Had been long since I last blogged
Had some ME time without any social media in my daily life
I know I had been escaping the truth all these while
And yesterday it just got worst
Couldn't sleep at all
Thus today the zombified mode
Perhaps he had moved on
But I am still waiting
Many times I scolded myself for being this stubborn
Slapped myself with all the hardest truth
Even my last pride I didn't save it for myself
The things he might not know
Created the blog https://newchapterbegins141018.wordpress.com to pen down every ups and down we share which I hoped when we looked back are fond memories.
Whenever he said he love me more, deep down I know I love him even more
When I said he is sticky, I know it is because I stick to him
Always wanted our photos to be taken and posted, yet I thought you might find it annoying
I know I am not good at cooking like he does, I watched video clips and practice on the basics
I know I lack in communication, I read up books when I am on my way to work while he is still sleeping

Now.
The promises he made, became empty promises that hit me hard.
The places we went, the things we did, became flashbacks that hurts.
Perhaps he had found someone better, someone who suits him more, I wish the best for you.
Though I gotten deeper into depression, I hold on my tears to blog about it.
A day I guess hefound someone.
Till then.