Tuesday

Tuesday. Work as usual. Yesterday had OT. SUPER TIRED. HAIZ. STRESSED. Working is really tiring. Am I not prepared to be in the working life? LOL! Sleepy lor! Dreading to work everyday. Deprieving of SLEEP!!! YAwnz. Need to catch some sleep. I miss everyone!

Saturday

Saturday! Went to Bugis with sis. Saw uncle Ho at bugis village. LOL! So long never see him le. Went to buy clothes for my sis. After that meet up with mum and dad for dinner. Had Banana Leaf at Little India. Yum Yum. Hehe. Tired. Had alot of walking. Till then. Nitez peeps.

Friday

Friday. Alot of people went off early for the DND which I didn't go. Left a few of us in the office. Loads of phone calls came in. I was taught how to pick up calls!!! The first time I picked up the call!!! OMG!!! Had a freak out of my life!!! I really scared I offended any customers. LOL. Cos last time I used to call supplier. Hehe! So we don't need to be too polite. LOL!!! Wahaha. I understand the stress they were talking about though I didn't experience the full impact yet. LOL! Yawnz. Need some sleep!! My weekend CAME FINALLY!!!! I love weekends!!! Need beauty sleep. Till then peeps.

OT the 2nd time

Wednesday! Just came back from work. Today OT till 8.30!! LOL!! SUPER TIRED!!! Am REALLY STRESSED!!! Loads of work to do!!! I really scared I can't do well in this job. Find myself abit careless and forgetful!!! Weird nei. Isit I stress myself too much?? Or am I finding excuses??Tsk Tsk. Need to catch some sleep. Nitez. Weekend!!! I'm looking forward to it EVERY WEEK!!!! Till then.

Sunday~!

Sunday!! Just came back from JB!! Today went to the chinese mass. LOL! Then went JB with Momo, Pap and Cindy!!! Hehe. I miss them loads!!! Huggies. We so long never go out together le!!! We went to do pedicure. Now leg abit itchy. Kinda abit sensitive to the chemical they used. Then went to the saloon and had a haircut. Hehe. Cindy dye her hair red!!! VERY NICE!!!! Then me and Cindy went to westmall. Had dinner and walked around. Hehe. Yawnz. Tmr still have to work. FREAK! Dragging to work again. Tsk Tsk. I missed GSK!!! I love working there!!

Department Dinner

Friday. Just came back from the department dinner at sakura. Had a lot of food. Super FULL!!!! LOL!!! Food was not bad!! Yawnz. Sleepy after a full dinner!!! Finally my WEEKEND came!!!! WOHOOOO!!!!! I'm loving it!!! Shall catch some sleep for tommorrow's SHOPPING!!!!! WOHOOOO~! Till then peeps.

Meet up @ Vivo

Today meet up with Cindy, Jessie and Yun at VIVO!!!! I miss them loads!!! I REALLY MISS THEM!!!! HUGS!!!! I really LOVE them LOADS!!!!! Will always miss them when I'm at work. Missing those days we took bus together, had lunch together, ST'ing each other about spree stuffs. Arghz!!! I miss those days!!!! Getting late. Need to catch some sleep. Did OT yesterday. Abit tired. Till then.

Sunday

Sometimes love just ain't enough

I don't wanna lose you,
But I don't wanna use you
Just to have somebody by my side.
And I don't wanna hate you,
I don't wanna take you,
But I don't wanna be the one to cry.
And that don't really matter to anyone anymore.
But like a fool I keep losing my place
And I keep seeing you walk through that door.

But there's a danger in loving somebody too much,
And it's sad when you know it's your heart you can't trust.
There's a reason why people don't stay where they are.
Baby, sometimes, love just ain't enough.

Now, I could never change you,
I don't wanna blame you.
Baby, you don't have to take the fall.
Yes, I may have hurt you,
But I did not desert you.
Maybe I just wanna have it all.

It makes a sound like thunder,
It makes me feel like rain.
And like a fool who will never see the truth,
I keep thinking something's gonna change.
And there's no way home,
When it's late at night and you're all alone.
Are there things that you wanted to say?
Do you feel me beside you in your bed,
There beside you, where I used to lay?

And there's a danger in loving somebody too much,
And it's sad when you know it's your heart they can't touch.
There's a reason why people don't stay who they are.
Baby, sometimes, love just ain't enough.
Baby, sometimes, love...
It just ain't enough.
Oh...

PS:
This song somehow came to my mind. Especially 'there's a danger in loving somebody too much'. I agree with this. Loving somebody too much will just hurt oneself. Love? Why have it to be so challenging and dangerous? Is Love have to involved hurt and despair?? Being stubborn, believing that I have forgotten that relationship I didn't want to end. Now? Still thinking if I have really forgotten, seems a bit stupid. Yet whatever cannot be what used to be it.

Saturday!

Just came home. Now is Sunday 4am. Went to town with Peiwen to shop for new year clothes. SO LONG NEVER SEE HER LE!!! Hugs. We talked and walked a lot! Hehe. Getting a bit emo. Talked about each other life. I realised how depress my life is getting. Almost teared. Sobx. We had dinner at MOF! It was really yummy!Hehe. My appetite increased. Left last of the bento. I think it is also the person I am eating with that determines my appetite bar. After that go to holland v and meet Mama, Pap, Cindy and Liyun. Hugs. Cried a bit. We talked a lot at Tango's. I controlled all my tears, swallowed them down. Saw Apple Hong(Artiste) at Tango's too. Look a bit like Yubing lei! I almost thought is Yubing until Pap say she is Apple. LOL. Then I heard her talked and yar! She is Apple. We sat there till 1+ then we went to West Coast! Go to PLAYGROUND!!!! OMG!!! SUPER HIGH!!!! Hugs. I LOVE THEM!!! THEY really make my day better. I miss Jessie!!! She can't meet us up. Sobx. I must apologise for this few days emo' posts. But I really need some means to really write up whatever feelings and emotions. Just don't want to suppress whatever even in here. Thanks peeps for all the care and concern! I hope things will get better.

Friday

Friday. Cry again. Sobx. No one understand me. I know its me! I keep everything inside. I never express whatever feelings I had out. Never talk to anyone about it. Just hide and cry silently. I just need a little comfort. But this inner me just don't let me open up! I HATE MYSELF!! I hate this inwards me!! I cry a lot more than usual. Even the worst time I had is less depressing than now. I scared I will think too much. Just can't control those tears from flowing. I guess I had frighten many of you all le bar. Thats the VERY different side from my bubbly me. The dark world of my own. Now is my darkest time and I believe I will get through this time. No worries for me. I will try to get over it. XXX say until I cry (Shall not elaborate on it. But am very sad that she said those. COMPARISON!! I HATE IT!!!!) now can't stop tearing. Haiz. I shall depend on myself like what I used to. Till then lo. Shall have a good sleep. Haven been sleeping well. Dream of Michelle and Chris Dobson!!! OMG!! Have been dreaming about GSK people!

Thursday

Thursday. Cry again. Stressed. Saw LiYun today. Her new workplace is just one company away from mine.

PS: 你们是我最大的幸福

Wednesday. Cried again. Depression??? I can't controll those tears from flowing.

PS: 你们让我习惯不孤独, 现在的我, 好不能适应一切的寂寞.

Tuesday. Cry on the bus again. Have been crying everyday on the bus!!! 我好没用!!! Crybaby!!! Sobx. Meet up with Cindy at jurong point. I MISS HER LOADS!!! Huggies!!! Really happy can get to see her!!! She is one that makes my life in GSK SPECIAL!!! We think the same which my friends usually think that such thoughts are weird. We had a lot of common topics!! 1 week never see her le!! Never miss her this much before!!!!Especially when my bus passed by Raffles Marina. I will always remember the appreciation dinner, the powerpoint slides we did together, the times we had. SOBX. I miss Jessie!!! Scold me for eating so less, teasing her. I miss LiYun. Those teasing of her and her shuai ge. I miss Shuai Ge!!!!! But people like MIA'ing. Not sure how he is. Ahaha. GSK really brought to me a lot of sweet memories. I LOVE THEM!!!! Sobx. Till then le.

Monday

Monday! Cry on the bus again. STRESSED. 我快要崩溃了!!! I miss those days. I did badly for training today. I think my team leader is really pissed with me bar. Till then lo.

Sunday

Sunday. Just recovered from fever. Went to church in the morning. Feel a bit better. Less stress?? Haiz. After that went to Bugis with mum. We went to 'Victor Kitchen' had DIM SUM!!! Well. Need to queue and its nothing much. The variety is just a few. But I must say their Dim Sum is unique in their way. It taste very different from those teahouse dim sum that you eat. They used some sort of vinegar to dip which I think it reduce the oiliness bar. After the dim sum, went to Bugis then we headed to Orchard. I bought a skirt from Robinson. Then we headed to Takashimaya! Went LV! I want that BAG!!! OMG!! I want the Gucci Wallet too!!! Arghz! My first pay in RS??? Oh yar. I now working in RS components as CUSTOMER SERVICE CONSULTANT!!! I can't imagine they actually recruited me in the first place!! I thought I did really bad for the interview. Haiz. My team leader a bit fierce, adding to a lot of stress to me! I scared I can't cope! Kind of a bit regret about taking up this job. Hope I can cope with it. I decide to take this as a challenge. But sometimes I wonder if I can really do it. 'Cos I really know what are my limits. Haiz. Haven been sleeping well this few days. Till then le. Nitez.

Fever

Friday! Today got training!! There is a lot to memorise!!! NEED TO MEMORISE ALL????!!!! ITS INSANE!!!!!ARGHZ!!! I cant stand this!!! The 'dao' people!!! Why can't they greet each other in the morning??? Can't get use to the way they work!! Saw the ugly side of customer service. Feel a bit disgusted by it. Lots of procedures that need to memorise hard. I have a hard time! SUPER STRESS!!! The team leader who gives me the training is stressing me a lot!! She is so fierce! Arghz. Butterflies in the stomach!! Tears just flow unknowingly. The weird feeling. I don't know how to express! Who can understand how I'm feeling?? The sense of loneliness. I used to fear not of loneliness and yet I am now. Is it because of them that make me used to the accompany?? Sobx. Having Fever. Feel like my whole body is going to burn me up! Must be the aircon that makes me shiver on the bus!

PS: 眼泪不自觉流两行...我想你们!!

First day of work in RS

First day of work in RS Component. I sensed the unfriendliness of the company. Regretting joining the company. Cried on the bus on the way home. Kinda scared that I can't cope it well. Stone there for the whole day. Nothing much to do on the first day of work. The team leader is a fierce one! Sit beside her is so stressful!! HELP!! I regretting turning up for work! The people all a bit 'dao' nei! Haiz. Must at least stay till end of the 3 month probation. I got a lot of whining about the new job! THE LONG HOURS!!! Till 6pm!! Arghz! I wonder if I am able to adapt to this new environment. Haven't been doing well since the new year! Arghz! A pleasant year ahead?? I'M WISHING FOR IT!!! Can I have a pleasant year??? Have been drowning myself with all the tears. I miss GSK!!!! CINDY! JESSIE! LIYUN! SHUAI GE!? Arghz. Depression??? Over-tensed?? Need some rest! I hope I can get through this. Training I presume a difficult one. Bless me bar. Till then~