下定决心用自己的 力量保护一个人.....

那是怎么样的感觉??

看到别人这么努力保护自己在乎的人.

好羡慕.....

In life,
Sometimes not everything can be fulfilled.
And the only way to continue,
Is to have the right mindset and know where you are heading to.

Perhaps,
Simple minded people thinks clearer.
And for those who think too much...
always had hard time knowing what they want.

Sometimes,
Living a simple life is difficult in this society.
Sometimes,
Its good to be simple-minded and not think too much.

PS: Live life to the fullest and never look backwards on those setbacks.

This week is National Customer Service Week.
The start of today was really fun.
Though at the later part of the day was abit stressed due to the workload
Kinda abit tired.
Reflecting....
Alot of things happened...
Grandpa now at hospital...
But I can't go to visit due to some restrictions from the hospital.
Tsk Tsk
Have been serious mood swing...
This week a fun filled week bar~!!!
Let's enjoy the week yeah~!
Aja Aja FIGHTING!

Had been OT'ing from tuesday to thursday and saturday...
No time for blogging....
Very no life right?
I feel like....
Cycling.
Going PICNIC.
Camping.
Going for massage.
AND HOLIDAY!!

I think I seriously need a break.
Had been long since my last break.
Feeling abit tired and resless.
Alot of things happened
Grandpa in hospital....
Get well soon grandpa!!
Tsk Tsk.

This coming week is the Customer Service Week~!
Hopefully things will be smoother...
AJA AJA FIGHTING!!!!!!

Super Emo today....
Faint...
Bruise on the eye....
SUPER PAIN!
Clumsy me??!
Haiz.

I start to sway again....
Not motivated
Abit demoralized....
Tired of IT!

Feeling like breaking free!!
This time...
I want it to be immediate!
I want to be firm with my decision!!

Shall start my backup now!!!
AJA AJA FIGHTING!!!!!!

Relationships are like glass. Sometimes it is better to leave them broken than try to hurt yourself putting it back together.

Topic of reflection...
When time could rewind....
what will you think you will do better and what will you think you will not do it again?

To me... I will say right from the start....
If time could rewind,
I would study harder during my primary school days....
I would not be so playful...
I would avoid talking things out too blantly...(I'm currently avoiding it)
I would not be so soft hearted....as in always abide to what was told..
I would not let anyone bully me...
I would try to be a bit more firm in making decision....slightly more decisive....

If I could.....

Tsk Tsk. Had been feeling blur these few days..... Dunno what I am doing.... Faint! Is really in a super sub-conscious mind state... Perhaps during these few days.... the sick bug is tagging me... and my mind is seriously not working.... I don't know what I had done right and what I had done wrong.... This sub-conscious mind state is KILLING ME!!!! I feel so NOT ME these few days!!!

Please bring back my healthy state of mind back!!! I don't want to make wrong decision and blur'ing anymore!!!!

TskTsk. Have been feeling super sick these few days. Super tired and stressed up.
But I know the encouragement and motivation given had let me fight through these few days.
Cough Cough! Sneeze Sneeze. Giddy Giddy. Blur Blur. Thats my situation these few days!
My voice is so disgusting!!! Ewks!
When talking to customer, I heard myself speaking... I was like OMG!
Faint.
Haiz.
Abit tired. Need to relax abit.
I want holiday!!!
Haha. Just to reward myself. I bought MIU MIU Wallet!!! Once I received my pay slip!!
Just a click away with i bank!!
LOL.
Maybe I should throw away my ibanking device! Splurge and splurge sia!
NVM! looking forward to receiving my WALLET~!!!
I want to watch PHOBIA 2~!!!!!
Tsk. This week. Tues, thurs, fri and SAT! doing OT!
I wanna breakfree~!
JB tmr~!!! Wohoo~!

I dont want to live for work!!
Tsk Tsk.
I don't like the work
I mish the old me!
Cheerful? Bubbly? Happening??
Where are they!!!

I seems to be lost...
Lost in the unfriendliness environment

JUST WANNA BREAKFREE~!!!!!!!!!!!

Aaachoooo.... Caught cold....
Sneezing away.....
Faint!
Cant sleep ytd...
Watched Phobia!!!
LOL! And seriously I dun think its scary lor!!! (as per one of my sissy friend!)
Wahaha!
I am so gonna watch phobia 2!!! LOL.
but I think the feel of watching at the movie and watching on the lappie...
the feeling maybe different.
LOL!
Today...I am SUPER STRESSED at work!
I'm feeling that my limit is reaching!!
Arghz.
I actually did have the impulse to print the letter
But not the courage to submit the letter
Haiz.

When I thought I could take it easy, it seems to be wandering around my mind....
When I thought I don't mind it, it seems like butterflies are in my stomach....

I want to live life the fullest!!!!!!

I don't wanna be soft!
I want to take up the challenges!
I wouldn't want to admit defeat!
I will do it until it reaches my limit of perserverance!
I want to be strong!
I want to breakfree from that timid me!

I know I got that weird 大小姐attitude
People do change.
But I want to change.
For better of cos!!
But when wrong influence came in?? How??


Tsk. The long weekend passed so fast!
Had a fruitful weekend.
Did something sweet and indifferent!

Aja aja fighting for the week!! OT on the way!!!!

Yesterday was SUPER STRESSED! Stress up to the MAX! hurhur!
Sometimes I feel whats the point of living up with all those!
At times I want to be selfish.
Seriously, the work given I really feel tired.
I had pulled through so much...
Another 4 months....
I started to slow down this few days....
I need to breakfree...
Seriously there is no motivation...
The achievement through work seems so meaningless...
Perhaps it doesnt make it a better person....
Perhaps considering the other factors that I had left out due to work..
It becomes burden to me.
My life? Wads that? Work and Sleep?
My friends? Just colleagues? Where do I have the time for them when OT is always needed.
BF? Our free days conflicted. Just the weekends.
Family? Just the last few mins before sleep do they see me.
Home? Just like a hotel for me to sleep?

My life? Never I call that LIFE!

Hurhur. Enough of those complaint.
Just need to enjoy the LONG weekend!

Happy HARI RAYA PUASA~!!

*Reviving my Blog*

It had been so long since I last update!!!!
OMG!
There is a lot of things that change.
My life, thoughts, emo'ness, work.....
Have been quite sadistic
People change.
For better? For worst?
Not up to me to comment.
Gap between us widen.
Quarrels get frequent
Trust had reached a limit?
Tolerence level just wanna breakfree...

也许你觉得一切不一样了, 那是因为人和心是会变的....

我还可不可以再勇敢 

悲伤已经让我无力承担 

这困境不知该怎么办 

我只想把一切大声哭喊 

雨天过后的彩虹 

带来着一份感动 

曾经期待着的梦 

总让我怦然心动 

也许当时我不懂 

那是所谓的心动 

© Brigitte Khoo Jie 

Bin

幸福可以很简单
但也会让人变贪心
我觉得我越来越贪心了??
现在的我觉得幸福最重要是....
一个聆听我伤心的耳朵
一个能让我依靠的肩膀
一个能牵着我走的双手

也许幸福就是有着许许多多的渴望吧?

*我要大家幸福!!!!!*

Have been feeling TIRED & SICK.....
Thats summarise my week....

Somehow I'm feeling lost....
No directon in life...
No kick in life....
No motivation....
Dragging legs to move on everyday...
How bored life can be....

Really starting to think.....Is it me?? Or really ****!!!
Its getting on my nerves and really affecting me alot!!
My mood, my emotions, my thoughts!!

Tsk Tsk.
How bad life can be....
And ppl is now comparing who can be worse than oneself....Isnt it SARCASTIC?

Dun wanna talk about it.
Had enough.

Update!!
Lol. Went to Bintan over the good friday holiday~! LOL.
It is FUN!!!
Thats is really a good rest taken. Ha! A good rest takes you to move further yar?!
Let's move on to the details.
This trip to Bintan is with the 4 musketeers!! LOL. ME. Toots. Doreen N VIC!!!
When we reach the beach, we simply just can't resist to go towards the sea!!
The water is SO CLEAN & BLUE!!!
Here are some photos....
Beginning of our Journey....



The 2 Couples on Camera!



The 1st Couple!



US!! LOL!

Toots Poses! *Captured By ME*




Acting Superman??


Another David Beckam??





Now Its ME!


Jump!


More Photos.



Sweety hur?



The SunRise



Another one here..




When the Sun Finally came.



Definitely have a pics with this scenary!!

The Sunset!



Beautiful??!!






Another with the Toots!



Walking down the beach... Romantic hur??

Home!!



Our 1st Couple Shirt!! POLO SHIRT! LoL!



Hmmm...Toots is reluctant to go home...

NO good mood at all.....

NO ONE understand me.....

NO MC to be taken though I coughing the hell out of my lungs

NO stand to voice out my feelings

NO ONE care about me.....

I'm just like a toy.....

Manipulate by others

Taken for granted

Being throw here and there

Being uncared

Swallow everything to the stomach

Have to follow whatever people says

Unwanted

Always pick on me

What's to my life???

Updates!!

21 Mar 09

We went prawning at Jurong Hilltop!!! Thanks to the TOOTS bugging to go prawning!!
Our prize of 8 prawns from 3hrs of prawning session!! http://lokkokglamour.blogspot.com/2009/03/prawning-nite.html
Yar!!!
Highlights of the prawning session:
TOOTS being SUPER SISSY!!!! Don't dare to touch the prawn. (Yar hor.. I am always the man one)
TOOTS caught 6 prawns in the last 30mins!!! (Oh....Thats after the guy add in prawn, they should have added in prawn every hour!)
TOOTS freak out when the prawn wriggle while we are trying to unhook the prawn from the bait. (As per TOOTS, he DON'T LIKE Slimmy stuff)

LOL. After that we cooked it!!! Poked the prawn using those satay sticks!!
Yum Yum!!! The prawn is delicious!!! We didn't add any flavor and it just taste so NICE!!!

It was a nice trip though....

Update!!

LOL!! Had been not feeling well this few days.... Haiz....with all those sniffing and coughing.... Well I guess....I really need loads of rest.... Have been exhausted by work....All the stress coming in.... HAIZ.... And all the changes.... Had nightmares almost every night!!! ALL ABOUT WORK!!! It is HAUNTING me!!! I am very stressed up!!! Not even the stress ball can release all my stress!!! Tsk Tsk. Wads more!!! Someone SUSPECTING ME of taking frequent MC. Yar right!! You are the ROOT of it CAN!!!

I dun think there is any company who will FREEZE employer's leave for 3 WHOLE MONTHS!!!! Its freaking me!!! I never been to a company whereby the employee's welfare is so unimportant to them!!!

Task! I got loads of complaints...... Haiz... I just have to swallow everything down... Small fry has no say in the company... If I can choose.... I would leave...... Seriously... I may die of exhaustion working here.... Maybe its me that I can't handle the stress??? LOL! I hope thats the only reason!!! How nice if the boss won't anyhow shoot her employees!!! How nice if the boss doesn't scold her employees by saying that how good she can do it if she is in the employee's position!! How nice if the boss doesn't praise herself and indirectly humilate her employees!!

Sniff Sniff. Cough Cough.

Gttg le. Time to have dinner and take medicine le.

Updates

WOW!!! Realised that I haven been blogging!!! Revive My Bloggie!!! Lol. Anyway... Nothing much to blog about too...Life have been just that insane....With the financial crisis....Everyone is pushing each other...Task Task....It really shows how the change in the environment reflects one's true self??
Hmmm.....Yesterday was the 5th Month!!!! Lol. Seems like have been together for quite a long period...
Haha. Opps. Revealing something finally hur?? Lol.
Yesterday we went to MDIS open hse....And "Toots!" went to apply for the business degree course!!! Lol. I din really tot he is serious in studying... Opps. Bleah. After that we went to Ikea for shopping...LOL. Hurhur. Then to Anchor point where we found this rubiz cube that really attracts "Toots!"... And he just simply start playing it once he bought it.... Feeling bored... I just joined him with the miniature that he bought on fri as stated.
This is really the only toy that really test my patience. LOL. I did have that toy when I was young. Being impatience, I simply just swap the sticker. LOL. Mischievous hur.
Yar!! Thats me!!! LOL.
Its Sunday le.... How fast the weekend past!!! And I had decided le??? Going UOL for my business Degree?? Lol. I shall see how for the open house next week....

Gttg le~ Going to Ah Gong house. Today is his BIRTHDAY!!!! YEAH~!!! I got helped my mum to fry food for Ah Gong!!! Lol!!

HAPPY BIRTHDAY 'GONG GONG'~!!!!

How time passed!!!! Another year GONE!!!! LOL!!!! Time for another new year resolution!!!
Hurhur!! Haven really though about what kind of resolutions should I plan to achieve. Will update on my resolutions of the year soon.... Have been reflecting on the things done last year.... There are saddness and achievements....Loads of ups and downs though....In general....I really do hope this year will be a better year.... Hopefully life can be abit more smoother???

握着你的手一路走来 

是你让我活的很精彩 

你给的幸福呢? 

都在我心里了!

以前的 

甜甜的 

变淡了 

爱情呢 

为什么 

不见了 

以前的 

那个我 

不见了 

为什么 

好堕落 

想多了 

生活一旦没了动力 

活着也不在有意义 

一个人没人会在乎 

伤心时只能默默哭 

就算所有人不了解 

我有的斗志已全没 

Today's Alex last day of work... Hurhur. I did a super BIG ERROR!!! In one order, I can make 2 SERIOUS ERROR!! Today is super NOT my day!!What's more its Ailing's order. Pricing error and duplicate item! Arghz. I dunno wads wrong with me today. Just unable to stay focus with the serious headache that come and go consistently... Can I take a break??? I seriously need a break??? December leave freeze.... When can I have my break?? Today really totally break down can?? In one day!! I can have so many errors!!! Well?? I seriously need to talk to the team leader?? Cos the errors is getting high...And my level of concentration is limiting...Tsk tsk. Sobx. Anyway.. After work went out with Alex and all for Sichuan Steamboat.. Hurhur. Celebrate his freedom from RS?? Hurhur... Eat alot lor!! Mary keep giving me food!! LOL!! There goes my diet... Haiz. I cant stop thinking about the issues lei!! Work Work Work!! Its always around me!! Even when I sleep I still can dream about loading orders and doing credit notes for my errors. Arghz. Guess I need some changes.... Be it ME, MY JOB SCOPE or the COMPANY.

This few days I am not in the correct mind....Headache + STRESSED = SUPER SERIOUS MOOD SWING!!! Had been doing quite alot of errors this few days... I think my concentration level has reached a limit... I seriously thinking I need a long break... The stress that comes in really can make me tear and break down like no one business... Always error... I know I am super careless... And always kena big issues...I think this job is really not suitable for me...somehow??? And I dunno why I can work there for like going 1 yr.... Need a job change or take up the challenge to improvise on my carelessness?? Serious speaking its not that I don't like the people I'm working with, I think its my errors that really makes me reconsidering.... Anyway... The letter is already there sealed... Its just the matter of time when I really can't stand the errors that I made and just tender...Though I know the currently economy downturn is really that bad...I don't mind getting a lower paid job and I really enjoyed the work that I am doing... Service is the job that I think I really wants... But currently... I don't think I am in the service industry... I feel more like an operation worker or rather an operator??? Keying in orders, taking orders??? And who knows maybe they have been wanting to retrench me?? Just that they want me to resign??

我总相信你讲的话 

不管讲的是真是假 

只要有你在我身边 

就能让我笑的很甜

我喜欢这样的看着你 

想想你到底爱不爱我 

想想你到底在乎什么 

此刻只想用真心爱你

别说... 

我们还是朋友, 

因为那会放大我隐藏着的寂寞. 

别说.. 

你最近还好吗, 

因为那只是你问候的随口说. 

别说... 

那些抱歉的话, 

因为它已经被谎言给撕破. 

如果我们在一起...

如果我们在一起... 

我会很依赖着你. 

但我独自安静不表明.. 

心里一直怕来不及... 

也没有表白的勇气. 

只希望一切会被聆听..

遇到雨天, 

我突然想念着你那暖暖的拥抱. 

给我温暖的肩膀靠着 

握住我双手, 

融化所有冰冷. 

你的依靠, 

让我习惯了依赖着你.

梦醒了.. 

一切回到原点. 

是该醒了... 

爱是不会自己敲门的. 

是要自己去争取的. 

一时来的勇气, 也许还不足够. 

PS: 害怕是爱最致命的阻碍...

傻瓜.. 

明明知道你却不表明 

傻瓜.. 

明明在你身边你却让他擦肩而过 

傻瓜.. 

明明他对你好你却当作理所当然 

傻瓜.. 

明明做对了选择你却放弃了

I very no use!!!! Sobx!!!!*CRY* Really stressed up!!!!

PS: Dun mind me. I just need some means to vent it out.

OT today. I dunno why. Had really stressed by ytd!!! Went to toilet alot of times hur. ( no need to elaborate on that) Today is also stressed de!!! Sobx. I believe I had really put in my very best to do whatever I can but yet it all hits and contradicts with the result. Doubts came in and hit the confidence. Perhaps its really that my productivity is not that good. TskTsk. *Will reflect on that*

PS: I want to be a HAPPY GIRL!!!!!

Stressed!!! Getting the heat nowadays!!! Need stress relief!!! But really very comforting to receive someone's SMS. *touched* Though seldom received his SMS, yet that SMS is really one that I need!!! Somehow when I very stressed I see that SMS, will feel abit comforting. Had been overstressing myself alot. Dunno why. Cry very easily. Tears just cannot control. Tsk Tsk. I always like to keep things just to myself. Hur hur. Till then peeps~

PS: Stressed can be desserts if you can reversed!!!

能够牵手的时候， 

别只是并肩走。

能够拥抱的时候， 

别只是手牵手。 

爱着对方的时候，

一定要说出口。 

好人与滥好人之间的差别, 在于是否有足够的自信去坚持该有的原则。

女人的心思很奇怪, 男人的也不赖.
男人总说女人心海底针, 他们也不一样吗?
所以说, 找一个了解自己的另一伴是不容易的.
女人总说自己要找符合自己标准的男人, 但相爱时, 谁会如此在意那所谓的标准呢?

爱情是一种感觉
如空气般看不见
让人没有安全感

把对你的思念养成习惯
也让给的关怀成了自然

喜欢看些爱情电影, 有时眼泪如雨水流淌, 停也停不住.
那是因为无法面对自己的故事哭, 才借着别人的故事哭.
也许这也是抒发情绪的一种吧....

人往往在迟钝中得到爱 

PS: 其实爱情已经悄悄的来到, 只是自己却不知道....

誓言与谎言

喜欢动人的誓言 

讨厌虚伪的谎言 

誓言却往往以谎言的形式而出现 

所以誓言必须宽容不安全的谎言

第一次喜欢上一个人 

有着黑白配的不可能 

任性的喜欢着那个人 

那一切情感才是最真 

对你的思念已成了习惯 

你却把它当作理所当然 

这一天我决定放下一切 

再也不要当爱情的傀儡 

也许白天不懂夜的黑 

但是黑白却如此绝配...

想对你说: 我要我们在一起~!!!! 

只是没那勇气说出口的我, 把一切对你的情感埋藏在心中. 

也许懦弱的我, 需要多一点的自信.

当我们不在一起
做朋友会更合适...

说好了不会再牵挂 

说好了要选择放下 

偏偏我却无法释怀 

让所有的情感放下 

一直拼命灌醉自己 

那伤痛却那么清晰 

不管灌了再多的酒 

眼泪一直在心里流 

如果最美好的早已留在心中 

那再多选择也只会无动于衷 

曾经给过的感触 

已因时间而模糊 

只怕所谓的孤独 

把那情感给麻木

那所谓的无奈 

总是说不明白 

那一切的告白 

只因你而灌溉 

我想学会释怀 

不再为爱感慨 

你忽然抱紧着我 

脑袋却一片空白 

那笑容多么温柔 

让我想用心对待 

那时最后的告别 

你却对我说谢谢 

你松开了我的手 

不回头的离开我 

为什么总不知觉流眼泪 

在寂寞时会莫名的伤悲 

我的心到底还在守着谁 

喜欢一个人不会疲惫 

爱上一个人绝不后悔 

就算爱会伤悲流眼泪 

就算喜欢却没人来陪 

爱情还是会那么甜美 

因为我曾为爱勇敢追 

一直默默的承受 

每次看着你走的背后 

你总这样对我说 

我们比较适合当朋友

所有与你的对白 

感觉那么的无法替代 

有时会有所期待 

你会懂得我对你的爱 

执着的我一直寻找勇气 

抛开一切寻找新的美丽 

倔强的我始终没有决心 

把我对你的情感化成零 

我让自己多喝了几杯 

始终无法让自己喝醉 

你的离开我多么狼狈 

拼命强忍不准掉眼泪 

我以为我做的很完美 

说服自己已经无所谓 

努力假装幸福不伤悲 

却掩饰不了一切心碎 

对着照片一直发呆 

想你的心一直狂跳 

期望那一刻能从来 

与你接触的那几秒 

Today meet up with Pap, Momo, Xin, Yun and Jess for dinner at boat quay!! Huggies!!! So long never see Jess le!!! Finally get to catch up with her!! Miss you loads hur.( from all those rebuking..LOL) wahaha! Celebrate my birthday at the restaurant. Thanks alot all!! There got fireworks due to the arts festival!! Very nice!!! Wahaha. Though the tomato incident was abit amusing hur...Wahaha. After dinner we went to Pap and momo house and chill. Stay till quite late then go home. Have a wonderful day with them!! Huggies!! I LOVE THEM ALL!!!! Muacks!!! Thanks for everything!!

因为爱你曾经铬心刻骨 

回想起一切也不再想哭...

爱会让人变得愚蠢 

而从中显露那单纯... 

舍不得你我不曾说, 

对你的思念存许多.... 

PS: 你知道吗?

熟悉的画面在脑海中浮现 

有许多的情绪变得好明显 

回忆着最初相遇的那一天 

原来对你的思念从不改变 

只把自己的情绪封锁 

不敢对爱有任何期待 

也许习惯一个人生活 

所以把爱拒千里之外

我不听从所谓的安排 

欺骗自己你还会回来 

眼泪却那么的想不开 

让依赖你的我不明白 

能与你相遇我很快乐 

你给我的回忆是好的 

笑过哭过这不算什么 

因为认真所以难割舍 

爱情不必看得很清楚 

偶尔也会不小心迷路 

总是浮现在我脑海中 

却是你那羞涩的笑容 

每个人都有不同态度 

每个人追求不同幸福 

有人会把伤心塞满肚 

有人却活得很有风度 

把世界看得那么清楚 

最终还是那么不满足 

复杂的情绪

那些简单的言语 

只说给懂的人听 

那些复杂的情绪 

不停了乱我的心 

有时会想念 希望一切不曾改变 

对你的眷恋 存在着默默的暗恋 

爱情就像窗外的雨滴, 

蒸发后依然留下痕迹. 

Haven't been able to blog as often than before. Have been doing loads of OTs. Lacking of SLEEP!! Haven't been able to sleep well. There comes my eyebags!! Arghz. So stressed and tensed up even when I sleep!! OMG! Oh well. Work is freaking out of my nerves!! Making me not ME!! Social time is left so minimal!!! Didn't have much time to get out with friends to chill out!!! I missed all my friends!!!! Huggies. TB22! TB25! GSK Dearies!! Miss them loads!!!They are friends that I wouldn't want to lose contact with!!!! I want to spend time with them!!! Reduce my OTs!!!! I think I seriously need a change of job. I think I'm not suitable for a routine job whereby I always process orders and handle calls everyday. A very dead thing to do. LOL. And I must really apologise to all my friends. Sorry for not able to meet up and catch up with you guys. Was asked to do OTs this few days. Sobx. Hopefully next month will be a better one. Looking forward to Good Friday~! Wohooo~! Mum's and Dad's birthday is next! Till then peeps~!

Sis's Birthday

March has came!!! OMG!!! I have been working there for like 2 months!!! I'm still not into their environment. I think working there is like really no life at all!!! Always work OTs!! And even not paid for some of the OTs(only can claim up to 20hrs) Lucky I do not need to do any OT today!! Yawnz. Didn't sleep well yesterday. Anyway I haven't been sleeping well since I started working there. So stressed up and often dream about work stuff. Making sleeping so stressed up. Arghz. Even on weekends I still get so tensed up about work! Tsk. This kind of work pressure is killing me! I miss those days in GSK!!! I have met nice people there!!! *感慨着* Anyway today is my younger sis birthday. Accompany my youngest sis to help her take her tablet, then we headed to collect the cake I ordered from awfully chocolate. I bought the chocolate banana. It was YUMMY! Haha. Then we went to Soup Restaurant for dinner. Full-filled dinner by ME! Lol.

PS: 人生充满无奈, 总是让人感慨. ..

New Year 2008

Have been long since I last update my blog! Have been really busy. Work is stress as usual. Last wednesday meet yun and momo go out for lunch!! I miss them loads!! Very long never see Cindy and Jess le! Hugs. My new year resolution!! Here it goes!

Firstly, I really need to settle down on what I really want in the future and not being so indecisive on what I want. Have been always changing plans.
Secondly, I shall really decide on which field shall I further my studies. Be it the business line or the design line that I had been considering about too.
Thirdly, really need to slim down!! Too fat le!! After CNY, eating those biscuits and 'bak gua'.
Fourthly, the attitude to life bar!! Should really live life the fullest!! Do meaningful stuff and not being so stress up by the hectic working life.
Fifthly, I want to enhance my knowledge!! Be it world issues, general knowledge or even lifestyle ideas.
Sixthly, I want to enlarge my social circle too!! Get to know even more people!! Get to know people from different field of life.
Seventhly, be a fillial child?? Eh. I think I did my best le though at times will still make mum angry. But sometimes really....nvm.
Lastly, hmm...my friends say this one die die must write down. =X Get a boyfriend this year. LOL. Heyhey. I will try harder bar. LOL! But I'm not desperate wor.

Thats my 8 lines of 2008 resolution. Abit difficult to achieve lei. Haha. But I will work harder for this new year. A new year marks a new beginning. Let's move on in this better year bar~! Let's welcome a better year ahead~ Take care peeps~

CNY eve

New year eve. Half day work. Really busy at work. So many calls to handle. Cos some went to play Jackpot. Hehe. Our dept won alot!!! LOL! Then we had 'Yusheng' at the end. Went to meet the spree organizer to collect my bag at vivocity. LOL. She took the wrong color. Ahaha. Nvm. Bought New York Pizza home. Then start spring cleaning le. Super tired. Till then lo!! Prepare for the countdown of the lunar new year. Have a great 'mousy' year peeps~! Loves.

开心与伤心

为什么开心的事总一下就过去 

而伤心的事却在心里停留很久 

那是因为有些开心的事 

只有自己才能找出来的.

Reunion

Sunday! Had reunion lunch with Pap, Momo, Cindy, Li Yun and Jessie!!! Huggies!!! Miss them loads!!We went to Causeway Point! Had Soup Restaurant. Yum Yum. Feel the warmth of having eating lunch together!!! Its really very comforting!! Like a Family!!! After the full lunch we went to walk around Causeway Point. Then, Cindy went off early. She went to met her friend. After that, we all also went back. Me and Yun went to Jurong Point but the coslab was closed when we reached. Then we walked around Jurong Point for a while. After that I had to go to alexandra for my reunion dinner with my relatives. LOL. Wasn't that nice. Had 'Yusheng' twice for the day!!! LOL. Sleepy. Tmr have to work. Till then peeps. Looking forward to CHINESE NEW YEAR!!!!Take care everyone!!!

就像河水从来不会逆流
对你的感觉也不会回头

Friday

FRIDAY!!!! WOHOOO!!! HAVE BEEN LOOKING FORWARD FOR THE WEEKEND!!!! Did quote today. Yawnz. Heavy work load. LOL! Yesterday had OT! Haven buy new year clothes!!! Tommorrow going to buy it!!!! Sunday having reunion lunch with momo, pap, Cindy, Jessie and Yun!!!! I miss them loads!!!!! Hugs. I really miss them!!!! The times we had together!!!!! Sobx Sobx. Still miss them loads!!! Will tear because I really miss them. Looking forward to this weekend!!! Till then.

Tuesday

Tuesday. Work as usual. Yesterday had OT. SUPER TIRED. HAIZ. STRESSED. Working is really tiring. Am I not prepared to be in the working life? LOL! Sleepy lor! Dreading to work everyday. Deprieving of SLEEP!!! YAwnz. Need to catch some sleep. I miss everyone!

Saturday

Saturday! Went to Bugis with sis. Saw uncle Ho at bugis village. LOL! So long never see him le. Went to buy clothes for my sis. After that meet up with mum and dad for dinner. Had Banana Leaf at Little India. Yum Yum. Hehe. Tired. Had alot of walking. Till then. Nitez peeps.

Friday

Friday. Alot of people went off early for the DND which I didn't go. Left a few of us in the office. Loads of phone calls came in. I was taught how to pick up calls!!! The first time I picked up the call!!! OMG!!! Had a freak out of my life!!! I really scared I offended any customers. LOL. Cos last time I used to call supplier. Hehe! So we don't need to be too polite. LOL!!! Wahaha. I understand the stress they were talking about though I didn't experience the full impact yet. LOL! Yawnz. Need some sleep!! My weekend CAME FINALLY!!!! I love weekends!!! Need beauty sleep. Till then peeps.

OT the 2nd time

Wednesday! Just came back from work. Today OT till 8.30!! LOL!! SUPER TIRED!!! Am REALLY STRESSED!!! Loads of work to do!!! I really scared I can't do well in this job. Find myself abit careless and forgetful!!! Weird nei. Isit I stress myself too much?? Or am I finding excuses??Tsk Tsk. Need to catch some sleep. Nitez. Weekend!!! I'm looking forward to it EVERY WEEK!!!! Till then.

Sunday~!

Sunday!! Just came back from JB!! Today went to the chinese mass. LOL! Then went JB with Momo, Pap and Cindy!!! Hehe. I miss them loads!!! Huggies. We so long never go out together le!!! We went to do pedicure. Now leg abit itchy. Kinda abit sensitive to the chemical they used. Then went to the saloon and had a haircut. Hehe. Cindy dye her hair red!!! VERY NICE!!!! Then me and Cindy went to westmall. Had dinner and walked around. Hehe. Yawnz. Tmr still have to work. FREAK! Dragging to work again. Tsk Tsk. I missed GSK!!! I love working there!!

Department Dinner

Friday. Just came back from the department dinner at sakura. Had a lot of food. Super FULL!!!! LOL!!! Food was not bad!! Yawnz. Sleepy after a full dinner!!! Finally my WEEKEND came!!!! WOHOOOO!!!!! I'm loving it!!! Shall catch some sleep for tommorrow's SHOPPING!!!!! WOHOOOO~! Till then peeps.

Meet up @ Vivo

Today meet up with Cindy, Jessie and Yun at VIVO!!!! I miss them loads!!! I REALLY MISS THEM!!!! HUGS!!!! I really LOVE them LOADS!!!!! Will always miss them when I'm at work. Missing those days we took bus together, had lunch together, ST'ing each other about spree stuffs. Arghz!!! I miss those days!!!! Getting late. Need to catch some sleep. Did OT yesterday. Abit tired. Till then.

Sunday

Sometimes love just ain't enough

I don't wanna lose you,
But I don't wanna use you
Just to have somebody by my side.
And I don't wanna hate you,
I don't wanna take you,
But I don't wanna be the one to cry.
And that don't really matter to anyone anymore.
But like a fool I keep losing my place
And I keep seeing you walk through that door.

But there's a danger in loving somebody too much,
And it's sad when you know it's your heart you can't trust.
There's a reason why people don't stay where they are.
Baby, sometimes, love just ain't enough.

Now, I could never change you,
I don't wanna blame you.
Baby, you don't have to take the fall.
Yes, I may have hurt you,
But I did not desert you.
Maybe I just wanna have it all.

It makes a sound like thunder,
It makes me feel like rain.
And like a fool who will never see the truth,
I keep thinking something's gonna change.
And there's no way home,
When it's late at night and you're all alone.
Are there things that you wanted to say?
Do you feel me beside you in your bed,
There beside you, where I used to lay?

And there's a danger in loving somebody too much,
And it's sad when you know it's your heart they can't touch.
There's a reason why people don't stay who they are.
Baby, sometimes, love just ain't enough.
Baby, sometimes, love...
It just ain't enough.
Oh...

PS:
This song somehow came to my mind. Especially 'there's a danger in loving somebody too much'. I agree with this. Loving somebody too much will just hurt oneself. Love? Why have it to be so challenging and dangerous? Is Love have to involved hurt and despair?? Being stubborn, believing that I have forgotten that relationship I didn't want to end. Now? Still thinking if I have really forgotten, seems a bit stupid. Yet whatever cannot be what used to be it.

Saturday!

Just came home. Now is Sunday 4am. Went to town with Peiwen to shop for new year clothes. SO LONG NEVER SEE HER LE!!! Hugs. We talked and walked a lot! Hehe. Getting a bit emo. Talked about each other life. I realised how depress my life is getting. Almost teared. Sobx. We had dinner at MOF! It was really yummy!Hehe. My appetite increased. Left last of the bento. I think it is also the person I am eating with that determines my appetite bar. After that go to holland v and meet Mama, Pap, Cindy and Liyun. Hugs. Cried a bit. We talked a lot at Tango's. I controlled all my tears, swallowed them down. Saw Apple Hong(Artiste) at Tango's too. Look a bit like Yubing lei! I almost thought is Yubing until Pap say she is Apple. LOL. Then I heard her talked and yar! She is Apple. We sat there till 1+ then we went to West Coast! Go to PLAYGROUND!!!! OMG!!! SUPER HIGH!!!! Hugs. I LOVE THEM!!! THEY really make my day better. I miss Jessie!!! She can't meet us up. Sobx. I must apologise for this few days emo' posts. But I really need some means to really write up whatever feelings and emotions. Just don't want to suppress whatever even in here. Thanks peeps for all the care and concern! I hope things will get better.

Friday

Friday. Cry again. Sobx. No one understand me. I know its me! I keep everything inside. I never express whatever feelings I had out. Never talk to anyone about it. Just hide and cry silently. I just need a little comfort. But this inner me just don't let me open up! I HATE MYSELF!! I hate this inwards me!! I cry a lot more than usual. Even the worst time I had is less depressing than now. I scared I will think too much. Just can't control those tears from flowing. I guess I had frighten many of you all le bar. Thats the VERY different side from my bubbly me. The dark world of my own. Now is my darkest time and I believe I will get through this time. No worries for me. I will try to get over it. XXX say until I cry (Shall not elaborate on it. But am very sad that she said those. COMPARISON!! I HATE IT!!!!) now can't stop tearing. Haiz. I shall depend on myself like what I used to. Till then lo. Shall have a good sleep. Haven been sleeping well. Dream of Michelle and Chris Dobson!!! OMG!! Have been dreaming about GSK people!

Thursday

Thursday. Cry again. Stressed. Saw LiYun today. Her new workplace is just one company away from mine.

PS: 你们是我最大的幸福

Wednesday. Cried again. Depression??? I can't controll those tears from flowing.

PS: 你们让我习惯不孤独, 现在的我, 好不能适应一切的寂寞.

Tuesday. Cry on the bus again. Have been crying everyday on the bus!!! 我好没用!!! Crybaby!!! Sobx. Meet up with Cindy at jurong point. I MISS HER LOADS!!! Huggies!!! Really happy can get to see her!!! She is one that makes my life in GSK SPECIAL!!! We think the same which my friends usually think that such thoughts are weird. We had a lot of common topics!! 1 week never see her le!! Never miss her this much before!!!!Especially when my bus passed by Raffles Marina. I will always remember the appreciation dinner, the powerpoint slides we did together, the times we had. SOBX. I miss Jessie!!! Scold me for eating so less, teasing her. I miss LiYun. Those teasing of her and her shuai ge. I miss Shuai Ge!!!!! But people like MIA'ing. Not sure how he is. Ahaha. GSK really brought to me a lot of sweet memories. I LOVE THEM!!!! Sobx. Till then le.

Monday

Monday! Cry on the bus again. STRESSED. 我快要崩溃了!!! I miss those days. I did badly for training today. I think my team leader is really pissed with me bar. Till then lo.

Sunday

Sunday. Just recovered from fever. Went to church in the morning. Feel a bit better. Less stress?? Haiz. After that went to Bugis with mum. We went to 'Victor Kitchen' had DIM SUM!!! Well. Need to queue and its nothing much. The variety is just a few. But I must say their Dim Sum is unique in their way. It taste very different from those teahouse dim sum that you eat. They used some sort of vinegar to dip which I think it reduce the oiliness bar. After the dim sum, went to Bugis then we headed to Orchard. I bought a skirt from Robinson. Then we headed to Takashimaya! Went LV! I want that BAG!!! OMG!! I want the Gucci Wallet too!!! Arghz! My first pay in RS??? Oh yar. I now working in RS components as CUSTOMER SERVICE CONSULTANT!!! I can't imagine they actually recruited me in the first place!! I thought I did really bad for the interview. Haiz. My team leader a bit fierce, adding to a lot of stress to me! I scared I can't cope! Kind of a bit regret about taking up this job. Hope I can cope with it. I decide to take this as a challenge. But sometimes I wonder if I can really do it. 'Cos I really know what are my limits. Haiz. Haven been sleeping well this few days. Till then le. Nitez.

Fever

Friday! Today got training!! There is a lot to memorise!!! NEED TO MEMORISE ALL????!!!! ITS INSANE!!!!!ARGHZ!!! I cant stand this!!! The 'dao' people!!! Why can't they greet each other in the morning??? Can't get use to the way they work!! Saw the ugly side of customer service. Feel a bit disgusted by it. Lots of procedures that need to memorise hard. I have a hard time! SUPER STRESS!!! The team leader who gives me the training is stressing me a lot!! She is so fierce! Arghz. Butterflies in the stomach!! Tears just flow unknowingly. The weird feeling. I don't know how to express! Who can understand how I'm feeling?? The sense of loneliness. I used to fear not of loneliness and yet I am now. Is it because of them that make me used to the accompany?? Sobx. Having Fever. Feel like my whole body is going to burn me up! Must be the aircon that makes me shiver on the bus!

PS: 眼泪不自觉流两行...我想你们!!

First day of work in RS

First day of work in RS Component. I sensed the unfriendliness of the company. Regretting joining the company. Cried on the bus on the way home. Kinda scared that I can't cope it well. Stone there for the whole day. Nothing much to do on the first day of work. The team leader is a fierce one! Sit beside her is so stressful!! HELP!! I regretting turning up for work! The people all a bit 'dao' nei! Haiz. Must at least stay till end of the 3 month probation. I got a lot of whining about the new job! THE LONG HOURS!!! Till 6pm!! Arghz! I wonder if I am able to adapt to this new environment. Haven't been doing well since the new year! Arghz! A pleasant year ahead?? I'M WISHING FOR IT!!! Can I have a pleasant year??? Have been drowning myself with all the tears. I miss GSK!!!! CINDY! JESSIE! LIYUN! SHUAI GE!? Arghz. Depression??? Over-tensed?? Need some rest! I hope I can get through this. Training I presume a difficult one. Bless me bar. Till then~