Blogging on the cab...
Have been thinking about things happening...
Work.
Its getting bad to worst.
The people, the morale....
Tsk....
Ponder about things....
Feel that whenever I need support or just a listening ear...
He is always not there....
Or he is more interested in sharing his topic.
Beginning to feel more of his self centeredness...
Less meet ups
Less sparks
Just like a skool mate....
We go skool together only...
He just so so busy with his packed social activities...
And Im just like a backup plan....
Maybe he dun mean it....
But at least this is what I feel!!!!!
Disapointment and disappointment....
Now I shall not pinned any hope from him...
Arghz.... just dun seem to feel tbe togetherness anymore...
Its like an uncommitted relationship..
Reaching office.... aja aja fighting!!!!

Blogging on the bus...
On the way to batam....
Yes!! Again!!!
It has been real long since i last blog...
Many things happened...
Many emotions came...
I tot abt alot of things...
Am I not good enough??
Why people always make use of me??
Why must I always 忍气吞声??
Feeling so demoralized, so depressed.
Tried to put in a little bit more effort to make things better..
He did put in effort...
But somehow I feel...
The way he treats me...
Less patience...
More temper...
It like Im always the one pissing him off...
Less meetups, yet quarrel every meet up..
Tried to suggest some activities...
But in the end Im always left alone.
Or I had some other activities..
Perhaps, im nt that important.
Perhaps, theres no more sparks.
Future, i dont seem to see..
Pesent, i cant seem to feel...
Past, i will never get it back..
Is the effort I put still nt enough???
Its something I need to ponder...
The lack of security and stability....
Career, income, achievements, studies...
When one is getting mature while the other is still stays childish n playful, how will things go??
I tok to family and friends..
Opinion given..
But i think maybe some additional effort from me can make things better
Yet no sign of improvement.
Is it me??
When it comes to the care and concern..
When I really need someone...
He is always nt there....
Be it having social gathering or work...
2 yrs. Things changed alot.
Envt changed. People changed.
Opps. Reaching harborfront!!!
Let those sorrows stay in sg!!
Batam here I come!!!

Ps: Never make empty promises when you can't fulfill. It makes people having high expectation which results in high disappointment.