Charity...Makes you feel Good~!

Hey hey...so long never blog...weekends has come...and yea i am busying cutting out the Singtel Touching Lives Fund article to fold a heart...and yea...here i am encouraging all who saw this article...do play a part by just cutting the article and fold it...every heart means a donation of $1 to 6 beneficiaries...i feel that this event is very meaningful...and it takes every individual to play a small part to make a difference of the life of the less privileged....hehe...you can find this article at the TODAY nespaper...just fold the heart as instructed and drop it into any postbox....
Hmm...just got abit tired from those cutting of the article and come here to blog...wahaha...din did well for HRM common test...hope that the coming wont be like dat..abit disappointing...i did put alot of hard work studying...haiz...lets hope everyone got their desired results this week...yea...optimistic yea...Events management progress is not bad... i had finished the powerpoint presentation for the lecture publicity...wads left is to get the timetable of lecturers of different faculty so that we can start all those publicity...yipee...looking forward to the party...Weekends are just my day...somehow i feel that weekends make me so carefree...no more thoughts of sad things...guess its a good start for the month of August...yea...cheerful me is back den...dun feel weird if i talk more than often...wahaha...August coming...gotta prepare to go shop for presents again...lots of friends' birthday fall in the month of August....there's Candy, Peiwen, Fen, wenz, lingz,etc....opps...hole in the pocket....ahaha...but all are worth it for my dear friends...hehe...gotta stop here...going to carry on doing the cutting of article....Attn to all: Do play your part to help the less privileged....

LOVE?

Monday comes...And yar today got back HRM common test paper...did quite badly wor..erm but i passed lar...got scolding from mum...haiz...say i since starting of skool always skip lecture and always come home so late...Arghz...I know i haven been putting effort in studying this sem...i will be good girl as promised to my grandma...i must do it....seems so determined yet within my capability...wahaha...last saturday onwards i give up on messaging him everyday...today is the third day i din message him...feel abit weird without waking up at 7am...and always have the urge to message him...i just cant control myself not thinking about him...time had pass for a year plus le...why i still keep thinking about him....people say: To forget someone, you need to fall in love with the other. This saying is real true...it always happens to me...and now i cant stop thinking about him...haiz...What's LOVE? all those one-sided love makes me so tired...i dont feel the meaning of LOVE...the four letter word seems so easy to be said yet difficult to understand...I starting not to believe in LOVE...LOVE a word so hurtful....all the overflowing tears...the scars in the heart...nothing can amend for it...should i blame myself for being so into it? Or should i say i am stupid to believe in it?

kkiez...enough of sad things...opps...seems like i am a very sad person...wahaha...i am just too emotion...hehe...i went for the Z-Pop concert last saturday...not really fun...cos the people around not high...den dun dare to make wild movements...hehe...but at the last part was quite high when its JJ Lin...everybody get so high and with all those shoutings...i did dat too...and i feel good...the atmosphere is getting der...yohoo....was tired after the whole thing...cos friday i drank coffee and i slept at around 6am...and wake up at 11am on the saturday...ahaha...gotta go liao...blog next time...

Life?

Hey...Common test finished...yohooo....hmm...today started studying for today blaw test...then receive call from my uncle saying that my aunt's mum pass away...I really feel abit sad about it...heard that yesterday night things are not doing well...i had prayed for her since i heard that she is not feeling well...i really prayed hard hoping that there will be a change....or maybe a miracle can happen...haiz...really feel that life is so fragile...at any point you wont know what will happen next...and i really believe in placing health in front of anything...its gd to have a healthy lifestlye....haiz...have been moody since then...feel that life seems to be so meaningless...whereby death is around you...and sadness is so filled in the environment i am in...health problems of people around me...i really hope that they will get better especially my paternal grandma....is it such sudden death of humans make people treasure their life? Humph...really hope that my aunt, uncle, cousins and all will be strong towards all those happened...life is predestined...and yar...today i went for my sis guitar concert and din join jocelyn, eveline and all to the dinner...feel abit bad...really sorrie..but i must go support my sis....hehe...the concert lasted 2hrs...really did enjoy the concert...all those pros...so envy...ahaha...and my sis with that serious look playing on the guitar...so funny....the whole thing ends at 10...and haven had my dinner cos i rush to the concert...after the concert immediately went to the funeral...while sitting there got alot of emotions...really feel about things happening in earth...alot of 'why' questions popping up...haiz...things arent getting better....my world seems to be so messy...Argh~!who can save me from all those...now really cant sleep...cos drank coffee in the morning....abit excited about tml...going Z-Pop again~! yohoo...this time going with my sis...mum got it for me...yipee...can see the superstars there too...and congrats to WeiJian that he had get into the semi-finals...yipee...his singing too did touched me...Jiayou wor~!And not to forget to wish christopher HAPPY BIRTHDAY~! Im feeling hungry cos din eat for dinner...better go sleep now...till then~!

My Composition...

I had just compose a song myself...

Its in chinese...

I suddenly got such urge to compose this...

Its about my First Love...

To view it please encode it(Go to View, Encode,Unicode)...

分手的迷惑

当初我们那简单的爱

在我回忆里永远存在

握你那暖暖的手

陪伴着我一起走

即使有再多冰凉

也依然会变暖和

想起当初我们的分离

正反复出现在脑海里

我们共度的时光

却留下我的泪光

这一瞬间的冲动

却造成永恒的痛

*______To Be Continued...........

© Brigitte Khoo Jie Bin

This song is purely from what I had been through...

It may not of professional standards...

But this song expresses my feelings...

ME~!

I have always wonder if i am a lonely one in the world...
And at times I really feel so alone...
seems like I dont talk much except during blogging...
crapping all the way just in my blog...
Sometimes i wonder if i am just the only weirdo...
Living all alone left ignored by the rest...
It seems like I am not part of the world...
Like an alien...
Nevertheless I know that I have wonderful friends around me...
They are of great friends...
And I simply treasure them all...
At times there may be misunderstanding
But I just know that everything will be cleared...

At this point of my life...

I suddenly feel a need to be expressive...

But I am just not an expressive person...

I dont know how to express whatever I feel...

Somehow I may even give them the wrong idea of what I feel...

Its time I had to learnt to be expressive...

To clearly project what I feel...

And not like a block...

With no reaction and expression...

People may see me as an ignorant person..

Someone who is arrogant...

But I must say I am not...

I am more introvert...

Thats part of me.....

BAD day

Bad day today...was so tired...yesterday did my IS presentation thingy...and guess wad...i just realise i din save it...OMG...yesterday night work is all gone to drain....haiz...sadded...dunno wad to do now...dun feel like doing le...the presentation is like dat of what we have done on monday...Argh....i will try to do some tonight...abit tired...so maybe the presentation will be not very nice...brain cannot think much now...humph...hmm...did some reflection of the past few days...think i am weird...abit crazy...did silly things...ahaha...yar...den go skool too tired den dun talk for the whole day....wahaha...see now i am so full of nonsense...wahaha....this week should be a bad week and a bad start of the month...things doesnt go out well...haiz...and the horoscope suggested that i should keep myself low and do all my studies...wahaha...i tink i am going to do this...cos really need to study now...common test is coming....wahaha...oh yar...i had heard from teresa that the GOH for our NDP is a mixture of every CCA...Omg...i tink this doesnt work....oh please...if we mix...our guides will have to train their marching using their method...theirs is so different from us...i really dont think it will work out well...(* the above is purely my point of view...no means of criticizing any CCA here) Besides there's no best candidate for that GOH in guides where most of them are in the contigent...hmm...we need to really train the juniors marching...their marching *especially the 'Beloh' needs lots of attention...they can 'beloh' nicely...OMG...NDP is just one month more...and with this kind of standard...we will be laughed...i want back the time when my final year in the NDP...that was very nice..I really like it....wahaha..abit lau wang mai gua...but is true...from dat day....people keep saying that our guides have improve TREMENDOUSLY....wahaha....hope this year is the same...I believe in my juniors...ahaha...if cannot we will be having intensive marching session bar...to show how important NDP is to the name of the GUIDES...Juniors you all can do it de...kkiez...gttg liao...need to catch some sleep first...im depriving of rest...blog another day bar....

Blur Day...

Blogging here...ahaha...today I am really rush...first day in the morning i receive peiwen's msg...telling me that she'll be late for lesson...and i had a shock of my life...i thought i remember wrongly the time...quickly check with peiwen...still very blur....ahaha..then she confirm with me there is a change in the timing and no1 told me about it(thanks to peiwen..if not i would still be sleeping)...den i quickly went to brush my teeth, wash my face and everything....anyhow get a shirt and pants...change le den rush towards the busstop....wanted to wait for taxi...but the bus came first...so i took the bus...find the bus too slow...den drop at the CHIJ bukit timah der...hail a taxi...and that uncle brought me up to KAP to Sunset way...den U turn to my skool...and guess wad...he bring me to the convention...ahaha...den rush to the tutorial...was 45mins late...still very blur too...i took about 15mins to wash up...din get to bath...and i believe i really stinks cos i run all the way...sweating like hell....ahaha...bad start of the daysconclude the whole bad day....during tutorial my hp alarm suddenly rang...ahaha...that should be the time i actually should have woken up...cos last night did IS presentation till quite late...ahaha...after the tutorial went to HRM lecture...really pathetic...so few people...plus the lecture is speaking so so soft...hardly hear wad she's toking...den after that should be meeting up with my friends to watch initial D but they not free...den find friends see who wanna go but cos is quite last min so most of them cant make it....this few days i got no time to watch....i realise....24 HR is NOT enough...cant even catch a movie i really wanted to watch...tml hope i can watch..but got lots of work..hope i can go watch...today i am so blur....wahaha...look abit messy wor...yea...every feelings i had is some sort of cleared...and im getting happier....ahaha...i know why i haven been receiving his msg since 25 Dec 2004....not even one...but that doesnt matter anymore....all i know he is happy with his things...and yar...he will be going to the army soon...i hereby wish all the best in his future endeavour bar...wahaha...sounds like i have decided to take down everything...but deep inside my heart...i really dunno if i really done that...but not thinking about this stuff le...now concentrate on studies...dun understand alot of the lecture...better do revision now...but i haven start any...My promise to my grandma i must remember...my promise must be kept!!kkiez...gttg liao...need to tutorial...=P blog another day bar...

Done!

Yeap..things have gone out to be well...we did chat alot about things going on among us...everything is somehow settled...and I know we'll be friends forever....sorting out all my feelings today...be it friendship, feelings for someone...all sorted out...for now i will treasure all my friends, my family members...and study hard for my coming soon common test...i promise to my grandma that i will do well for the exams and study real hard...and i must prove to her that i can do it(*tearing...)

Today I shall do try to do some revision...i dun wanna break my promise to my grandma that i had made at the hospital...(*sobsob) i will definitely strive and work hard...I miss grandma...did went to visit her during fathers' day...and i realise i just cant stop missing her...she is the greatest grandma of all....(*I MISS HER LOTS~!..*Crying)

Kkiez...the cheerful me has been back le..wohoo...just come back after meeting with friends...feel alot better after everything...I now really very high wor...cos i finally decided to preserve the sweet memories...and not pursueing for anymore...it takes me alot of courage...hehe...now i feel so relaxed...and yar...Stacy birthday is coming soon...next friday...and i do her something really special...handmade de...specially from me to you...luckily my mum is giving me pocket money soon...then i have the money to spend...hehe...but when is she going to give me huh?? ahaha...i feel like shouting...."I Feel GOOD....dadadadadada....SO GOOD...So good..." wahaha...abit mad now...high for no reasons...wahaha...gttg liao...must do revision as i mention wor...promise made is to be kept....till then...shall blog another day...

Tired~!

Today a tired day cos the ECD lecture was really very bored...almost fall asleep...today should be the enrolment of the junior guides and i should have gone back to help out with the whole enrolment ceremoney...but due to lectures and tutorials...I could no make to the enrolment ceremoney...it must have been heavy for Germaine to help up in the whole thingy...i'll try to attend guides whenever I could...hmm...oh yar about my friends thingy...i just have to accept it...i dunno them really well and that our topics differ...maybe I had changed...but to the better or to the worst i'm not sure...they told me that i am just overly sensitive...but what can i say?? They join for an event together...and they din even ask me if i am interested...ok...maybe they think i will not be interested in that event...meeting them out tml...hope things will get better...today shall be a short post...gotta add on to the IS marketing proposal for the message and slogan stuff...will blog another day....