LAST TIME....
-JieBin

Finally~

Yohooo...Finally finished all presentations....yipee....ahaha...i considered the IS presentation a good one bar...hehe...din bite on my words...i must say it is really rare in my presentation if i din tongue tied...ahaha...and yar...my mentor likes my spanish flan...ahaha...i think it was really sweet though...but think spanish has real sweet tooth...he ate 2 bowls of spanish flan!! That is really alot i must say...ahaha..after had oral communication test...pick 3 questions but manage to get answer for 2 questions...hehe...wonder can pass or not....wahaha...yippeee....tmr going town with mummy....hehe....accompany her go for dunno what check up at taka der....den after that go SHOPPING....my FAVOURITE!!!ahaha...last week we went to Bugis....and i treat my mum to that bugis cafe jocelyn introduce....was really nice!! hmm...dunno tmr treat mum eat what....ahaha...im a filial child wor....hehe...exams coming soon...everyone must jiayou lo....ahaha...will start studying on Monday...saturaday got my sis's school funfair....wohoho...excited...wonder whats in there....hehe....must support my sis...bought the tickets from her....hehe....and yar...i wanna mention sumthing here...today in msn...talk to this guy...i must say he is really devoted...wait for her ex-gf for 1 year....and is like he has been missing her lots...cutting and slashing himself...really feel sad for him...is like her ex-gf is those flirty type...haiz...hope he can be brave...and really get over it....its like its not worth giving up the whole forest for just one tree...when you look beyond that tree...there is still others better than that one....you may see her as the perfect one....but actually the imperfect is just that breakup....you must jiayou kiez...you have lots of friends by you...and you have me too....i can be there for you de...though i may not know you much....but im really sincere to help you through this difficult time....and make you see that life is still beautiful after all...no use messing up your life for her....jiayou! you can do it de...

I Am Not Stupid Too

Wohoo..blogger was under maintenance yesterday....hehe...yesterday went to watch "I Not Stupid Too"...Was really very nice...Very funny at the very front....laugh none stop...hehe....its really a worthwhile movie to watch...shows about how kids turn bad...and how miscommunication can make things worst....overall think it should be considered as educational movie bar...teach alot about communication...hmmm...yesterday did PMKT presentation till quite late wor...then today still got lecture at 9am...task....really very tired...tml will be the DREADING day...having 2 presentations....EC and PMKT....bless me lo...put in alot of effort in doing the EC webby...hope can score well...ahaha...And hopefully the competition between me and my friends on the Website...I'll win....did spend alot of time discovering codes in the HTML...but i think that was fun...somehow i feel that i am quite interested in doing design with the computers...eh...am i in the wrong course??wahaha...but i dont regret taking up business...cos i have been wanting to further my studies in the tertiary industry...hehe..hmm...just got the attachment slip thingy...OMG...my working hours is like from8-5.30pm...heyhey...luckily is 5DAYS work....if not i will die lo....wahaha...but at least i can still go out in the evening....hopefully the company is good lo....gotta catch lots of sleep le....till then bar...

Open House~

Yoz...ahaha....got the attachment company le...its Jurong Engineering Ltd....OMG...just see the company name i already cant imagine what i would be doing...and the company is located at Tanjong Kling Road....and for goodness sake...dont ever ask me do things with IT stuff...i would make a mess out of it de...ahaha...hopefully it will be better than what i expected bar...but frankly speaking...i dont have much hope on it that it is going to be a good company bar...but thats only my point of view...who knows rite...bless me bar...hehe....today a horrible day for me wor...had a freak out of my life...today IEF tutorial was so scary...Ms Wong with that real fierce look...plus my blurness....and thats it...got named stupid lo....hehe....abit sotong today...just dunno why...hehe...today went to try to make the dessert i was thinking of making for the spanish presentation...it is called Spanish Flan...hmmm...it got burnt....wahaha....abit only....and yar still edible....sotong me...but i think quite nice except abit too sweet...the recipe is too sweet le...not i add too much de wor....hehe...hmm...shall try other spanish food bar...hehe...and yar..this week got alot of elearning stuff to do wor...Open House starts since yesterday....NP is now so crowded....so Hype...with those secondary school student....and events taking place....ahaha...while walking at the convention...we were mistaken as 'o' level student...hehe...so funny....*** even went to do the survey which is meant for 'o' level student...hehe...shall not name her here....hehe....i enjoy the open house...always so lively....and filled with noise....making everyone in NP busy preparing for Open House...hehe....till then lo....gotta do e learning lo~!!

CNY MOOD~~!!

Wohoo...Happy chinese New year to everyone...hehe...did have lots of fun during the chinese new year season...did alot of shopping....hehe...and yar...i dont dare to eat too much of those chinese new year goodies....scared too heaty for me....but i still get it...got red hot lips....painful....and so ugly...red and puffy...and i just cant really talk alot...cos its hurt....hmm...must be that REAL spicy dinner i had on the first day of new year at my grandma's house...and it burnt my whole lips....ahaha....yesterday went to K-Box with my cousins, aunt and uncle....it was quite expensive...its 12+++ and the tidbits was 7++...each person is like 20++...but we did enjoy ourselves...then we went to chong pang and had our dinner there...was quite alot of people there....and yar...we saw fireworks there....hehe...and i made wishes...1)Everyone's happy....2) I'm happy....3)No more hiccups in the world...4)Everyone stays HEALTHY...5)hmm...secret....shhhh....ahaha...today there's only marketing tutorial....finished quite early cos nothing much....now must finish off with our last project...MARKETING....hopefully everyone gets good grades....hmmm...exams coming real soon too...and attachment coming after that...bless me that i got into a good company lo...hehe...hmm....gotta continue do my IS research lo....decide to cook spanish rice lo...hehe...wonder if its nice....till then lo~!