人总是在"以为"中徘徊....
直到最后才发现一切是无畏的等待...

© Brigitte Khoo Jie Bin

A moment of thought...

I'm not sure what the things I had done is right or wrong
I'm not sure whether whatever I said had hurt anyone or myself
I'm not sure how my future will be
I'm not sure where I will be at in the near future..

Life is so full of "I'm not sure"
And that to me is a great insecurity
I want my life to certain and just follow my way
The way I want it to be

But things change.
People change.
Society change
Even I change myself

But changing for the better its dependable on one's insight.

At times I feel that the things I do
It is due to my stubborness
As wad someone always hated this stubborn me
I'm rebelious in nature
The more you dare me for something
The more I want to oppose and prove it wrong.

I understand that this is really not doing any good when used at the wrong situation.
Perhaps I need to judge against the situation properly.

Just back from work...
Sneezing away....Making all the wantons now...
During the meeting...or I would say brainstorming session...
I think alot...
I observe and realise...
The changes is alot....
Isit the teamwork as what they had said??
No comments to it.
People change...
And thats how realistic and practical people are....
For the way people do & speak
Somehow I feel they are strangers...
Complete stranger....
Making me feel that I no longer know them...
Not what I previously know them as...
I felt sad about it...
But I sort it out...
That's life...
That's how realistic life is, how realistic humans are....
Perhaps this ugly side....
Is nothing but the truth...
Truth only reveals the unsightly....
Which makes me disgusted by it...
I shall keep everything to myself....
Just do my due diligence...
Fret not... I will not be like them...
I will still believe in myself...
And not be influence...
Even the ugly truth won't defeat my beliefs!
And when the time come...
I will be freed...
Somtimes I really want to be freed from working so hard..
Have been working so hard...
And yet felt so unappreciated...
Not sure what I am working hard for?
And is this what I want?

Never I want it this way....

Super no morale, no motivation....

Gotta catch some sleep... Have been working too much.... Wantons all over now...
Shall rest well... sleep those sick bug away!! Nitey all~

First day of work in this new year.

Tsk Tsk.
And 1 whole week of OT is waiting for me...
With the 2 days of meeting..
And clearing of backlogs...
Am tired
Sometime...really restless...
No motivation, no morale....
At times...
Feel like giving up...
Feel like dunno why am I working so hard...
Really...dunno for wad...

I better turn in early...
Hopefully things will get better~

Oh yar! 1 good thing to talk about! My first testimonial I gotten from customer! LOL.
It did make my day though... abit bar...

Till then.. Need rest....

Back from our camping~

Wohooo~ Had a great fun!
Back with all the SUN BURNS!!
Ouch Ouch!
Had countdown at East Coast Park!
Quite unique~
We went crabbing too..
Though there wasnt any...
Took alot of photos....
Wahaha!
The bbq was great!! Lol.

Tired...
Think we slept quite well on the first day cos we are really tired
Me, lubbie, sis and her bf... we all 4 were snoring away~
OMG!
wahaha.

Ouch Ouch! The pain from the sun burnt!!
So burning hot!
Wonder how am I going to survive!!
Lol.

Gotta go lo~
Having dinner with lubbie later~

Wishing all a happy new year~
Hopefully this new year is a GOOD one!!
And omg!! Im turning 24 this yr!!!! (oh nar....I'm always 18 yar?!)

Last post of the year!!!

Well. Reflecting on this year. There are ups and downs.
Learn new stuff.
Know more people of different field, character.
Opened up more.
Do crazy stuffs. Really CRAZY stuffs that I think I must be MAD!
Feel more tolerence level reaching to the limit.
But am still stretching myself!

2010 is coming soon!!!
Today half day work!
Meet lubbie after work for lunch.
After which go my house to pick up the stuff for our camping at ECP~
Though lubbie was still feeling sick and groggy
He still tag along with us for 3 days!!
Thanks LUBBIE~
Hehe.
Going out lo~
Countdown at ECP~

Happy 2010 peeps~

Tata~

不怕那一切挑战, 

只怕面临的失败, 

是个不堪的结果...

Cough Cough.
Not feeling well this few days...
Irritating throat. Fever on and off...
Pushed myself too hard??
Its really tough for me this few days..
So many people on MC.
The stress level is high...
Plus my sickness...
Feel like I'm going to die from fatique.
Tsk Tsk.
Lucky this friend of mine did make my day.
Thanks BoyBoy for listening to all my complaints! You're the BEST!
And yar.. ULTRAMAN!!!
The occasionally sms that always comes at the right time...
It never fails to brighten my day!
Christmas is round the corner~
Wohooo~ So so looking forward to the long weekend~
Taking leave on every monday from this week onwards for the month of dec~!!!
Really need a good good break
Though its just a day break...
Hopefully I can recover from those illness....

If I had to choose between loving you, and breathing. I would use my last breath to say I love you

Sometimes people put up walls, not to keep others out, but to see who cares enough to break them down.

Reflecting....
This week quite happening for me....
Ups and downs....
Seriously those down moments...
Can be avoided.....
Is me that create this down moments....
Self inflict hur....
Nvm...
Things will get better!!
Thanks to all who listen to all my complaints....
Haha. It really makes me feel better! Loads better!!
And for those innocent ones....
Sorry ar!!! Kena all my nonsense complaints!!
Put aside those down moment...
This week there are something really good to talk about!!!!
Our clubbing session!!!
Super HIGH~!!!!! And its a really GOOD GOOD NIGHT!!!
Though I feel super blurred out once I step out of boiler...
Simply dunno what I doing...
Cos too tired....
Don't want to think le....
Haha. Had a few hours sleep....
Kena woken up by the caterer that ask if we want to pack food!!!
OMG lei... Its PH!!!
Lol. Then I wake up and prepare myself for the JB trip with Mary and Sol~!!!
We did make it to JB!!!! Bleah!
Though Sol cannot make it....
And its a really good trip!!!!
Walk Walk Walk!!!
I did window shopping!!
Cos Nxt monday I will be going in!!
I am so gonna to change more money for the trip!!!
Mary bought a couple T for herself and Neil!!
When I reach home its like 11!! OMG!
Tmr is MONDAY!!!!
Another bluey day!! Whats worst!!!
MONTH END!!! NO OT pls!!!!
Aja Aja fighting for tmr work!!!
Weird... I'm so looking towards work tmr!?
I know why!!! Im going to tell Sol how much fun me and Mary had when we were at JB!!
Lol.

This phrase is really so sweet!!!
"To the world you might be one person, but to one person you might be the world!"

Back from the clubbing...
Super sleepy and shag...
But I still want to blog about it!!!
It was really fun!!!
Haha!!!
I will miss Serene!!!
Had loads of talk over dinner...
After which we went back home then we head down to ST James!
LOL!
Sales were there too!!
When we reach there... BoonPing was on the stage!
LOL.
Though CC was there...
Haha! Din drink much...Cos not feeling well...
But dance!!!! Dancing Dancing!! Yea yea~
Quite high though.
And there is this guy quite irritating! Keep pushing me!
And I ELBOWED back!!!
After the clubbing..
I totally shag....
Dunno wad I doing, talking and mumbling....
Just want to SLEEP!!
We went to Mac for breakie~
After which we went HOME!
And now I'm HOME! Facebooking and BLOGGING!!!

TaTa~
Need to catch some good good SLEEP!
Waking up early for tmr's JB trip~

Today got mood swing...
Somehow very affected by what xxx said...
Felt humiliated..
HE just blurted out the most cruel word I ever heard.
Was at the verge of anger and tears...
Simply can't tolerate people using that word on me..
What have I done wrong that I need to bear all these...
Simply don't understand...

Shoo Shoo the bad mood....
Tonite gonna be a good nite!!!!!!!
I need good rest!!
Shoo NIGHTMARES!!

Tata~

我是个坏女人 

我不想伤害任何人 

我不懂的珍惜 

即使最爱的人是你 

I read a book review on this book << 五克拉Mr. Right>> Think its quite interesting.. Talking about the lives of 3 career women at their age ranging 30-40. Looking for a bachelor to tie them down... Wonder what will I be doing when I am at that age... People change as the environment around them change.. People change as the people they mix with change... People change...and thats inevitable... Changes can be for better or worst.... I feel that I have changed..... With a new mix of people I am with.... My mindset, decision, character.....changed. Change for the better or worst? I don't really know how to determine...

Ponder Ponder Ponder....
At this point of life...
What really matters to me??
Work? Relationship? Studies?

Seriously I not sure.
So many things to think and reflect on...
Just "let nature takes its course" is always what I say to avoid those thoughts.
"TREASURE" is something I will only know when I lost it.
Usually take things for granted.
Thinking everything will just be as of what I think it will be.
However, life never turns out the way I want it to be.
Thus, disappointment results.

Whatever the world will be, the future is for us to see...

你为什么说谎
歌手：丁当 专辑：夜猫

作曲:刘沁
填词:刘沁黄婷
编曲:阿滚(动静音乐)
监制:马毓芬


这次我走开再没有话要说出来
我不想再期待走下去还能多精彩
我不了解你怎能心安
也抓不住你的倔强
可是我知道你 你为什么说谎

你说你还在一分一秒也没走开

我想留在这里可是这一切已太晚

我不能再像从前一样

为我们的明天疯狂

你不必解释你为什么说谎


你不能说我没有爱过说我没等过难过


我也想说也许能重来我却还是沉默



你一直问我的心到底在不在



问我怎能不遗憾就丢失爱



而我的泪怎么就流下来

Have been watching taiwanese drama 下一站, 幸福.
Find it pretty touching.
Especially with the theme song, 我愛他, by 叮噹.
Have been crying over this drama by the touching scenes.
Some of the lines conversed really very meaningful.
Makes me ponder too...
Below is the MTV.

即使多好听多甜蜜 

誓言说了太多就成真不了 

拿出勇气永不放弃 

维护着那所谓爱情的美好

Walking in the rain...
Makes me ponder the things that happened....
Every decision that I had made...
Somehow I feel...
Is this what I should be doing???
I always asked myself...
All this while my indecisiveness is killing me...
Not knowing what to do...
Not knowing which direction to go...
Feel abit lost....
Spoken to different people...
I just listened....
Analyse all....
but come to no conclusion.
Cos all make sense to me...
Arghz.

下定决心用自己的 力量保护一个人.....

那是怎么样的感觉??

看到别人这么努力保护自己在乎的人.

好羡慕.....

In life,
Sometimes not everything can be fulfilled.
And the only way to continue,
Is to have the right mindset and know where you are heading to.

Perhaps,
Simple minded people thinks clearer.
And for those who think too much...
always had hard time knowing what they want.

Sometimes,
Living a simple life is difficult in this society.
Sometimes,
Its good to be simple-minded and not think too much.

PS: Live life to the fullest and never look backwards on those setbacks.

This week is National Customer Service Week.
The start of today was really fun.
Though at the later part of the day was abit stressed due to the workload
Kinda abit tired.
Reflecting....
Alot of things happened...
Grandpa now at hospital...
But I can't go to visit due to some restrictions from the hospital.
Tsk Tsk
Have been serious mood swing...
This week a fun filled week bar~!!!
Let's enjoy the week yeah~!
Aja Aja FIGHTING!

Had been OT'ing from tuesday to thursday and saturday...
No time for blogging....
Very no life right?
I feel like....
Cycling.
Going PICNIC.
Camping.
Going for massage.
AND HOLIDAY!!

I think I seriously need a break.
Had been long since my last break.
Feeling abit tired and resless.
Alot of things happened
Grandpa in hospital....
Get well soon grandpa!!
Tsk Tsk.

This coming week is the Customer Service Week~!
Hopefully things will be smoother...
AJA AJA FIGHTING!!!!!!

Super Emo today....
Faint...
Bruise on the eye....
SUPER PAIN!
Clumsy me??!
Haiz.

I start to sway again....
Not motivated
Abit demoralized....
Tired of IT!

Feeling like breaking free!!
This time...
I want it to be immediate!
I want to be firm with my decision!!

Shall start my backup now!!!
AJA AJA FIGHTING!!!!!!

Relationships are like glass. Sometimes it is better to leave them broken than try to hurt yourself putting it back together.

Topic of reflection...
When time could rewind....
what will you think you will do better and what will you think you will not do it again?

To me... I will say right from the start....
If time could rewind,
I would study harder during my primary school days....
I would not be so playful...
I would avoid talking things out too blantly...(I'm currently avoiding it)
I would not be so soft hearted....as in always abide to what was told..
I would not let anyone bully me...
I would try to be a bit more firm in making decision....slightly more decisive....

If I could.....

Tsk Tsk. Had been feeling blur these few days..... Dunno what I am doing.... Faint! Is really in a super sub-conscious mind state... Perhaps during these few days.... the sick bug is tagging me... and my mind is seriously not working.... I don't know what I had done right and what I had done wrong.... This sub-conscious mind state is KILLING ME!!!! I feel so NOT ME these few days!!!

Please bring back my healthy state of mind back!!! I don't want to make wrong decision and blur'ing anymore!!!!

TskTsk. Have been feeling super sick these few days. Super tired and stressed up.
But I know the encouragement and motivation given had let me fight through these few days.
Cough Cough! Sneeze Sneeze. Giddy Giddy. Blur Blur. Thats my situation these few days!
My voice is so disgusting!!! Ewks!
When talking to customer, I heard myself speaking... I was like OMG!
Faint.
Haiz.
Abit tired. Need to relax abit.
I want holiday!!!
Haha. Just to reward myself. I bought MIU MIU Wallet!!! Once I received my pay slip!!
Just a click away with i bank!!
LOL.
Maybe I should throw away my ibanking device! Splurge and splurge sia!
NVM! looking forward to receiving my WALLET~!!!
I want to watch PHOBIA 2~!!!!!
Tsk. This week. Tues, thurs, fri and SAT! doing OT!
I wanna breakfree~!
JB tmr~!!! Wohoo~!

I dont want to live for work!!
Tsk Tsk.
I don't like the work
I mish the old me!
Cheerful? Bubbly? Happening??
Where are they!!!

I seems to be lost...
Lost in the unfriendliness environment

JUST WANNA BREAKFREE~!!!!!!!!!!!

Aaachoooo.... Caught cold....
Sneezing away.....
Faint!
Cant sleep ytd...
Watched Phobia!!!
LOL! And seriously I dun think its scary lor!!! (as per one of my sissy friend!)
Wahaha!
I am so gonna watch phobia 2!!! LOL.
but I think the feel of watching at the movie and watching on the lappie...
the feeling maybe different.
LOL!
Today...I am SUPER STRESSED at work!
I'm feeling that my limit is reaching!!
Arghz.
I actually did have the impulse to print the letter
But not the courage to submit the letter
Haiz.

When I thought I could take it easy, it seems to be wandering around my mind....
When I thought I don't mind it, it seems like butterflies are in my stomach....

I want to live life the fullest!!!!!!

I don't wanna be soft!
I want to take up the challenges!
I wouldn't want to admit defeat!
I will do it until it reaches my limit of perserverance!
I want to be strong!
I want to breakfree from that timid me!

I know I got that weird 大小姐attitude
People do change.
But I want to change.
For better of cos!!
But when wrong influence came in?? How??


Tsk. The long weekend passed so fast!
Had a fruitful weekend.
Did something sweet and indifferent!

Aja aja fighting for the week!! OT on the way!!!!

Yesterday was SUPER STRESSED! Stress up to the MAX! hurhur!
Sometimes I feel whats the point of living up with all those!
At times I want to be selfish.
Seriously, the work given I really feel tired.
I had pulled through so much...
Another 4 months....
I started to slow down this few days....
I need to breakfree...
Seriously there is no motivation...
The achievement through work seems so meaningless...
Perhaps it doesnt make it a better person....
Perhaps considering the other factors that I had left out due to work..
It becomes burden to me.
My life? Wads that? Work and Sleep?
My friends? Just colleagues? Where do I have the time for them when OT is always needed.
BF? Our free days conflicted. Just the weekends.
Family? Just the last few mins before sleep do they see me.
Home? Just like a hotel for me to sleep?

My life? Never I call that LIFE!

Hurhur. Enough of those complaint.
Just need to enjoy the LONG weekend!

Happy HARI RAYA PUASA~!!

*Reviving my Blog*

It had been so long since I last update!!!!
OMG!
There is a lot of things that change.
My life, thoughts, emo'ness, work.....
Have been quite sadistic
People change.
For better? For worst?
Not up to me to comment.
Gap between us widen.
Quarrels get frequent
Trust had reached a limit?
Tolerence level just wanna breakfree...

也许你觉得一切不一样了, 那是因为人和心是会变的....

我还可不可以再勇敢 

悲伤已经让我无力承担 

这困境不知该怎么办 

我只想把一切大声哭喊 

雨天过后的彩虹 

带来着一份感动 

曾经期待着的梦 

总让我怦然心动 

也许当时我不懂 

那是所谓的心动 

© Brigitte Khoo Jie 

Bin

幸福可以很简单
但也会让人变贪心
我觉得我越来越贪心了??
现在的我觉得幸福最重要是....
一个聆听我伤心的耳朵
一个能让我依靠的肩膀
一个能牵着我走的双手

也许幸福就是有着许许多多的渴望吧?

*我要大家幸福!!!!!*

Have been feeling TIRED & SICK.....
Thats summarise my week....

Somehow I'm feeling lost....
No directon in life...
No kick in life....
No motivation....
Dragging legs to move on everyday...
How bored life can be....

Really starting to think.....Is it me?? Or really ****!!!
Its getting on my nerves and really affecting me alot!!
My mood, my emotions, my thoughts!!

Tsk Tsk.
How bad life can be....
And ppl is now comparing who can be worse than oneself....Isnt it SARCASTIC?

Dun wanna talk about it.
Had enough.

Update!!
Lol. Went to Bintan over the good friday holiday~! LOL.
It is FUN!!!
Thats is really a good rest taken. Ha! A good rest takes you to move further yar?!
Let's move on to the details.
This trip to Bintan is with the 4 musketeers!! LOL. ME. Toots. Doreen N VIC!!!
When we reach the beach, we simply just can't resist to go towards the sea!!
The water is SO CLEAN & BLUE!!!
Here are some photos....
Beginning of our Journey....



The 2 Couples on Camera!



The 1st Couple!



US!! LOL!

Toots Poses! *Captured By ME*




Acting Superman??


Another David Beckam??





Now Its ME!


Jump!


More Photos.



Sweety hur?



The SunRise



Another one here..




When the Sun Finally came.



Definitely have a pics with this scenary!!

The Sunset!



Beautiful??!!






Another with the Toots!



Walking down the beach... Romantic hur??

Home!!



Our 1st Couple Shirt!! POLO SHIRT! LoL!



Hmmm...Toots is reluctant to go home...

NO good mood at all.....

NO ONE understand me.....

NO MC to be taken though I coughing the hell out of my lungs

NO stand to voice out my feelings

NO ONE care about me.....

I'm just like a toy.....

Manipulate by others

Taken for granted

Being throw here and there

Being uncared

Swallow everything to the stomach

Have to follow whatever people says

Unwanted

Always pick on me

What's to my life???

Updates!!

21 Mar 09

We went prawning at Jurong Hilltop!!! Thanks to the TOOTS bugging to go prawning!!
Our prize of 8 prawns from 3hrs of prawning session!! http://lokkokglamour.blogspot.com/2009/03/prawning-nite.html
Yar!!!
Highlights of the prawning session:
TOOTS being SUPER SISSY!!!! Don't dare to touch the prawn. (Yar hor.. I am always the man one)
TOOTS caught 6 prawns in the last 30mins!!! (Oh....Thats after the guy add in prawn, they should have added in prawn every hour!)
TOOTS freak out when the prawn wriggle while we are trying to unhook the prawn from the bait. (As per TOOTS, he DON'T LIKE Slimmy stuff)

LOL. After that we cooked it!!! Poked the prawn using those satay sticks!!
Yum Yum!!! The prawn is delicious!!! We didn't add any flavor and it just taste so NICE!!!

It was a nice trip though....

Update!!

LOL!! Had been not feeling well this few days.... Haiz....with all those sniffing and coughing.... Well I guess....I really need loads of rest.... Have been exhausted by work....All the stress coming in.... HAIZ.... And all the changes.... Had nightmares almost every night!!! ALL ABOUT WORK!!! It is HAUNTING me!!! I am very stressed up!!! Not even the stress ball can release all my stress!!! Tsk Tsk. Wads more!!! Someone SUSPECTING ME of taking frequent MC. Yar right!! You are the ROOT of it CAN!!!

I dun think there is any company who will FREEZE employer's leave for 3 WHOLE MONTHS!!!! Its freaking me!!! I never been to a company whereby the employee's welfare is so unimportant to them!!!

Task! I got loads of complaints...... Haiz... I just have to swallow everything down... Small fry has no say in the company... If I can choose.... I would leave...... Seriously... I may die of exhaustion working here.... Maybe its me that I can't handle the stress??? LOL! I hope thats the only reason!!! How nice if the boss won't anyhow shoot her employees!!! How nice if the boss doesn't scold her employees by saying that how good she can do it if she is in the employee's position!! How nice if the boss doesn't praise herself and indirectly humilate her employees!!

Sniff Sniff. Cough Cough.

Gttg le. Time to have dinner and take medicine le.

Updates

WOW!!! Realised that I haven been blogging!!! Revive My Bloggie!!! Lol. Anyway... Nothing much to blog about too...Life have been just that insane....With the financial crisis....Everyone is pushing each other...Task Task....It really shows how the change in the environment reflects one's true self??
Hmmm.....Yesterday was the 5th Month!!!! Lol. Seems like have been together for quite a long period...
Haha. Opps. Revealing something finally hur?? Lol.
Yesterday we went to MDIS open hse....And "Toots!" went to apply for the business degree course!!! Lol. I din really tot he is serious in studying... Opps. Bleah. After that we went to Ikea for shopping...LOL. Hurhur. Then to Anchor point where we found this rubiz cube that really attracts "Toots!"... And he just simply start playing it once he bought it.... Feeling bored... I just joined him with the miniature that he bought on fri as stated.
This is really the only toy that really test my patience. LOL. I did have that toy when I was young. Being impatience, I simply just swap the sticker. LOL. Mischievous hur.
Yar!! Thats me!!! LOL.
Its Sunday le.... How fast the weekend past!!! And I had decided le??? Going UOL for my business Degree?? Lol. I shall see how for the open house next week....

Gttg le~ Going to Ah Gong house. Today is his BIRTHDAY!!!! YEAH~!!! I got helped my mum to fry food for Ah Gong!!! Lol!!

HAPPY BIRTHDAY 'GONG GONG'~!!!!

How time passed!!!! Another year GONE!!!! LOL!!!! Time for another new year resolution!!!
Hurhur!! Haven really though about what kind of resolutions should I plan to achieve. Will update on my resolutions of the year soon.... Have been reflecting on the things done last year.... There are saddness and achievements....Loads of ups and downs though....In general....I really do hope this year will be a better year.... Hopefully life can be abit more smoother???

握着你的手一路走来 

是你让我活的很精彩 

你给的幸福呢? 

都在我心里了!

以前的 

甜甜的 

变淡了 

爱情呢 

为什么 

不见了 

以前的 

那个我 

不见了 

为什么 

好堕落 

想多了 

生活一旦没了动力 

活着也不在有意义 

一个人没人会在乎 

伤心时只能默默哭 

就算所有人不了解 

我有的斗志已全没 

Today's Alex last day of work... Hurhur. I did a super BIG ERROR!!! In one order, I can make 2 SERIOUS ERROR!! Today is super NOT my day!!What's more its Ailing's order. Pricing error and duplicate item! Arghz. I dunno wads wrong with me today. Just unable to stay focus with the serious headache that come and go consistently... Can I take a break??? I seriously need a break??? December leave freeze.... When can I have my break?? Today really totally break down can?? In one day!! I can have so many errors!!! Well?? I seriously need to talk to the team leader?? Cos the errors is getting high...And my level of concentration is limiting...Tsk tsk. Sobx. Anyway.. After work went out with Alex and all for Sichuan Steamboat.. Hurhur. Celebrate his freedom from RS?? Hurhur... Eat alot lor!! Mary keep giving me food!! LOL!! There goes my diet... Haiz. I cant stop thinking about the issues lei!! Work Work Work!! Its always around me!! Even when I sleep I still can dream about loading orders and doing credit notes for my errors. Arghz. Guess I need some changes.... Be it ME, MY JOB SCOPE or the COMPANY.

This few days I am not in the correct mind....Headache + STRESSED = SUPER SERIOUS MOOD SWING!!! Had been doing quite alot of errors this few days... I think my concentration level has reached a limit... I seriously thinking I need a long break... The stress that comes in really can make me tear and break down like no one business... Always error... I know I am super careless... And always kena big issues...I think this job is really not suitable for me...somehow??? And I dunno why I can work there for like going 1 yr.... Need a job change or take up the challenge to improvise on my carelessness?? Serious speaking its not that I don't like the people I'm working with, I think its my errors that really makes me reconsidering.... Anyway... The letter is already there sealed... Its just the matter of time when I really can't stand the errors that I made and just tender...Though I know the currently economy downturn is really that bad...I don't mind getting a lower paid job and I really enjoyed the work that I am doing... Service is the job that I think I really wants... But currently... I don't think I am in the service industry... I feel more like an operation worker or rather an operator??? Keying in orders, taking orders??? And who knows maybe they have been wanting to retrench me?? Just that they want me to resign??

我总相信你讲的话 

不管讲的是真是假 

只要有你在我身边 

就能让我笑的很甜

我喜欢这样的看着你 

想想你到底爱不爱我 

想想你到底在乎什么 

此刻只想用真心爱你

别说... 

我们还是朋友, 

因为那会放大我隐藏着的寂寞. 

别说.. 

你最近还好吗, 

因为那只是你问候的随口说. 

别说... 

那些抱歉的话, 

因为它已经被谎言给撕破. 

如果我们在一起...

如果我们在一起... 

我会很依赖着你. 

但我独自安静不表明.. 

心里一直怕来不及... 

也没有表白的勇气. 

只希望一切会被聆听..

遇到雨天, 

我突然想念着你那暖暖的拥抱. 

给我温暖的肩膀靠着 

握住我双手, 

融化所有冰冷. 

你的依靠, 

让我习惯了依赖着你.

梦醒了.. 

一切回到原点. 

是该醒了... 

爱是不会自己敲门的. 

是要自己去争取的. 

一时来的勇气, 也许还不足够. 

PS: 害怕是爱最致命的阻碍...

傻瓜.. 

明明知道你却不表明 

傻瓜.. 

明明在你身边你却让他擦肩而过 

傻瓜.. 

明明他对你好你却当作理所当然 

傻瓜.. 

明明做对了选择你却放弃了

I very no use!!!! Sobx!!!!*CRY* Really stressed up!!!!

PS: Dun mind me. I just need some means to vent it out.

OT today. I dunno why. Had really stressed by ytd!!! Went to toilet alot of times hur. ( no need to elaborate on that) Today is also stressed de!!! Sobx. I believe I had really put in my very best to do whatever I can but yet it all hits and contradicts with the result. Doubts came in and hit the confidence. Perhaps its really that my productivity is not that good. TskTsk. *Will reflect on that*

PS: I want to be a HAPPY GIRL!!!!!

Stressed!!! Getting the heat nowadays!!! Need stress relief!!! But really very comforting to receive someone's SMS. *touched* Though seldom received his SMS, yet that SMS is really one that I need!!! Somehow when I very stressed I see that SMS, will feel abit comforting. Had been overstressing myself alot. Dunno why. Cry very easily. Tears just cannot control. Tsk Tsk. I always like to keep things just to myself. Hur hur. Till then peeps~

PS: Stressed can be desserts if you can reversed!!!

能够牵手的时候， 

别只是并肩走。

能够拥抱的时候， 

别只是手牵手。 

爱着对方的时候，

一定要说出口。 

好人与滥好人之间的差别, 在于是否有足够的自信去坚持该有的原则。

女人的心思很奇怪, 男人的也不赖.
男人总说女人心海底针, 他们也不一样吗?
所以说, 找一个了解自己的另一伴是不容易的.
女人总说自己要找符合自己标准的男人, 但相爱时, 谁会如此在意那所谓的标准呢?

爱情是一种感觉
如空气般看不见
让人没有安全感

把对你的思念养成习惯
也让给的关怀成了自然

喜欢看些爱情电影, 有时眼泪如雨水流淌, 停也停不住.
那是因为无法面对自己的故事哭, 才借着别人的故事哭.
也许这也是抒发情绪的一种吧....

人往往在迟钝中得到爱 

PS: 其实爱情已经悄悄的来到, 只是自己却不知道....

誓言与谎言

喜欢动人的誓言 

讨厌虚伪的谎言 

誓言却往往以谎言的形式而出现 

所以誓言必须宽容不安全的谎言

第一次喜欢上一个人 

有着黑白配的不可能 

任性的喜欢着那个人 

那一切情感才是最真 

对你的思念已成了习惯 

你却把它当作理所当然 

这一天我决定放下一切 

再也不要当爱情的傀儡 

也许白天不懂夜的黑 

但是黑白却如此绝配...

想对你说: 我要我们在一起~!!!! 

只是没那勇气说出口的我, 把一切对你的情感埋藏在心中. 

也许懦弱的我, 需要多一点的自信.

当我们不在一起
做朋友会更合适...

说好了不会再牵挂 

说好了要选择放下 

偏偏我却无法释怀 

让所有的情感放下 

一直拼命灌醉自己 

那伤痛却那么清晰 

不管灌了再多的酒 

眼泪一直在心里流 

如果最美好的早已留在心中 

那再多选择也只会无动于衷 

曾经给过的感触 

已因时间而模糊 

只怕所谓的孤独 

把那情感给麻木

那所谓的无奈 

总是说不明白 

那一切的告白 

只因你而灌溉 

我想学会释怀 

不再为爱感慨 

你忽然抱紧着我 

脑袋却一片空白 

那笑容多么温柔 

让我想用心对待 

那时最后的告别 

你却对我说谢谢 

你松开了我的手 

不回头的离开我 

为什么总不知觉流眼泪 

在寂寞时会莫名的伤悲 

我的心到底还在守着谁 

喜欢一个人不会疲惫 

爱上一个人绝不后悔 

就算爱会伤悲流眼泪 

就算喜欢却没人来陪 

爱情还是会那么甜美 

因为我曾为爱勇敢追 

一直默默的承受 

每次看着你走的背后 

你总这样对我说 

我们比较适合当朋友

所有与你的对白 

感觉那么的无法替代 

有时会有所期待 

你会懂得我对你的爱 

执着的我一直寻找勇气 

抛开一切寻找新的美丽 

倔强的我始终没有决心 

把我对你的情感化成零 

我让自己多喝了几杯 

始终无法让自己喝醉 

你的离开我多么狼狈 

拼命强忍不准掉眼泪 

我以为我做的很完美 

说服自己已经无所谓 

努力假装幸福不伤悲 

却掩饰不了一切心碎 

对着照片一直发呆 

想你的心一直狂跳 

期望那一刻能从来 

与你接触的那几秒