为什么总不知觉流眼泪 

在寂寞时会莫名的伤悲 

我的心到底还在守着谁 

喜欢一个人不会疲惫 

爱上一个人绝不后悔 

就算爱会伤悲流眼泪 

就算喜欢却没人来陪 

爱情还是会那么甜美 

因为我曾为爱勇敢追 

一直默默的承受 

每次看着你走的背后 

你总这样对我说 

我们比较适合当朋友

所有与你的对白 

感觉那么的无法替代 

有时会有所期待 

你会懂得我对你的爱 

执着的我一直寻找勇气 

抛开一切寻找新的美丽 

倔强的我始终没有决心 

把我对你的情感化成零 

我让自己多喝了几杯 

始终无法让自己喝醉 

你的离开我多么狼狈 

拼命强忍不准掉眼泪 

我以为我做的很完美 

说服自己已经无所谓 

努力假装幸福不伤悲 

却掩饰不了一切心碎 

对着照片一直发呆 

想你的心一直狂跳 

期望那一刻能从来 

与你接触的那几秒 

Today meet up with Pap, Momo, Xin, Yun and Jess for dinner at boat quay!! Huggies!!! So long never see Jess le!!! Finally get to catch up with her!! Miss you loads hur.( from all those rebuking..LOL) wahaha! Celebrate my birthday at the restaurant. Thanks alot all!! There got fireworks due to the arts festival!! Very nice!!! Wahaha. Though the tomato incident was abit amusing hur...Wahaha. After dinner we went to Pap and momo house and chill. Stay till quite late then go home. Have a wonderful day with them!! Huggies!! I LOVE THEM ALL!!!! Muacks!!! Thanks for everything!!

因为爱你曾经铬心刻骨 

回想起一切也不再想哭...

爱会让人变得愚蠢 

而从中显露那单纯... 

舍不得你我不曾说, 

对你的思念存许多.... 

PS: 你知道吗?

熟悉的画面在脑海中浮现 

有许多的情绪变得好明显 

回忆着最初相遇的那一天 

原来对你的思念从不改变 

只把自己的情绪封锁 

不敢对爱有任何期待 

也许习惯一个人生活 

所以把爱拒千里之外

我不听从所谓的安排 

欺骗自己你还会回来 

眼泪却那么的想不开 

让依赖你的我不明白 

能与你相遇我很快乐 

你给我的回忆是好的 

笑过哭过这不算什么 

因为认真所以难割舍 

爱情不必看得很清楚 

偶尔也会不小心迷路 

总是浮现在我脑海中 

却是你那羞涩的笑容 

每个人都有不同态度 

每个人追求不同幸福 

有人会把伤心塞满肚 

有人却活得很有风度 

把世界看得那么清楚 

最终还是那么不满足 

复杂的情绪

那些简单的言语 

只说给懂的人听 

那些复杂的情绪 

不停了乱我的心 

有时会想念 希望一切不曾改变 

对你的眷恋 存在着默默的暗恋 

爱情就像窗外的雨滴, 

蒸发后依然留下痕迹. 

Haven't been able to blog as often than before. Have been doing loads of OTs. Lacking of SLEEP!! Haven't been able to sleep well. There comes my eyebags!! Arghz. So stressed and tensed up even when I sleep!! OMG! Oh well. Work is freaking out of my nerves!! Making me not ME!! Social time is left so minimal!!! Didn't have much time to get out with friends to chill out!!! I missed all my friends!!!! Huggies. TB22! TB25! GSK Dearies!! Miss them loads!!!They are friends that I wouldn't want to lose contact with!!!! I want to spend time with them!!! Reduce my OTs!!!! I think I seriously need a change of job. I think I'm not suitable for a routine job whereby I always process orders and handle calls everyday. A very dead thing to do. LOL. And I must really apologise to all my friends. Sorry for not able to meet up and catch up with you guys. Was asked to do OTs this few days. Sobx. Hopefully next month will be a better one. Looking forward to Good Friday~! Wohooo~! Mum's and Dad's birthday is next! Till then peeps~!

Sis's Birthday

March has came!!! OMG!!! I have been working there for like 2 months!!! I'm still not into their environment. I think working there is like really no life at all!!! Always work OTs!! And even not paid for some of the OTs(only can claim up to 20hrs) Lucky I do not need to do any OT today!! Yawnz. Didn't sleep well yesterday. Anyway I haven't been sleeping well since I started working there. So stressed up and often dream about work stuff. Making sleeping so stressed up. Arghz. Even on weekends I still get so tensed up about work! Tsk. This kind of work pressure is killing me! I miss those days in GSK!!! I have met nice people there!!! *感慨着* Anyway today is my younger sis birthday. Accompany my youngest sis to help her take her tablet, then we headed to collect the cake I ordered from awfully chocolate. I bought the chocolate banana. It was YUMMY! Haha. Then we went to Soup Restaurant for dinner. Full-filled dinner by ME! Lol.

PS: 人生充满无奈, 总是让人感慨. ..

New Year 2008

Have been long since I last update my blog! Have been really busy. Work is stress as usual. Last wednesday meet yun and momo go out for lunch!! I miss them loads!! Very long never see Cindy and Jess le! Hugs. My new year resolution!! Here it goes!

Firstly, I really need to settle down on what I really want in the future and not being so indecisive on what I want. Have been always changing plans.
Secondly, I shall really decide on which field shall I further my studies. Be it the business line or the design line that I had been considering about too.
Thirdly, really need to slim down!! Too fat le!! After CNY, eating those biscuits and 'bak gua'.
Fourthly, the attitude to life bar!! Should really live life the fullest!! Do meaningful stuff and not being so stress up by the hectic working life.
Fifthly, I want to enhance my knowledge!! Be it world issues, general knowledge or even lifestyle ideas.
Sixthly, I want to enlarge my social circle too!! Get to know even more people!! Get to know people from different field of life.
Seventhly, be a fillial child?? Eh. I think I did my best le though at times will still make mum angry. But sometimes really....nvm.
Lastly, hmm...my friends say this one die die must write down. =X Get a boyfriend this year. LOL. Heyhey. I will try harder bar. LOL! But I'm not desperate wor.

Thats my 8 lines of 2008 resolution. Abit difficult to achieve lei. Haha. But I will work harder for this new year. A new year marks a new beginning. Let's move on in this better year bar~! Let's welcome a better year ahead~ Take care peeps~

CNY eve

New year eve. Half day work. Really busy at work. So many calls to handle. Cos some went to play Jackpot. Hehe. Our dept won alot!!! LOL! Then we had 'Yusheng' at the end. Went to meet the spree organizer to collect my bag at vivocity. LOL. She took the wrong color. Ahaha. Nvm. Bought New York Pizza home. Then start spring cleaning le. Super tired. Till then lo!! Prepare for the countdown of the lunar new year. Have a great 'mousy' year peeps~! Loves.

开心与伤心

为什么开心的事总一下就过去 

而伤心的事却在心里停留很久 

那是因为有些开心的事 

只有自己才能找出来的.

Reunion

Sunday! Had reunion lunch with Pap, Momo, Cindy, Li Yun and Jessie!!! Huggies!!! Miss them loads!!We went to Causeway Point! Had Soup Restaurant. Yum Yum. Feel the warmth of having eating lunch together!!! Its really very comforting!! Like a Family!!! After the full lunch we went to walk around Causeway Point. Then, Cindy went off early. She went to met her friend. After that, we all also went back. Me and Yun went to Jurong Point but the coslab was closed when we reached. Then we walked around Jurong Point for a while. After that I had to go to alexandra for my reunion dinner with my relatives. LOL. Wasn't that nice. Had 'Yusheng' twice for the day!!! LOL. Sleepy. Tmr have to work. Till then peeps. Looking forward to CHINESE NEW YEAR!!!!Take care everyone!!!

就像河水从来不会逆流
对你的感觉也不会回头

Friday

FRIDAY!!!! WOHOOO!!! HAVE BEEN LOOKING FORWARD FOR THE WEEKEND!!!! Did quote today. Yawnz. Heavy work load. LOL! Yesterday had OT! Haven buy new year clothes!!! Tommorrow going to buy it!!!! Sunday having reunion lunch with momo, pap, Cindy, Jessie and Yun!!!! I miss them loads!!!!! Hugs. I really miss them!!!! The times we had together!!!!! Sobx Sobx. Still miss them loads!!! Will tear because I really miss them. Looking forward to this weekend!!! Till then.

Tuesday

Tuesday. Work as usual. Yesterday had OT. SUPER TIRED. HAIZ. STRESSED. Working is really tiring. Am I not prepared to be in the working life? LOL! Sleepy lor! Dreading to work everyday. Deprieving of SLEEP!!! YAwnz. Need to catch some sleep. I miss everyone!

Saturday

Saturday! Went to Bugis with sis. Saw uncle Ho at bugis village. LOL! So long never see him le. Went to buy clothes for my sis. After that meet up with mum and dad for dinner. Had Banana Leaf at Little India. Yum Yum. Hehe. Tired. Had alot of walking. Till then. Nitez peeps.

Friday

Friday. Alot of people went off early for the DND which I didn't go. Left a few of us in the office. Loads of phone calls came in. I was taught how to pick up calls!!! The first time I picked up the call!!! OMG!!! Had a freak out of my life!!! I really scared I offended any customers. LOL. Cos last time I used to call supplier. Hehe! So we don't need to be too polite. LOL!!! Wahaha. I understand the stress they were talking about though I didn't experience the full impact yet. LOL! Yawnz. Need some sleep!! My weekend CAME FINALLY!!!! I love weekends!!! Need beauty sleep. Till then peeps.

OT the 2nd time

Wednesday! Just came back from work. Today OT till 8.30!! LOL!! SUPER TIRED!!! Am REALLY STRESSED!!! Loads of work to do!!! I really scared I can't do well in this job. Find myself abit careless and forgetful!!! Weird nei. Isit I stress myself too much?? Or am I finding excuses??Tsk Tsk. Need to catch some sleep. Nitez. Weekend!!! I'm looking forward to it EVERY WEEK!!!! Till then.

Sunday~!

Sunday!! Just came back from JB!! Today went to the chinese mass. LOL! Then went JB with Momo, Pap and Cindy!!! Hehe. I miss them loads!!! Huggies. We so long never go out together le!!! We went to do pedicure. Now leg abit itchy. Kinda abit sensitive to the chemical they used. Then went to the saloon and had a haircut. Hehe. Cindy dye her hair red!!! VERY NICE!!!! Then me and Cindy went to westmall. Had dinner and walked around. Hehe. Yawnz. Tmr still have to work. FREAK! Dragging to work again. Tsk Tsk. I missed GSK!!! I love working there!!

Department Dinner

Friday. Just came back from the department dinner at sakura. Had a lot of food. Super FULL!!!! LOL!!! Food was not bad!! Yawnz. Sleepy after a full dinner!!! Finally my WEEKEND came!!!! WOHOOOO!!!!! I'm loving it!!! Shall catch some sleep for tommorrow's SHOPPING!!!!! WOHOOOO~! Till then peeps.

Meet up @ Vivo

Today meet up with Cindy, Jessie and Yun at VIVO!!!! I miss them loads!!! I REALLY MISS THEM!!!! HUGS!!!! I really LOVE them LOADS!!!!! Will always miss them when I'm at work. Missing those days we took bus together, had lunch together, ST'ing each other about spree stuffs. Arghz!!! I miss those days!!!! Getting late. Need to catch some sleep. Did OT yesterday. Abit tired. Till then.

Sunday

Sometimes love just ain't enough

I don't wanna lose you,
But I don't wanna use you
Just to have somebody by my side.
And I don't wanna hate you,
I don't wanna take you,
But I don't wanna be the one to cry.
And that don't really matter to anyone anymore.
But like a fool I keep losing my place
And I keep seeing you walk through that door.

But there's a danger in loving somebody too much,
And it's sad when you know it's your heart you can't trust.
There's a reason why people don't stay where they are.
Baby, sometimes, love just ain't enough.

Now, I could never change you,
I don't wanna blame you.
Baby, you don't have to take the fall.
Yes, I may have hurt you,
But I did not desert you.
Maybe I just wanna have it all.

It makes a sound like thunder,
It makes me feel like rain.
And like a fool who will never see the truth,
I keep thinking something's gonna change.
And there's no way home,
When it's late at night and you're all alone.
Are there things that you wanted to say?
Do you feel me beside you in your bed,
There beside you, where I used to lay?

And there's a danger in loving somebody too much,
And it's sad when you know it's your heart they can't touch.
There's a reason why people don't stay who they are.
Baby, sometimes, love just ain't enough.
Baby, sometimes, love...
It just ain't enough.
Oh...

PS:
This song somehow came to my mind. Especially 'there's a danger in loving somebody too much'. I agree with this. Loving somebody too much will just hurt oneself. Love? Why have it to be so challenging and dangerous? Is Love have to involved hurt and despair?? Being stubborn, believing that I have forgotten that relationship I didn't want to end. Now? Still thinking if I have really forgotten, seems a bit stupid. Yet whatever cannot be what used to be it.

Saturday!

Just came home. Now is Sunday 4am. Went to town with Peiwen to shop for new year clothes. SO LONG NEVER SEE HER LE!!! Hugs. We talked and walked a lot! Hehe. Getting a bit emo. Talked about each other life. I realised how depress my life is getting. Almost teared. Sobx. We had dinner at MOF! It was really yummy!Hehe. My appetite increased. Left last of the bento. I think it is also the person I am eating with that determines my appetite bar. After that go to holland v and meet Mama, Pap, Cindy and Liyun. Hugs. Cried a bit. We talked a lot at Tango's. I controlled all my tears, swallowed them down. Saw Apple Hong(Artiste) at Tango's too. Look a bit like Yubing lei! I almost thought is Yubing until Pap say she is Apple. LOL. Then I heard her talked and yar! She is Apple. We sat there till 1+ then we went to West Coast! Go to PLAYGROUND!!!! OMG!!! SUPER HIGH!!!! Hugs. I LOVE THEM!!! THEY really make my day better. I miss Jessie!!! She can't meet us up. Sobx. I must apologise for this few days emo' posts. But I really need some means to really write up whatever feelings and emotions. Just don't want to suppress whatever even in here. Thanks peeps for all the care and concern! I hope things will get better.

Friday

Friday. Cry again. Sobx. No one understand me. I know its me! I keep everything inside. I never express whatever feelings I had out. Never talk to anyone about it. Just hide and cry silently. I just need a little comfort. But this inner me just don't let me open up! I HATE MYSELF!! I hate this inwards me!! I cry a lot more than usual. Even the worst time I had is less depressing than now. I scared I will think too much. Just can't control those tears from flowing. I guess I had frighten many of you all le bar. Thats the VERY different side from my bubbly me. The dark world of my own. Now is my darkest time and I believe I will get through this time. No worries for me. I will try to get over it. XXX say until I cry (Shall not elaborate on it. But am very sad that she said those. COMPARISON!! I HATE IT!!!!) now can't stop tearing. Haiz. I shall depend on myself like what I used to. Till then lo. Shall have a good sleep. Haven been sleeping well. Dream of Michelle and Chris Dobson!!! OMG!! Have been dreaming about GSK people!

Thursday

Thursday. Cry again. Stressed. Saw LiYun today. Her new workplace is just one company away from mine.

PS: 你们是我最大的幸福

Wednesday. Cried again. Depression??? I can't controll those tears from flowing.

PS: 你们让我习惯不孤独, 现在的我, 好不能适应一切的寂寞.

Tuesday. Cry on the bus again. Have been crying everyday on the bus!!! 我好没用!!! Crybaby!!! Sobx. Meet up with Cindy at jurong point. I MISS HER LOADS!!! Huggies!!! Really happy can get to see her!!! She is one that makes my life in GSK SPECIAL!!! We think the same which my friends usually think that such thoughts are weird. We had a lot of common topics!! 1 week never see her le!! Never miss her this much before!!!!Especially when my bus passed by Raffles Marina. I will always remember the appreciation dinner, the powerpoint slides we did together, the times we had. SOBX. I miss Jessie!!! Scold me for eating so less, teasing her. I miss LiYun. Those teasing of her and her shuai ge. I miss Shuai Ge!!!!! But people like MIA'ing. Not sure how he is. Ahaha. GSK really brought to me a lot of sweet memories. I LOVE THEM!!!! Sobx. Till then le.

Monday

Monday! Cry on the bus again. STRESSED. 我快要崩溃了!!! I miss those days. I did badly for training today. I think my team leader is really pissed with me bar. Till then lo.

Sunday

Sunday. Just recovered from fever. Went to church in the morning. Feel a bit better. Less stress?? Haiz. After that went to Bugis with mum. We went to 'Victor Kitchen' had DIM SUM!!! Well. Need to queue and its nothing much. The variety is just a few. But I must say their Dim Sum is unique in their way. It taste very different from those teahouse dim sum that you eat. They used some sort of vinegar to dip which I think it reduce the oiliness bar. After the dim sum, went to Bugis then we headed to Orchard. I bought a skirt from Robinson. Then we headed to Takashimaya! Went LV! I want that BAG!!! OMG!! I want the Gucci Wallet too!!! Arghz! My first pay in RS??? Oh yar. I now working in RS components as CUSTOMER SERVICE CONSULTANT!!! I can't imagine they actually recruited me in the first place!! I thought I did really bad for the interview. Haiz. My team leader a bit fierce, adding to a lot of stress to me! I scared I can't cope! Kind of a bit regret about taking up this job. Hope I can cope with it. I decide to take this as a challenge. But sometimes I wonder if I can really do it. 'Cos I really know what are my limits. Haiz. Haven been sleeping well this few days. Till then le. Nitez.

Fever

Friday! Today got training!! There is a lot to memorise!!! NEED TO MEMORISE ALL????!!!! ITS INSANE!!!!!ARGHZ!!! I cant stand this!!! The 'dao' people!!! Why can't they greet each other in the morning??? Can't get use to the way they work!! Saw the ugly side of customer service. Feel a bit disgusted by it. Lots of procedures that need to memorise hard. I have a hard time! SUPER STRESS!!! The team leader who gives me the training is stressing me a lot!! She is so fierce! Arghz. Butterflies in the stomach!! Tears just flow unknowingly. The weird feeling. I don't know how to express! Who can understand how I'm feeling?? The sense of loneliness. I used to fear not of loneliness and yet I am now. Is it because of them that make me used to the accompany?? Sobx. Having Fever. Feel like my whole body is going to burn me up! Must be the aircon that makes me shiver on the bus!

PS: 眼泪不自觉流两行...我想你们!!

First day of work in RS

First day of work in RS Component. I sensed the unfriendliness of the company. Regretting joining the company. Cried on the bus on the way home. Kinda scared that I can't cope it well. Stone there for the whole day. Nothing much to do on the first day of work. The team leader is a fierce one! Sit beside her is so stressful!! HELP!! I regretting turning up for work! The people all a bit 'dao' nei! Haiz. Must at least stay till end of the 3 month probation. I got a lot of whining about the new job! THE LONG HOURS!!! Till 6pm!! Arghz! I wonder if I am able to adapt to this new environment. Haven't been doing well since the new year! Arghz! A pleasant year ahead?? I'M WISHING FOR IT!!! Can I have a pleasant year??? Have been drowning myself with all the tears. I miss GSK!!!! CINDY! JESSIE! LIYUN! SHUAI GE!? Arghz. Depression??? Over-tensed?? Need some rest! I hope I can get through this. Training I presume a difficult one. Bless me bar. Till then~

Friday~

Its FRIDAY!!!! ONE MORE DAY!!!! TO END OF CONTRACT!!!! SOBX!! I'm missing GSK le. Today me, Cindy, Jessie and Evan, we went out to have lunch!! Hehe! Its so nice having to eat out of the D'cafe!!! Its such a BLISS! wahaha! Today we shifted back to the admin building!!! THE PANTRY IS BIG!!!! OMG! Lucky we get to use it for a day! LOL! wahaha! Meet up with Liqing after work! Then went to find my friends. No basketball! There is always no basketball court on friday!! 'Cos of the taekwandoes!!! LOL!!! I want to go to BKK!!!! BATAM!!! Hehe!! Next is coming in like 3 days!!! OMG!!!! Where is my new year resolution!!!! I shall come up with it this weekend!!!Got stuff to do. Till then lo~!

'Forget the year' dinner'

Today we had the 'Forget the year' dinner in procurement! What a good theme to this dinner! My boss treated us! We had a drink before heading to the restaurant. Oh well! There is those old Army uncles?? LOL! Had a martini which tasted quite different from the ones I had drank before. Environment is quite good, but I find it weird having drink with peanuts?? Those Traditional Peanuts with Shell. LOL. Then we headed to the restaurant for dinner! Had it really full. Thanks to my boss for the Treat! He then fetched me and my colleagues to the nearest MRT. How nice of him! We chatted about some guys in GSK! Gossipy hur! She started off with the suspect of someone being gay. And Mr D. came straight of my head and BINGO! Wahaha! LOL! Opps. Hehe! Need to catch a show! Till then peeps~! New year countdown anyone??

BOXING DAY~

Its boxing day~! Hehe! My UNCLE BIRTHDAY!!! HAPPY BIRTHDAY~!
I took half day off today just to go for the 2 interviews my agent had arranged for me. Just came back from those interviews I had this afternoon!! SUPER TIRED!!! Travelling around TUAS!!! LOL! The first one is really ridiculous!!! Can't even communicate!! Japanese bosses, they had a hard time finding the words to communicate with me in ENGLISH! I was like helping them to get the word they wanted to use. LOL! Next, it was really far!!! 45mins ride from Jurong point! On my way there, I smelt CHICKEN!! And it reminds me of JESSIE! Lol! I didn't have lunch! I was too tired then and didn't really do well for that interview. =X Oh well! I guess I have just wasted the whole afternoon just like that. Perhaps I should rest first before I get a job?? Well well. Am a bit of tired. Gotta catch some sleep. Till then~

Christmas Eve~!

Today is CHRISTMAS EVE!!! What am I doing in the office!!! All my friends are still having their beauty sleep and yet I am here working!!! Arghz. NVM! It's a half day! Thank goodness. Hehe. Going to town after work to SHOP!!! Wohooo~! ME and CINDY! ONLY! Oopps. Jessie can't join us. Hehe. *Ponder ponder* How time flies! I have worked in GSK like 9 months!!! I have thoughts of quitting like 7 months ago?? Yet its the friends that I made here that really makes me stay on. I think I am going to miss here loads. The days we had our talks over lunch. Hehe. Teasing Jessie. *opps* The days we spreed together for nice stuff online. The time we ST'ing. Wahaha. Didn't get to sleep last night 'cos had 'Yuan Yang' yesterday! LOL! Went to bugis with mum and sis! Treat them Banana Leaf at little india! Yum Yum. Was not bad and VERY FULL!! Then we headed to shopping~! And ended our dinner at the HK cafe. Wohooo~! It's knocking off soon~! Have a pleasant and BLASTFUL CHRISTMAS peeps~!

执着的心

执着的心那么牵强
期望那爱从天而降

© Brigitte Khoo Jie Bin

Tuesday~!

Its tuesday. Starting of the week. I'm looking forward to THURSDAY!!!! HARI RAYA HAJI~! Have been looking for HOLIDAY!! Next will be CHRISTMAS!!! And there comes new year!! Time really flies. Another year gone. Wohooo! Today meet up with eve, sharlyn and andrew for dinner at cineleisure~ So long never see them le!! So nice to see them again and we've got loads of things to chat on!! LOL! Shall go and catch some sleep. Tommorrow need to work. Till then lo~

PS: 一路顺风 wor~! BON VOYAGE~!

确定?

一切眼泪擦干净
就让感情化成零
也许所谓的爱情
依然还不敢确定

© Brigitte Khoo Jie Bin

遗忘?

对你的思念我无法遗忘
分离的苦我一个人来尝
一直都装作自己很坚强
如今已闭上心里的期望

© Brigitte Khoo Jie Bin

期待?

我明白
却还默默的等待
我害怕
这是虚幻的精彩
我推开
所有的应不应该
只剩下
许多遗憾的感慨

© Brigitte Khoo Jie Bin

Friday~!

FRIDAY!!!! ITS FINALLY FRIDAY!!! I’m depriving of sleep!!! The weather is making me SICK!!! ARGHZ!! *Choo* Sneeze Sneeze. Hehe. Christmas is round the corner~! Festive Season~!!! I want to go TANGLIN MALL!!!! * Let it snow let it snow let it snow* Shall polish up my bible knowledge during this festive season bar. Oopps. Have been being chided on my bible knowledge by my friend. I will start to read bible today?? EH! I intend to watch DVD tonight!!! I will read at least Isaiah 11? Hehe. Ok. I’m quite sick of being at the procurement department. Having to face all the chemicals name EVERYDAY! Sending emails! It seems like my daily routine!!! It’s really boring!! I want new job! Yesterday watched “Cao Ji Xing Guang Da Dao” on Cable. Liu Ming Feng self compose de song is REALLY VERY NICE!!!! VERY TOUCHING!!!! ESPECIALLY the one HE SANG yesterday! THE LYRICS AND MELODY IS NICE!!! Except the ending he ‘Zhuan yin” too much a bit weird. But I like his COMPOSITION!!! The song listen until can cry de!!! LIU MING FENG~! LIU MING FENG~! Wahaha! Why he didn’t come to SINGAPORE to “Xuan Chuan” their CD!! Now he is my another idol that compose songs!!! “Chuang Zhuo” Singer!!! I want to be LYRICIST!!! Feel like going to those music schools to learn how to really write lyrics. Though I know that lyricist is not a realistic career. Just have the interest in writing. If money isn’t part of life, I would take lyricist as my career bar. Yawnz. Sleepy at work. In a confuse state of mind. Till then~ Better concentrate on my work. Stop multi tasking. *Still thinking how I shall celebrate Christmas and New Year*

把头发剪短
来让心的乱
忘了那一段

最后却发现
我依然想念
对我笑的脸

© Brigitte Khoo Jie Bin

想太多 'ing

Haven been posting regularly. Hmmm. How time flies! Christmas is coming soon~! A season to look forward?? Hehe! My friend psycho'ing me to attend CHC party!! Ahem. Its City Harvest Church. Anyway I have my church mass to attend. Today on the bus I heard Nicky's song "想太多" which is what I think I am. Thinking too much??? I made myself think so. Really scared I think too much and misinterprete things that are happening. Why can't things be clearer?? I'm not good at catching hints de!! Arghz! I thinking too much le. Forget it! Can't always be so 'emo' de! Have not been feeling well this few days. Seems to be coughing alot!!! I'm feeling sick. 1 more month and 2008 is coming!!! Another year passed! Well. A fruitful year?? I supposed so?? Did something mad this year!! Hehe. Time to come up with new resolution for 2008! Better come up with practical resolutions. At least something attainable?? Shall come up with my resolution 2008 soon~ Hehe. I am happy?? Am I?? Not with such a job in such a pollueted environment?? Yet the pay day never fails to brighten my day~! Hehe. Shall plan for Christmas and New Year activity!! Hehe!! COUNTDOWN!!!! Better go back to work le~ Hehe. IT Fair starts today till sun!! Going with Ah Mei tomorrow~! Till then~!

想你

偶尔会不知觉得想你
眼泪却会一直不停滴
难道对你的爱还存在
只是我一直把它推开

© Brigitte Khoo Jie Bin

I want new LAPPY~

Time for some update~! My lappie is totally crashed. Sobx. Intend to buy a new lappie~! Hehe. Was targeting at the HP Laptop. Screen can turn de and its TOUCH SCREEN~!!! I went to see it with Cindy on Monday~! I want to buy it!!!! The 1GB RAM cost like $1,499 while the 2GB RAM cost $2,499 at COURTS. $1,000 difference hur~ Saw $1,999 for the 2GB one at Harvey Norman!! Shall wait for the IT Fair at Expo which is NEXT WEEK~! Wohooo~! HP Pavilion TX 1020 Series de lappie~
Here are the specifications:

· AMD Turion™ 64 X2 Dual-Core Mobile Technology TL-60 • 2.0 GHz, Level 2 cache 1 MB, Up to 1600 MHz system bus running at AC/DC mode 35 Watt.

· Windows Vista® Home Premium

· 2048 MB Standard memory

· Internal hard disk drive: 160 GB

· SATA Hard Disk Drive

· Hard disk drive speed: 5400 rpm

· Lightscribe Super Multi DVD Writer (+/-R +/-RW) with Double Layer support

· 5-in-1 integrated Digital Media Reader for Secure Digital cards, MultiMedia cards, Memory Stick, Memory Stick Pro, or xD Picture cards

· High speed 56K modem

· Integrated 10/100/1000 Gigabit Ethernet LAN

· 802.11 a/b/g WLAN

· Integrated Bluetooth

· 1 VGA port; 3 USB 2.0 ports; 1 RJ 11; 1 RJ 45; S-video TV out; 1 Microphone-in; Stereo headphone with SPDIF, Additional headphone jack, Expansion Port for xb3000, 2 Consumer IR

· One ExpressCard/34 slot

· 12.1” WXGA High-Definition HP BrightView Widescreen Display with Integrated Touch-screen (Pen input optimized)

· Display Resolution: 1280 x 800

· Touch Pad with On/Off button and 2-way scroll with 8 Quick Launch Buttons

习惯一个人生活??

It have been long since I last updated my blog. Opps. My laptop crashed again. I supposed this time round its gonna to do with the hardware. Currently at work...BLOGGING!!! =X hehe. Yesterday went to library~! Its nice reading a book while eating dinner. If there are music to add on, that will be even better. Sometimes I think doing things alone is still not bad after all??? Ahahaha. 习惯一个人生活?? Perhaps. Oh yar! I have been in Procurement dept for more than 1 month le~! Can't imagine how I can endure this kind of life. SAP everyday! Wohooo~!
This friday will be shifting back to TSB building due to admin building having renovation~ Hehe. Sobx! My seat is at SPORTS last time seat!!! And the seat I used to sit is my BOSS seat!!! That means he can see me like I can see sports doing weird things! EH!! I DONT WANT!!!Humph! I'm having evil thoughts!! Li Yun's birthday present!!! Give her LA BI!!! Opps. =X But very difficult to know LA BI nei!!! People quite 'dao' wor! And her birthday is like 24th Nov!! So soon!!! LA BI is shuai ge de friend?? Last time see them eat breakfast together before nei. =X I want to 'matchmake' Li Yun and LA Bi~!! Dunno if LA BI got gf le mar?? But LA BI friendster's status is single lei. Hmm. Will Yun kill me if she see this post?? Opps. I shall try see if things can work out. Maybe ask shuai ge?? Wahaha. Cannot lar. People busy de bar. And WEIRD!! Shuai ge online early in the morning!! When I online, he already online liao wor. =X Till then lo~! Better get back to work le.

PS:

留下的泪带着祝福
让快乐把悲伤结束
即使会牢牢的记住
那所有快乐的全部

© Brigitte Khoo Jie Bin

说好了把泪擦干
泪却逆着流两行

© Brigitte Khoo Jie Bin

在爱与恨的中间
似乎没有平衡点

© Brigitte Khoo Jie Bin

糖含在嘴里总会想起你
心里也会是多么的甜蜜
曾经有着那爱过的情节
这一切也都不需要剪接

© Brigitte Khoo Jie Bin

SAD!

It has been a week since I last update my blog. Many things happened. My laptop crashed again! Task Task! Yesterday had it fixed! I went to look for my friend 'cos she need someone to talk to. Then we talk alot and cry alot. I know that things may not be like of what we want but we must move forward!~ I will be there for you de!! No matter what!! Lucky never do anything silly lo!!! Haiz. Don't make me worry about you wor!! Reflecting...I really don't like my life!!! SUPER BORING!!! Nothing FUN FILLED like before!!! Is it because of work??? It seems that my life is always been encircle with nothing!!! Friends drifted...that is always part of my life as I move on to another stage. But I really don't like it! We used to be so closed and now seems so far. Good friends are hard to keep??? Somehow I'm starting to believe it!!! Arghz! Friends I never had real closed ones for long. Is it me???I really don't know. Am I not good enough?? I really don't like the loneliness. It's cold!*Depressed* *Sob sob*
Till then.

Saturday Night~

Saturday. Went to hospital to visit my aunt and cousin. They are both down with dengue fever. Hope they get well soon wor! Take care yea. Went back home and try reformatting my laptop! AND YES!!!! IT RECOVERED~! It's my first time reformatting my lappie myself~! Wahahaha. SO HAPPY~! But all my songs and all are gone!!! Sobx. Happy that it recovered!! *Sayang* my lappie!!!! I love my lappie~! Ahaha. Shall stop here. Need to catch some sleep. Tommorrow still need to go church wor. Till then and take care peeps~

Friday

Friday! Work as usual. No appetite for lunch. So didn't go for lunch. Had training with lead in the morning. But she trains me for awhile cos she got audit to do. Today don't know why so no mood. Doesn't seem to be in a FRIDAY MOOD!! Cindy got the Zhang Zhen Yue tickets to the concert at NTU and we go together!!! SO HIGH! Wohooo~! ENCORE: 爱我别走~! The LIVE is SUPER HIGH!!!! After the concert we went to the business block. The top floor!! The scenary from there is SUPERB!!!! Really very nice!! Thanks to Cindy for bringing me there. Though its a bit of a creepy. After that Cindy's friend came, they give me a lift home. Abit paiseh hur. But the car is SUPER COOL!! Thanks alot for the lift back home. Gotta go bath le. Till then~! *Sore Throat*

习惯

习惯一个人生活
就连话也不多说
虽然会如此堕落
也不想继续难过

© Brigitte Khoo Jie Bin

Tuesday~!

Tuesday! My laptop crushed. ARGHZ!!! I use my recovery CD but still can't reformat it. Shall do it over the weekends. Haiz. This week doesn't seem to be my week. My aunt admitted to hospital due to dengue fever and my cousin suspected of dengue fever too. Hope they get well soon. Have been bringing company laptop home cos KFC went back to his seat and I cant use the locker anymore. Tsk Tsk. Can't imagine I have to bring laptop to and fro work everyday!! So heavy. What if I wanna go out after work?? Arghz!

2nd week in procurement

Monday Blues! 2nd week at procurement department! Work load comes. Have been emailing the suppliers. Arghz. Time pass quite fast working at the procurement department compared to those days at MERPS. I get to touch on things I have not done before and busier is better than slacking in front of the laptop. There will be training with my previous lead this coming friday. Hopefully I can cope well with the training. Its SAP!!! Need to get some rest. Still having splitting headache. Till then~

Friday~!

Friday~! Again I had nothing to do!!! Super stress seeing Evangeline so busy. Like I can't help her with anything. Feel so bad sia. Arghz. Headache still quite pain. Lunch we had mee siam and popiah. I had a lot of mee siam and feel guilty taking it. 'cos this week didn't go exercising much. Only went running on monday which is like really weird!!! I seldom do running as a form of exercising in my schedule. It gives me blister 'cos I pulled the ankle socks really low. FRIDAY!!! Weekends are coming~! Next sunday shall go KBOX!!!! hehe~! Have to sleep early today!!! The headache is terrible. I hope its not Migraine. Did a bit research on Migraine.

What is a migraine headache?
A migraine headache is a form of vascular headache. Migraine headache is caused by a combination of vasodilatation (enlargement of blood vessels) and the release of chemicals from nerve fibers that coil around the blood vessels. During a migraine attack, the temporal artery enlarges. (The temporal artery is an artery that lies on the outside of the skull just under the skin of the temple.) Enlargement of the temporal artery stretches the nerves that coil around the artery and causes the nerves to release chemicals. The chemicals cause inflammation, pain, and further enlargement of the artery. The increasing enlargement of the artery magnifies the pain.
Migraine attacks commonly activate the sympathetic nervous system in the body. The sympathetic nervous system is often thought of as the part of the nervous system that controls primitive responses to stress and pain, the so-called "fight or flight" response. The increased sympathetic nervous activity in the intestine causes nausea, vomiting, and diarrhea. Sympathetic activity also delays emptying of the stomach into the small intestine and thereby prevents oral medications from entering the intestine and being absorbed. The impaired absorption of oral medications is a common reason for the ineffectiveness of medications taken to treat migraine headaches. The increased sympathetic activity also decreases the circulation of blood, and this leads to pallor of the skin as well as cold hands and feet. The increased sympathetic activity also contributes to the sensitivity to light and sound sensitivity as well as blurred vision.

How is a migraine headache diagnosed?
Migraine headaches are usually diagnosed when the symptoms described above are present. Migraine generally begins in childhood to early adulthood. While migraines can first occur in an individual beyond the age of fifty, advancing age makes other types of headaches more likely. A family history is usually present, suggesting a genetic predisposition in migraine sufferers. In addition to diagnosing migraine from the clinical presentation there is usually an accompanying normal examination.
Patients with the first headache ever, worst headache ever, or where there is a significant change in headache or the presence of nervous system symptoms, like visual or hearing or sensory loss, may require additional tests. The tests may include blood testing, brain scanning (either CT or MRI), and a spinal tap.

How are migraine headaches treated?
Treatment is can include non-medication and medication approaches. Non-medication therapies for migraine Therapy that does not involve medications can provide symptomatic and preventative therapy. Using ice, biofeedback, and relaxation techniques may be helpful at stopping an attack once it has started. If possible, sleep is the best medicine. Preventing migraine takes motivation for the patient to make some life changes. Patients are educated as to triggering factors that can be avoided. These include smoking cessation, avoiding certain foods especially those high in tyramine (sharp cheeses) or those containing sulphites (wines) or nitrates (nuts, pressed meats). Generally, leading a healthy life style with good nutrition, adequate water intake, sufficient sleep and exercise may be useful. Acupuncture has been suggested to be a useful non-medication therapy.

Abstract from: http://www.medicinenet.com/migraine_headache/index.htm

Thursday~

Thursday~! Still having headache. Is quite painful. Asked mum to make me some 'Cooling Tea'. Nothing to do at work. Keep surfing net until I feel so guilty sia. 'cos everyone is like so busy and I'm so free. Arghz. This week the headache makes me really sick. Can't even go out! I feel like going out sia. Till then. Should take more rest. Hope tomorrow will be better.

Wednesday~!

Wednesday~! Getting used to being in procurement?? Not quite nei. Nothing to do 'cos I'm not trained to used certain software and the training won't be that soon. The training will be conducted by my merps lead~! Hehe~! Today we meet momo~! Went to ?Akira there to look at the interior design that momo's house will be using. It was like 'WOW'. ITS NICE!!! I like the bedroom design they have over there. It's like my desired room wor!!! Wahaha. After that we went to IMM for dinner. Jessie left first 'cos she got something on. Then Yun came and join us for dinner at Ichiban. Hehe. We ate till like 9pm!! Then we went to Giant to buy some food for tomorrow's lunch. Reached home like 11pm. Yawnz. Still having headache. Suspect to be migraine. I hope not! Till then.

First day at PROCUREMENT!

First day in Procurement. The office over there is like not as cold as MERPS office. The environment?? I'm not quite used to the low division of the desk that you can see what others are doing. Working there seems stressed. Everybody seems to be busy. AND working there, there is like 75% chances that you may bump into the director!!! Wahahaha. I missed Cindy and Jessie. I missed the rest of MERPS people!!!! Today just did sorting of the files in the procurement file. I do not have my own desk, drawer and all. I missed my desk at TSB Building!!! Till then~! Need to catch some sleep.

Emo'ing

Friday! Super EMO'ing!! Eve, Sharlyn, Sharon, Carol, etc are leaving. So many people last day today. If I had not extended my contract, today would also be my last day. I think I will miss them all!!!! It has been great knowing them! During the whole MERPS project, I had learnt alot. My lead has been really taking care of me and working with both the fin and proc dept has been really enjoyable. The people here are just GREAT! I will be going over to proc dept at the admin building. Feeling a bit stress. Heard that the working environment over there is quite tense. Hope I can adapt well over there. Today after work went to Bukit Timah Food Centre for dinner with Cindy. Then I went for the RMIT talk. GUESS WHAT!!! I decided not to go for RMIT after the talk!!!!! After listening to what they had said. Somehow I feel that it is not what I expected it to be though I find that the Work Integrated Learning seems to be rather relevant in the working world. After the course coordinator further explained about the course, I am more assured myself that this is not I want. She did badmounth a bit of UOL that their program are more of exams which I somehow feel abit unethical. Maybe it is also of this bad impression she gave me that makes me even not wanting to join RMIT. She seems wanting to discourage us to apply for RMIT which I think most of them also feels it where most people storm out of the lecture hall immediately after her say. Anyway the deadline has been extended to 27 sept 2007. I am now thinking of UOL. I'm hoping to make up my mind by mid october. Till then.

HAPPY~!

WOHOOOOO~! THURSDAY~! CINDY IS EXTENDING~! I'm LOVING IT!!!!! YIPEEEE~! HAPPY!!! I'm SUPER HAPPY!!!! Hehe. I still can't make decision where should I study. Finance is one important factor as I wanted to pay the whole of the school fees by myself. I don't want to depend on my parents and that they have to pay for my sis NUS's school fees too. Don't want to add any burdens to them too. I shall see how the talk goes tomorrow. I'm HAPPY today~! But feeling abit nervous joining a new department, environment and people. Hope things will go on well. Till then.

PS: 秋天的萤火虫真的存在吗?

HAPPY BIRTHDAY LIQING~!

Wednesday.. Went out with Liqing to Orchard~! HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO LIQING~!Hehe. Accompany her go buy present for her boyfriend!! Wahahaha. Buying boyfriend present on her birthday!! Weird hor!! We went to takashimaya, all those branded shops to look for suitable present for her boyfriend nei. Went LV, Burberry, Dunhil, Coach, Gucci and finally we found something in PRADA!! Bought a dunk at Prada! The dunk looks nice!! Then we headed for dinner at takashimaya. When we finish our dinner, Liqing wanted to buy drink and I excused myself to the washroom and sneakly bought 2 mini cakes at Crystal Jade. Hehe. Hope she likes it. Hehe. Then we video conference with PEIWEN who can't join us. Along our way back home, we bought a cardigan. Tempted to buy clothes! But was kind of broke for me. Still in the mist of deciding where should I study. Decided on RMIT but not sure about that school. Shall go for the talk and see how it goes. Hope I can really make decision. Really need some serious advice. Till then. Abit sleepy. Today went for interview with Richard. SERIOUSLY NERVOUS! I get through le. My contract extended 3 more months. I love working in GSK cos there are many sweet memories here. But I wish CINDY could stay too.

你转身要走

你转身要走

每当看你转身要走
泪水只会不停的流
即使心会一直伤痛
也只能默默看你走


© Brigitte Khoo Jie Bin

那天

那天当我遇见你
心跳得多么疯狂
不知是否爱上你
让我变得好迷惘

那天就这样离开
心里多么的忧伤
好多话没说出来
却只寂寞在一旁

© Brigitte Khoo Jie Bin

对于爱恋

对于爱恋
会抱着太深的执念
因为如此
所以有着疯狂举止

© Brigitte Khoo Jie Bin

I will Miss GSK!!!

Wednesday~! 7 more days of work. Nothing much to do at work since the cutover. I think I'm gonna miss everyone! I really enjoy working here! I met Cindy, Liyun, Jessie, Mama, Papa, Peifen, Eve, Sharlyn, Kak Kak, HIM, etc. There are sweet memories in every stage of the MERPS project. We helped each other, laughed and joked. I enjoy those time with all of everyone~!



CINDY!

I think she and I had great minds! REALLY GREAT MINDS! Its like we think the same! And when I really do that with my friends they will say that I'm weird! I LOVE CINDY!!! We got loads of things to talk. Our tastes are quite similar!! I can say she makes my working life here more meaningful. ALOT MORE MEANINGFUL! We got common topics, seems never ending. I'm going to miss her LOADS when our contracts finished. Can't greet her 'Morning' when she board the bus in the morning. Can't see her everyday. Can't drag our legs to work together. Can't say 'bye' when she alight at her stop. Sobx. Muacks.



LIYUN!

I love her laughter! Wahahaha. Her laughter will brighten my day de. She is from HR. We met at Bus 3 de. When it was her first day taking the bus, we chatted. And I find her nice! Hehe. She and her gang, very happening. All are 美女s lor! She with Liqing, Michelle, HuiMei. They are all so sweet sia. I'm going to miss liyun and all loads!



JESSIE!

JESSIE!!! First look can't imagine she is from MAGNUM FORCE!!!! SUPER SMALL!!!! Wahaha. She got the cute look. Don't look like her age. Hmm. I think she very good at 撒娇! Not those disgusting type. Very sweet de!! Wahahaha. Her dept always give her alot of things to do!!! Cos she took over 2 people!!! Can you imagine!! She do 2 people's work!!! Is very tedious for her de!!! I love her loads!!!! She and her favourtite PIGLET!!! AND SHE LOVES CHICKEN!!!!!



HIM!

I noticed him on my first week of work. Too eye-catching?? I think so!! Alot of girls look at him de!! Cos he is 帅的!! In my point of view, I see him as a polite person. Seems rather cool by his looks. Think he should be quite amiacable bar. Never talk to him much (I shy de wor). But really nice getting to know him. Jiayou for FYP wor.



MAMA!

I loves her!! She really take care of US!! All her daughters!!! Miss her loads wor!!!! See her so 幸福 with Papa. Really very happy for them! Want to see them 这样幸福下去~!



PAPA!

Papa!! He really dotes mama alot de!!! Hehe. With Mama, he looks so 幸福 de lor. Happy for both of them. Loves them loads!!!



KAK KAK!

Eh? Why call him Kak Kak?? He really Kak Kak nei. Very 386 in our cliques. Opps. Cant get into our convo de. But he is nice lar. Except got too much scandals sia. Wahahaha. Board at the same bus stop as me. So knew him on bus de. Dragonboat de.



PEIFEN!

Another dragonboat de!! But really can't tell she is dragonboat de!!! SURPRISE!!!! Sweet looking girl. Hehe. She loves green apples!!



EVE!

She, Miss scatterbrain wor. A very nice person to get to know. Her first day I see her leg is SUPER SKINNY de lor!!!! Opps. I seems like always seeing people's leg. Is envy de lor!



SHARLYN!

I think she loves food. Ask me for any nice food blogs. Hehe. A very chatty person. Quite direct in her words which in my opinion is good!



WOW!!! Today is quite a long post!!! Hehe!!! I really abit 不舍得 everyone. Sobx. I make nice friends here. I really love them loads!!! Hugz!!

PS:有选择的人却不懂得珍惜~

Jill's Last Day

Monday~! Abit of a Monday Blues. 10 more days to end of contract~! Tomorrow is Jill's last day wor. Feel really bad not joining them on thursday for dinner. Opps. Cos got something on. Today finished all the filing Jill asked me to help her do!!! It was like 2 arch file. 100% filled. Sort it, punch hole and file. Abit tired. Went out with friends after work. So long never go out with them le. Everyone has been busy with their own life. Some working some studying. Now I starting to consider what should I do next. Study or Work?? Really confused. Making a decision is hard for me! Cos I don't like regretting on the decision I had made. Thus, I will take a long time to decide on something. As for whether I should study or work. The time for me to consider about it is quite short. The application for SIM ends on 1st oct which is quite soon. Really confused! Can't see what I want to be. Where is my dream? Those wild dreams I used to have no longer exist. Maybe is due to having looked at this practical world?? Or me being more realistic to pursue something more practical?? Have no idea?? The business world doesn't suit me? But I really like it! I love doing projects maybe in terms of research where I can search for useful informations that allow me to learn a lot. School sounds good for me! But should I study part-time?? I need serious advice! Had loads of hearings from seniors and those research I had did. Shall decide before the application closed and stay still on the decision! Till then.

眼泪

泪水只不停流满面
它代替了所有思念
对你的爱从不改变
却只能藏在心里面

© Brigitte Khoo Jie Bin

JB trip

Wednesday~! Went to JB~! We had loads of fun~! Loves!!! Till then. I'm tired. Really tired. Think too much.

Appreciation Dinner

Appreciation Dinner~! Super HIGH~! The Consultants are very HIGH~! Super Enthusiastic!! Our video is PERFECT!!! Hugs to Cindy and Jessie!!! All our effort to that video!!! But was quite pissed with XXX and CHUCKY. Is SUPER PISSED de lor!!!! ARGHZ! Really don't like helping out! He really idiot!! Demanding yet not doing anything. Just simply think that we must help!!! Thanks to Papa who fetch us home. Listening us whining. Hehe. Tired le. Till then peeps~

PS: 我还爱你吗?

Sunday~!

Sunday! I love Sunday~! hehe. Looking forward to Monday~! Though I really don't like helping him. Appreciation Dinner @ Raffles Marina. Hope everything goes well and turns out well.

PS:有选择的人都不懂的珍惜眼前的幸福

Not myself

Today. I am weird! Sorry to all if I did anything. I'm not being myself today. Haven't sort out things. Till then~

需要一些安慰

眼泪那酸酸的滋味
也会需要一些安慰
你笑容让我不伤悲
因为知道我有你陪

© Brigitte Khoo Jie Bin

痛哭

好想跟上你的脚步 

把你在我身边留住 

但却只能站在远处 

默默地在一旁痛哭 

Sat OT

Saturday. Went back to work. Today got Football match!!!!! Wohoooo~! Ole Ole ole ole~ I really miss going to work on saturday and sunday~!!!! I used to work on sat and sun de!! Cos is SUPER FUN!! Wear CASUALLY!! Talk like no one business. Wahahaha. Reach home about 6.15pm. Saw him again. Tsk Tsk. After that went to IMM, had Ichiban!! SUPER NICE! I satisfied my cravings! Too bad my younger sis cannot join us cos go dating. Wahahaha. Brought laptop home to do the powerpoint slides. But I don't think I can finish. Tomorrow got work. Till then.

*Emo'ing* day

I love working in GSK~! I love everyone there~! Hehe. Everyone is NICE! Still haven give my lead an answer. Went to NTUC after work. SAW MY LEAD!!! OMG!!! With her son. Ahaha. She didn't see me. Haiz. Saw someone. *Emo'ing??? No more bar. 想开了?? I really don't know wor. I feel bad today. I did alot of things really BAD at work!! Arghz. SORRY! *Ask for forgiveness* Tomorrow got OT. We coming back to help out~! Hehe. Ask if I can go also. *so thick skin* Cos tomorrow all alone at home and my friends tomorrow not free. Shall spend the whole day working! At least I am occupied. Won't think too much. Hope I can break free from all those 'think too much'. Like that will cry everyday nei. Super sad de. And why must I bump into him!!! Haiz!!!!

PS:
哭了好几天
你不曾看见
是太爱你了
所以舍不得

© Brigitte Khoo Jie Bin

Thursday~

Thursday. Did another verification again. Was asked to extend my contract. Still considering if I should extend. Consulted my friends. They encouraged me to go for it since I have not found any job at the moment and since the director recommend me, I should really go for it. Should I?? I really don't know wor. Must reply her on friday. Headache. Was told tomorrow was my last day. * confused. Haiz.

PS:
我一直还在等待
是否该向你表白
心情有点不明白
到底依然爱不爱

© Brigitte Khoo Jie Bin

Outing~!

Wednesday! Today do verification until very tired. Went out with Liqing and Peiwen to celebrate Peiwen's birthday~! Hehe. Me and Liqing saw this very nice notebook and immediately think of Peiwen. We went to sushi tei for dinner~! Hehe. Hope Peiwen like the notebook and enjoy her birthday~! After dinner we go for arcade~! Our usual game~! Air hockey~ Hehe. Peiwen still beat me and Liqing. Wahahaha. She too 厉害 le. Then we go for our usual Picture Hunt. Wahaha. Then headed home le. Yawnz. Super tired. Till then~!

PS: 我还在怀念些什么??

Bored!

Tuesday. Super Tired! Time passed super slow at work lo. Do data check. Found a faster way to do it! Wahaha. Tomorrow need to help sports to do verification~! Yohoooo~! Finally got things to do. Haiz. *Emo'ing no more lar!!! Really dont wanna be so 没用 nei. I can make it de.

爱上一个多情人
就是对自己残忍
即使知道不应该
却偏偏想要去爱

© Brigitte Khoo Jie Bin

Peiwen's Birthday

Today is 27th August~! Peiwen's Birthday! Wohooo~! Happy erm... 18th Birthday to you~! Wahahaha. Shall write it as 18th since you insist it. Hehe. Shall meet up soon wor~!

HAPPY BIRTHDAY PEIWEN~!
May all your wishes come true and always sweet 18~! Wahahaha

A post just for CHONG PEIWEN~!

Need to catch some sleep le. Super tired.

Sick.

SICK! Dreamt of someone. *SUPER EMO'ING* (哭着起床的) I want to get that MR HAPPY Shirt Cindy said that is sold at ZARA!!! Erm. Should I? Spend too much this month le. Next month will be another BIRTHDAY BLAST! Y*ng, M*ng, Des, 'Mond, LiQing, Xiao Ai...OMG. Feel super sick still come online blog. Ahaha. But really need to write it out. Suppressing inside very pain. I hope won't see him anymore. His appearance is confusing my current mood. I also don't know why it does and I really don't know!

那时你的无动于衷
让我一个人在心痛
也许现在应该想通
把爱放下才最轻松

© Brigitte Khoo Jie Bin

TO: MR ＨＡＰＰＹ！

TO: MR HAPPY

你害羞的笑容
常浮现脑海中
你那涨红的脸
我多么的眷恋

© Brigitte Khoo Jie Bin

SATURDAY~

SATURDAY. SUPER SUNNY DAY~! GO SENTOSA~! Wohooo...Rai, Jueying, Gin and me...So long never meet up le!!! I love them!!Had great time with them today. Went and have luge ride. I have fear of the LUGE RIDE!! Oopps. Then we went and chill. Had alot of fun with them!! Must meet up often yea!!! I will promise to make time for you all!! Hehe. After that went to Fang birthday party. Fang was 漂亮! The eyelashes VERY NICE!!!Like her makeup!!I love her loads!! She is my besties in sec sch days. Though nowadays not often go out. I still love her!!Must stay幸福 with your dear dear nei. After helping her clear everything, Shuqi drive us to Westmall. I walked home from there. Started *EMO'ING* AGAIN! Haiz. As I was thinking that if I today really bumped into him today....then I saw him. ARGHZ! *SUPER EMO'ING*

是否还有一丝思念
是否想念你在身边
但一切不可能从来
因为你的爱已不在

© Brigitte Khoo Jie Bin

Tired.

SUPER ＰＵＦＦY EYES!! Cried the whole night. Eyes super tired, sour. I don't know why I am so bothered. His appearance has turned my feelings upside down! Yesterday at work was still happily drawing loads of MR HAPPY!! I LIKE MR HAPPY!! So CUTE! I want a MISS SHY!! Haiz. Today went out with Liqing and Liyun after work. Feel SUPER BAD!!! Left Cindy alone!!! I'm really sorry!! SORRY CINDY!!!We went to orchard. Yun bought her MAC makeup stuff. Feel better going out with them. When go home, sitting on the bus alone. Think abit more and teary eyes. TOMMORROW SENTOSA TRIP and FANG BIRTHDAY PARTY~!

*Emo'ing*

PS: 不知还在期待什么...

*SUPER EMO'ING*

Thursday. I am tired. Got loads of things to handle when I got home. Went up and down to meet my friend to pass her some documents. Then went to the ATM. Up and down 4 times! Heavily rain. Just like how I feel. PS: 眼泪不知觉的流, 无法控制的流着.
*SUPER EMO'ING*

是我不知道该怎么回答
是你让我心情变得复杂
也许是我真的想得太多
一直想着从前能再来过

© Brigitte Khoo Jie Bin

我还爱你吗?

Tuesday. Tuesday blues? Still Emo'ing. I keep it inside. Don't want to be so 没用 in front of my friends. Nothing get better. Work is still the same. Went out with lingz and all. Thanks a lot!! You guys brighten my day!!! I love you all!! Muacks.

PS: 我还爱你吗?

*Emo'ing* day

*Emo'ing*

想着曾经牵过我那暖暖的大手
想着曾经你给过我的那些温柔

© Brigitte Khoo Jie Bin

Tired.

Yesterday went KBox with Cindy and Marcus. Couldn't sleep after singing. Today was REALLY TIRED! But still feel so HIGH!! Really dunno why. DEPRIVING OF SLEEP.
*Emo'ing*

从不轻易流的眼泪
要的不是你的安慰
哭着看你走的背后
我多么不想让你走

© Brigitte Khoo Jie Bin

<<不能说的秘密>>Lyrics

Here's the song that I will listen everyday. Whenever I hear this song, really can make me tear. Reminiscing the scenes in the <<不能说的秘密>>(Secret) Movie.

<<不能说的秘密>>
歌词: 周杰伦
歌曲: 方文山
歌手: 周杰伦

冷咖啡离开了杯垫
我忍住的情绪在很后面
拼命想挽回的从前
在我脸上依旧清晰可见
最美的不是下雨天
是曾与你躲过雨的屋檐(oh~~)
回忆的画面
在荡着秋千 梦开始不甜

你说把爱渐渐
放下会走更远
又何必去改变
已错过的时间
你用你的指尖
阻止我说再见
想象你在身边
在完全失去之前

你说把爱渐渐
放下会走更远
或许命运的签
只让我们遇见
只让我们相恋
这一季的秋天
飘落后才发现
这幸福的碎片
要我怎么捡