Nice Day

Yea...blogging again...hmm...this few days mood getting better...omg...suddenly feel that i mood swing so seriously...oh no...im not that kind who mood swings often...i think is due to all those problems i am having this few months...nothing had been settled...i look very pathetic rite...like so friendless...and like so out of their way...yar...haiz.. am i that bad...sumtimes i really do ask..am i a worthless person to be of someone's friend?? Lets keep those sad things away...ahaha...today went shopping with jocelyn, eveline and fangzhi at orchard...wa...i realise fang zhi a real shopping queen...and poor me can only see them buy clothes and stuff and secretly aiming at all those i want to buy...ahaha...saw some nice guy clothes and cap at 77th street..maybe going to buy someone gift for his belated birthday??considering huh...but the clothes are really nice at far east....opps...going to splurge money when the month of july comes...ahaha..den broke at the end of the month...ahaha...always turn out to be like that...must control myself more...humph..haven watch initial D...must find friends who is a Jay fanatic like me...hehe...*hint hint...it have been out for a week le...i wanna watch...but no money now...next week when i get money..i will watch it first...came home late again...opps...have been naughty this few weeks...ever since skool starts i think...mum have been saying that i have been always out very often...and she dun let me go idare...bcos she sae i need to be in singapore for some reasons...den i have to obey lor...shall stay at home this weekends to really do my tutorials...haven been doing properly..shall organise my file too...and have to come up with the financial management project and think i better do the proposal for IS too...kkiez...better stop here...blog next time...need to be good girl this few days...so have to attend all lecture from tomorrow onwards...wahaha...end here...

Yea...blogging again...hmm...this few days mood getting better...omg...suddenly feel that i mood swing so seriously...oh no...im not that kind who mood swings often...i think is due to all those problems i am having this few months...nothing has been settled...i look very pathetic rite...like so friendless...and like so out of their way...yar...haiz.. am i that bad...sumtimes i really do ask..have i done something wrong?? Lets keep those sad things away...ahaha...today went shopping with jocelyn, eveline and fangzhi at orchard...wa...i realise fang zhi a real shopping queen...and poor me can only see them buy clothes and stuff and secretly aiming at all those i want to buy...ahaha...saw some nice guy clothes and cap at 77th street..maybe going to buy someone gift for his belated birthday??considering huh...but the clothes are really nice at far east....opps...going to splurge money when the month of july comes...ahaha..den broke at the end of the month...ahaha...always turn out to be like that...must control myself more...humph..haven watch initial D...must find friends who is a Jay fanatic like me...hehe...*hint hint...it have been out for a week le...i wanna watch...but no money now...next week when i get money..i will watch it first...came home late again...opps...have been naughty this few weeks...ever since skool starts i think...mum have been saying that i have been always out very often...and she dun let me go idare...bcos she sae i need to be in singapore for some reasons...den i have to obey lor...shall stay at home this weekends to really do my tutorials...haven been doing properly..shall organise my file too...and have to come up with the financial management project and think i better do the proposal for IS too...kkiez...better stop here...blog next time...need to be good girl this few days...so have to attend all lecture from tomorrow onwards...wahaha...end here...

SADZ

Currently doing research for fmgt project...having PMS today i should say...really moody....Monday blues i think....cos my day started badly with just that msg i received...things are getting bad...Sorrie if i did aggitate you guys...wear sloppily today..messy hair...everything is so bo chap...haiz...very sad wor...thinking about whats live recently...why is live so fragile...death keep happening around me...and i feel really sad about it...i hope that there is miracles...and please show me that there is...cos i am clinging hope to believe that my cousin's grandma could recover...and i am still believing in this...sadded...things arent getting any better...i feel so bothered about things going on this few days...how??? people say i am too sensitive about things...and always stressing myself with all those minor things...I knew that i am really sensitive to people feelings...but i am just afraid that people around me will misunderstand me or i scared that they may feel that i left them out...i dont like to left all my friends out when i am with them...i will feel extremely bad and im sure the person who is left out will feel lonely...and i know that feeling is terrible cos me myself had experience it before...And i had sorted things out with them today morning...they admitted it themselve...I just knew that something is wrong...I know they are more closed than i am to them...ok...i think i am kicking a big fuss out of it...they are just leaving me out cos we dun have common topic and they find me too quiet...but whenever i asked question or comment on it they ignored me...i feel so sad...things become abit harsh i think.... but they say they din mean it...i believe them...kkiez...think all this thing must be settled....i am very sad about it...erm..gttg liao...have to continue searching for FMGT stuff....having serious headache now and cramps...omg...Fever too....Argh...feeling terrible...still have to do CMA later....till den...

Campfire's Burning

Yippee....just finish our BB guides campfire 2005 "Spooky Night"...Its so fun and miss all those...All fun time always ends so fast....and yar today's campfire could say quite a success....thanks to all the juniors for putting up such a marvellous campfire...you all did great and we are all proud of you guys~! We are proud of you say we are proud of you...We are proud of you say we are proud of you...We are proud of you say we are proud of you....well done guides...all those performances and games are really nice...

After the campfire, I din go with my friends for mac at westmall...I went home, had a bath and went to my house der de mac to chill with my scouts friends....its really long since we last chill together...think got about 1 1/2 yrs or so...and we had a long chat today...they said that our campfire is great...has lots of improvement made from the last campfire....ahaha...i do agree with that....cos last year campfire was a small campfire...hehe..they also made comments on the fire thingy....hmm...and yar...i see that problem...but its all quite nice...they said that the souveniors are creatively made...wahaha...and den we chat about how their own activities that are coming up soon...it seems so fun...i hope our guides can have that...Expedition!Pioneering!it seems more of a scout thingy...hmm...maybe we can merge with some other skools scout and have an expedition...where we walk from bukit batok to mount faber...and by the end of the whole expedition...we'll be at the mount faber having song session under the moonlight...wow.....hope we can organise such thing...ahaha...hmm...maybe can propose this to Ms Lim...Cool~!

Gttg liao...need to catch some sleep...tommorrow is someone's birthday....shhhhhhh.......

Blues....

I had a real hard week...really glad a new week is coming..hope everything would be doing fine next week...Dear friends...thanks for all the concern...Im sure i will be able to cope with everything...though all those sad feelings had dampen my everyday mood...i have been quite messy this week...be it tutorials, presentations, attire,etc....the blues are giving those moody feelings...I love skooling...I had all those wonderful classmates and friends there...not forgetting my friends i always chill with...they had really made my day better...and at that moment with them...forgetting all those problems i had...today went home quite late...bump into them...sort things out abit...but was left ignored after 5 mins of talk...had i done anything wrong? then i came to realise...our friendship is that fragile...even more fragile than the glass...i somehow feel the changes they had ever since they always go out without me...what can i say...people are just so realistic...once they feel the distance...its like the gap will never be closed...i had always treasured our friendship...really hope that things will get better...if i ever given you guys black face...do forgive me...im just so depressed about the whole thing...it had been on for months...stop here le..gttg do BLAW e-tutorial....take care guys...looking forward to tml BB girl guides campfire...I LOVE GUIDING~!IT ROX MY LIFE~!

To my juniors: You guys jia you yar...all your effort will be well paid tml...im sure we'll all enjoy tml's campfire...take care all and prepare to rock,cheer and have fun tml...I Love you guys...

Problems~!!!

Tired,tired,tired...din have much sleep this week...and i look so sloppy and plus my bad mood about my friends thingy...this week really very bad...having blues almost everyday...OMG....just came home from skool...abit regreted going for CMA lecture...cos the lecturer cant speak properly...dun really catch what he is saying...ahaha..before lecture went to library with friends...do some catching up and sleeping...wahaha...on the way home think alot of things..especially my recent problems i had with my friends...abit sad about the whole thing...why things become like that?? We seem not to have any common topics...and what we used to tok on seems rubbish and unrelated to what they are toking on...depressed... wrote a poem that describe a little of what i feel.....

Entitled....Friendlesss

Left out is a feeling i never wanted...

loneliness is a feeling i always hated....

but now i feel neglected...

Friends I always treasure...

times spent are of great pleasure...

but now our friendship is so unsure....

JieBin

Looking forward to the weekends...Its Mel birthday this saturday...hehe...and yar today is winston's birthday...

Happy Birthday To You~!

Thanks

Hiyoz guys...thanks for everything...Im so touched...I know I still have you guys...hehe...haven been blogging for days...cos i left my lappy at my aunt's house...hmm...today went karaoke session with a bunch of Scottish...and was really fun...Melissa has a great voice...wahaha...problems are left unsolved...things arent going smoothly for me...WHY?? I really did try to talk to them...But was being ignored...Sadded...Does our friendship ends here?? I dont want...friends I really treasure them all...those who loves me and those who I love...I must admit I am poor in expressing whatever I wanted to say...and may seems to be cold...but all these doesnt mean I am not bothered about our friendship...haiz....Loneliness I do feel when I am with them...but why I feel that?? The feeling of being left out...the feeling of being made use...What can i do??Confused.Sadded...Really hope that things will get better...Have been really bothered about it...that too causes many of my sleepless night....When I am with them..I really feel so much left out...so lonely...so alone...wonder if things will get better...*Sigh....but I know our guides Campfire is coming...Is this FRIDAY...yohoo..Am really excited about the whole thingy...hehe...blog another time..gttg do CMA tutorial...Thanks guys for ur concern...

My Voice~!

Have you ever been left out by a whole bunch of friends?

Such feelings i had it...

and I really felt saddness...

But no hard feelings...

I really felt abit being make use of...

And that Friendship is nothing to them

Am I abit over sensitive?

I had ask myself repeatedly...

But this is not the first time they treat me so cold...

Suddenly I felt so lonely...

So friendless...

I must say I am an introvert...

But I love making new friends

And i must say for the past few years..

I have known marvellous friends...

I treasure them...

And really did enjoy those time spent with them all..

They are always there when I am sad...

Special thanks to Anqi, Sam

We have been tru all those happiness and sadness together...

Be it break ups, friends problems,etc.

But whats the best is that

WE HAVE EACH OTHER~!!

Love you guys lots...

Haven been seeing you guys...

Now University should be on hols

We'll meet up one day yar..

I wanna see the new guy you know at the pub...

I must really thank you guys for being there for me this few days

Cos the sadness even my secret recipe(SWEETS!!shh..is my secret!!) cannot get rid..

This recipe does work for me since I was working in Motorola

It helps me stop me tears from rolling down

Have been feeling down for the past one month

Hope that I din aggitate anyone...

If so I really have to apologise for my act...

I'll stop here...got loads of work to do..blog again next time..

Blog

Time To blog again...haven been updating my blog..hmm..this month really very broke...i left $52 for the month...omg...intend to watch quite a number of movie wor..shall cut down on the list...but i must go watch D-Initial, Monsters-In-Law..hehe...hmmm...how can i survive!!Have been chilling out with friends almost everyday at night...and thats how all the money is gone...hope anybody who own me money could return me..ahaha...now really in need of money...hmm...should i get an early allowance of nxt month??ahaha...Im financially broke...Must learn how to thrift...but think i can make it through with the slimming process...shall have muesli bars for lunch...ahaha...today so fun...we played VOS...its so so exciting...we played at skool from 2 to about 5++...after that went to causeway with peiwen and liqing...i did window shopping..while they really did shop...ahaha...but did aim at some clothes...shall "con" my mother there to buy for me...ahaha...so bad...hehe...left causeway point at 10+ and reach home arnd 11...and was so sleepy...but VOS make me so clear minded...yohoo...is so fun..have been playing since 2am...and i am still so wide awake...ahaha...its really fun...thanks to peiwen and liqing for introducing this game to me...hehe...BAOC afterglow for all is coming soon...it will be an barbeque at west coast park...Looking forward to it...cos i miss BAOC lots...SCOTLAND Rox~! we'll have a session of yo-ing again..till den...

To Anqi: How have you been? must take care of yourself wor..working night shift must have more sleep yar...hehe...dun tire yourself wor...and ahaha...how i hope i could go back and work there again...I really miss those days there...Especially you, Sam, Violet and rest...Really fun knowing you guys...hehe...when im free i'll go der and visit you wor...hehe...Is just to catch up with you guys only wor...no other motives yar...cos you are my best buddy ever...Love you and miss you lots...Muacks~!
As for him...I still haven organise all my feelings out yet..still am thinking about him all day...wahaha....

Kkiez..gttg continue playing VOS le...will blog some other days...Miss you guys..

Bad Day

Hiyo...am here to blog...ahaha...wa today I&E really drag so long...people end le...we still stuck in the classroom...I choosen the wrong tutor...omg...he is so crappy...end the whole thing around 5...and now vexing about which specialisation should we do...cos its like the toy exhibition is not working...oh no...and guess wad...more problems came by...some other junior guides from other skool called me...ask me lots about the campfire thingy...cos their senior dun bother them anymore...and yar...the questions are all so ridiculous...am really pissed when hearing all those...did lecture them...cos last year campfire they din take initiative to learn from their seniors...and the attitude they give me...like i have to help them...its like..OMG...but luckily everything is settled now...kkiez...i know i am abit harsh on you guys...but forgive me yea...cos its really lar..you all should have at least a bit of knowledge as to how to plan the campfire...you guys must jia you...wish your campfire success hor...hope all the information is of good use to you guys...and yar...my own guides will bring us the best campfire entitled 'Spooky Nite' by the Bukit Batok Guides...yohoooo...i m sure looking forward to 23june...i bet it will going to be fun cos its bukit batok guides...hehe....oh yar..tml we'll go back marina der and catch bears...Scotland Yo~ Yo ah yo, yo ah yo, yo ah yo ah yo ah yo...heehee...tml all scotland in scotland tshirt wor...cya guys den...miss you guys...