Birthday Blast!

Blogging here again lo...hmm...today got alot of friends birthday...woo....Happy Birthday Guys!!-Fanny, Kym, Brenda, June, Jack....wohoo...Sorrie ar...cant celebrate with all of u lo...hehe...but hope u guys like the prezies lo...hehe....hmm...broke this month liao....buy books, prezies and stuffsl....wohoo...hmm...bad start of the day lo...forget to bring handphone to skool....and without my handphone i feel so lost of contact with friends and time lo! ahaha...so sorrie guys if u cant get me today...hmm...later going for sumone birthday party in the evening...wohoo....but sorrie cant stay too long...tml lesson at 8am lo....haiz....hehe....ermz...today ending lesson at 5pm lol...2hr break in the middle....arghz....hmm...and yar...i gotta meet up with yubing, sidi and all one day to buy Shi Hui prezies lo...ehhh...quite excited for tml IS lesson...taking Flash Application lo...hehe....this week seems to be a lazy week for me...din bother much to do tutorials cos no mood to concentrate....too much distractions( TV, Phone call, Chilling) hehe...but i'll try harder lo....ahaha...oh yar...to my dearie friends....thanks for sharing everything( woes and happiness)...i believe things will be better de ok...when u feel sad...we'll cry together...when u r overjoyed...we'll jump around and scream together...remember that i'll be there for everyone...hehe....can come to me anytime de wor....cos thats wad friends are for....hehe....ok...stop here lo...lappy no batt le...till then lo~!

PS:
You make mY heart races so fast that
eveN i couLd not eveN catcH iT...
You make mE bLush in front oF you
for mY shynesS cannoT cover mY LovE for you...
You make mE waiT for youR message DaY by dAy
for wheN iT comes...
iT reaLLy touCh mE deeP inside
for rare iT may bE to See your messaGe...
Your mesmeriSing eyes makE mE so DeepLy in LovE wiTh you
aNd suCh feeLiNgs grow deepEr aNd deepEr....
thouGh the diStance between uS seemS to Drift furtheR...
buT nevEr shaLL iT bE a ReasoN for mE to giVe uP
for perserveranCe shaLL bE there for yoU aLwayS..
what can i SaY...
iTs aLL tHe beauTy iN thE eyE of the behoLder...
anD thiS hAs madE mE madLy iN Love with Y0U~!

© Brigitte Khoo Jie Bin

School Life!!

Wooo...there's go another week le...hmmm...this sem seems to be a tough one...all modules sound quite tough lo....currently cant handle all those new stuff...Maths Make Me Mad...ahaha...well...i can say IEF will be the killer one...cant digest everything said during the lecture lo...or should i say i cant hear clearly from her....her mic is so soft....and she seems to be mumbling to herself...cant really catch what she is talking about....haiz....better put in more effort bar...hope things will get better bar....hmm...November comes....lots of things happening...with so many birthday coming around....And JAY CHOU's ALBUM!! HOT PICK!! i must say...i din order so tsk tsk...cant get the album due to no stock...Arghz....the album is so nice!!!Ye Qu!!Fa Ru Xue!!OMG....Nice....ahaha...JAY fan here...hehe....hmmm....oh yar...this coming sat is Shi Hui birthday lo...hmm...thinking what i should buy for her birthday presents....and yar...i din forget my buddy birthday lo....this coming wednesday....and yar...Jack's birthday oso this wednesday wor....ahaha...juz realise when i receive the birthday alarm....hehe...sorrie ar....hmm...need to thrift abit next month lo...will be asking for extra pocket money from next month de....hehe...cos got lots of stuff needed to buy lo....have been spending lots of money....oh yar...maybe ask for money use to buying presents during last sem...ahaha...hard to ask lo...hmm...well....this month gonna be a tight month for me...need to buy textbook and all stuff....when can i start my savings plan?? should lock myself in the house after school so that i wont buy things...hehe....but thats difficult....humph...thats me mar...cant save for rainy days....and that cause me headache when im tight lo....wahaha...should have gotten work during hols...nvm...take it as a lesson bar...not to spend so much lo...hmm...but i really wanna buy JAY CHOU's CD lo....Haiz...where can i get it?? Somemore now no money....haiz...till den bar...tml got 2 lecture lo....gotta turn in early lo...Sign offzzzz

Bad Start on the First Day of School

School starts today....what a bad day i have....i got out of the house at 10am...tsk...waited for 20 mins den got bus lei....den nvm....at the bukit timah shopping centre change bus....the bus 52 just drove off while i was raising out my hand....Arghz....den waited for about 15mins den comes the 184 bus....reach school at 11.10am....what a bad start of the day on my first day of school...den went to photocopy notes for peiwen and liqing....den went fro the IEF lecture....the lecture is really fierce lo...and i think she abit revengeful person...sounds abit scary....ahaha...den after the lecture...we struggle on whether to go with jocelyn, eveline and mel to SIM for lunch then go orchard or go with liqing meet her boyfriend and lunch....finally decide on going with liqing meet her boyfriend lo...feel abit bad...din join jocelyn, eveline and mel....erm....din mean not to join u guys de....but abit curious to see liqing boyfriend....hehe...opps....den we went to jurong meet liqing boyfriend....hmmm...they two very compatible lei....like prince and princess like dat...in my point of view lo....ahaha....and i can see liqing very 'Xin Fu' like that....abit 'xian mu' bar...hehe...waited for bus 52 for quite long and therefore late again for AAA lecture....Arghz...late consecutively lo!! hehe....And guess what!! I didnt bring my KEYS!!That is the worst thing of the day!! Haiz...but its alrite...meet up with friends and did enjoy the time with them....you guys must take care lo...stay happy and cheerful wor~hmmm...getting late...tml or should i say today is All Saints Day!! going to church tml....9am mass lo...need to sleep early bar....ahaha....and yar wednesday is All Souls Day....Tml is oso Deepavali....and thursday is Hari Raya Puasa....Lets enjoy the festive season bar....cheers~ till then lo....
PS:
Dream may be unrealistic...
but at least I've tried to strive for it...
I know that all...
In this big big world...
having able to know each other is really a destiny...
a destiny is what I believe is rare...
Love varies from people to people...
to me love is such a tragic that I dont get to really understand it....
for the deeper passion i have for love...
the more I am hurt and depressed...
Yet I have all the sweet memories with me...
I kept it very close to me...
and somehow the feeling is fading away....
I recollect them all and silly smiling at those scenes flashing in my mind...
memories are forever sweet for you wont know the flaws of him...
Let all joyful thoughts always lighten each day...
and may the one able to help me stand up once again ...
follow what my heart says....

© Brigitte Khoo Jie Bin

School opens!!

Oh no...school starting tomorrow le....arghz...holidays so fast gone le..ahaha...meaningful holiday?? Erm...i should say so so bar...spend alot during the hols with presents, shopping, chillings and all stuff....hehe...but next semester's hols wont be that comfortable...gonna stuck with attachment lo...God bless me that i will get a 5 day work job bar....ahaha...this sem will be a tough one lo....IEF...thats killer i must say....ok....new semester revolution comes.....is a MUST abide now lo....hmm...firstly MUST attend all lectures no matter what excuse possible....secondly MUST do all tutorials....thirdly MUST save money each month minimum $20 bar...next MUST not skip tutorials....then MUST exercise more....somemore MUST be attentive in lectures....next MUST get back to my old self (talk more)...finally MUST learn to adapt in a new class...that must be all le bar...hehe....did some self- reflection on what are the things i had not done last sem lo....but doubt this sem i can do this....but at least i will move towards this new resolution of mine lo....i can do it de....hmm..but MUST attend all lectures seem to be a difficult one...but i'll try ok...hmm....looking forward to IS class lei...dunno why....though will be alone from my classmates...but i sort of interested in the project....do a advertisement for a product using flash...hehe....sounds like marketing stuff...hehe...but first week clashes with Hari Raya Haji lo...so no lesson lo...hehe....hmm...looking forward to meeting my classmates lo....so long never see them lo....miss them lots....didnt have time with them during the hols....hmm....though things are different from our year 1 ...i really like them all lo....they are just a bunch of nice people....i'll say VERY NICE people....really GREAT to be in TB25 and having know every single of them....hmmm....all saints day coming lo...its on deepavali...hehe...need to check the schedule for mass le...oh yar...tuesday meeting wen and all to holland v for chill....confirm with you guys soon....hehe....and as for Mingz....thursday we go town TCC shall see if my pocket lo....hehe....sorrie ar....got burnt in the pocket during the hols with presents, chilling and shopping...will confirm with you guys another day lo....till den le...going to play maple the last time during the hols....gamin' tru the night.....

Expedition tml!!

Hehe..Juz finish choosing IS module stuff...Arghz...i am just too slow lo...i got into Flash Application and Spanish lo...hehel...alone from TB25...im sure i can do it de...hehe.. abit eager to learn spanish lo...ahaha...the mentor name so long lo...woo..hehe...though will be alone...im sure i can learn sumthing from it bar...heez...wa..so long never blog le...hmm...tml got expedition lo...looking forward to tml lo...hehe...juniors better do well for this lo...hehe...EXCITED lo...stop here le...will blog again...wanna change the skin lo...till den bar...

Another Day....

Arghzz...Exams results are very bad...OMG...shall not say how bad i did lo...but manage to at least pass lo...gotta work harder next semester lo...hehe...play too much this semester le...always out chilling with friends and all....opps...shall go out less often lo...mum says so lo...im a mummy ger lo...hehe...if not pocket money kena cut bar...hehe...arghz...today really got emotion fight...haiz...dunno if i should be happy or sad lo...i so long never message him le...and juz now he message me lo...arghz...when i saw dat message was really happy at that moment and even went real red...cos he think of me lo(i think too much ) ...hehe ....*blush blush too...but on second thought...i thought i decided to give up?? but to say the truth...in my heart i never give up a single moment....its just that i din want to think about him...haiz....Struggle...!! At times when i wanna give up most...he gave me hope....its always like dat...making me still clinging on hope that miracles will happen!!Arghz...Confused...dunno wad i should do lo...my feelings are conflicting....ahaha...and guess wad i did....i reply him with another greeting message....adding on some words: Miss You Lots~!!!....arghz...abit too obvious hor....haiz....he is now in the army lo....he must be having hard time in there lo...haiz....Must jia you lo...when you have anything wanna say out....can come to me hor...im always there for you....not a moment have i left you alone wor...and really thanks for your greeting message....it turns my day better...(hope he does view my blog lo)have been slacking at home....gaming and stuff....hehe...aunt's birthday coming soon lo...yupz...me and my cousin going to whip some of our specialities lo...ahaha...i'll most probably make a baked rice...hmm....den...do brocolli in milk with cheese(learn from tv lo)...den make mango pudding??hehe...wohooo....her birthday this saturday lo....and yar this saturday guides will be going to do rachy lo...prepare for the expedition lo....hmmm....quite excited about the expedition...but hope we can merge with scouts so that we can have a longer distance expedition...and the guides can learn some other skills from the scouts and communication between them....a pity we dun have scouts...if not it will be like my guides time...playing the scissors paper stone with the scouts....so childish yet innocent lo....hehe...aww....really miss those days lo...i miss guiding lots....last time i had great fun....my seniors are the best....my most enjoyed days in guides was my secondary 1...my PL and PS are so fun....love them lots...hehe...and we are always the winner then...Hibiscus Patrol Rox Big Time lo....hehe....So missing guides lo...hmm...maybe one day we will have interaction with other school's guides and scouts....ahaha....i bet most of them are looking forward to it lo....ahaha....and i must admit...in guides i make a lot of new friends from other schools after each campfires we attended....get to mix around with the scouts via my friends....hehe....and guides too lo...hmm...holidays are getting bored without my friends....all working and busy....haiz....i miss them lots....today alot of things happen huh...when i go out today...saw someone....change quite a lot lo...hehe...and yar...and some secondary school friends....but they dont seems to aware who i am....ahaha....i changed?? no lo....hehe....anyway....today is not my day...leg pain too...wear heels just now lo....till den lo....Away to Gamin'

Shopping again?

Yohoo...today went shopping spree again with moommmy...ahaha...friends all either not free, working, attachment, overseas, busy or go idare le...ahaha...so since mooommmy is free...so ask her out lo...hehe...but was a wasteful trip though...din bought anything...bought a handphone accesseries for my dear sister lo...cos she very hardworking bar...studying for her exams...so buy her things make her happy lo...ahaha...younger sister is jealous and angry lo...hehe...nxt time lo...when i get a job i buy you sumthing even special yea...hehe...hmm...today shop for the whole afternoon bar...sleep till 10++ lo...cos yesterday watch tv till 3am lo...ahaha...with my mooommmy lo....haha...nice show that i miss yesterday afternoon lo....yesterday went to the temple to ji bai my grandma...cos is her birthday yesterday...hmmm...whenever i am reminded of my grandma...tears always flows down and the sourness in my heart...having her leaving me so fast...i am missing her lots and lots and even lots in the future....she will always be in my heart...i have always not treasuring what i have now and when i lost it...i started to regret...i dun wanna regret anymore...i will treasure everyone real precious....cos i dun wanna have regrets...regrets are pain that will stay forever...that everlasting pain nothing can heals...I believe this is a real big lesson to me...having lost my dear grandma...i have become mature after so many things had happened...i will not take things for granted and always treasure everyone...hmmm....tml going for interview at pasir panjang lo...quite far nei...hehe...hopefully i can get the job bar...in need of money lo...if not nxt sem will be hell for me...ahahaha...hmm...missing all my friends lo...TB25, wenz, motorola's friends....ahaha...din get a chance to chill with them lo...I'm MISSING them LOTS.....hmm...stop here lo...need to sleep early....till dewn bar...

P.S.:
AngeLs are what i BeLievE iN...
And they wiLL definiteLy briNg
The bLessings i have foR you...
iF they were noT there foR you..
i wiLL be your guardiaN angeL..
aLwayS bE bY youR side...
whateveR obstructioN theRe iS iN youR Life..
i wiLL aLwaYs bE theRe to cLear theM...
foR deeP iN mY hearT..
yoU aRe tHe oNes i treasuRe...
the oneS i Dont want unhappineSs befaLL on..
thE oneS whoSe joY behoLd mY Life...
Never wiLL i want to see you hurt...
BecauSe i ReaLLy LovE you so...

© Brigitte Khoo Jie Bin

Nothing

Wooo...yesterday slept at 4.30 am...ar..should be today morning...ahaha...when i go brush teeth my father wake up lo..getting ready to go work...ahaha...still cant stop myself from gamin'...played maplestory the whole night...ahaha...wake up at 11 this morning...ooppps...hehe...did nothing much today...went to write an application form at bukit gombak...they tell me is waitressing job at pub...arghz...my mum not allowing lo...finding job lo..hehe...hmm...nothing much today...hehe...aww...Jocelyn Eveline Mel and all are going for idare next week le...gonna miss them lots!!!arghz...how i wish i can join them lo...but mum dun allow wor...sadded...hmm...hope they enjoy themselves in the camp lo...i bet they will...seeing them so excited and looking forward to it...hehe...hmm...gonna miss them lo...hehe...i see if thursday can make my way to the terminal to fetch you guys not...hehe...hopefully i can make it bar...ehhh...results are cuming out...im scared...hope i can pass all my modules...God bless me bar...Let me pass all my modules yea...hmm...tml going to go see grandma le...is her birthday lo...den going to temple to ji bai her lo...hmm...grandpa was discharged from hospital last thursday...arr...din went to visit him...opps...sleep so late and have been going out looking for jobs lo...hehe...grandpa must take care of yourself lo...dun so kan chiong lo...later the stitch burst lo...haiz...very worried him lo...hmm...but nvm...tml going to see him lo...ahaha...tonite i MUST sleep early...gotta go church tml...though i always slept late on saturday and yet able to wake up in time for church...this time its going to be a long day...so must catch some sleep lo...
To my friends: Exams are round the corner lo...must jiayou and work hard for your exams lo...work hard and do your best out of everything lo...hehe
To all those who are going for idare: Enjoy yourselves and do share with me all the things happen during the camp...hehe...and yar...must take care of yourselves during the camp lo...will definitely miss you guys lots lo...

P.S:
'LOVE' a word I can't say out bravely...
For I'm afraid of getting hurt...
though deep inside my heart I yearned so much to say it...
I am waiting for the right time to say it out...
But will the time comes??
Will I get the chance to tell you how much I love you??
I believe that day will come....
And you will know how much i love you....

© Brigitte Khoo Jie Bin

Shopping Spreee~!

Yohoo...today went for a shopping spree...hehe...taking interview as an excuse for a shop at orchard...and yar went to buy prezie for Yeting's birthday lo...hehe...the wallet really very nice wor...ever thought of buying one for myself too...hehe...it says glow in dark wor...and yar...got a bracelet from Isetan...ahaha...today went to interview...but think i dun wanna work der bar...need to face smoking people...i dun think i can take it lo...hmm...today i bought a jeans skirt at Isetan...think not bad lor...so buy le...and yar...bought an limited edition watch for my friend...wa...the watch really nice lo...got screen saver de...wahaha...den you shake it will show the time...so cool right...the promoter says the whole world only got 80 pieces lo...$200++ lo...pocket big hole lo...but we got 15 people sharing lo...so quite ok bar..just in the afternoon i spend $300++ lo...Omg...buying prezies...i regret nv help my sis buy that pencil case from the wallet shop...its really very nice...i feel like owning one too...ahaha..but too bad...am broke now lo...wahaha...did aim quite a lot of things lo...i feel like owning that limited edition watch....arghz...it so cool...ahaha...saw a shirt at Isetan...$130!! short sleeve shirt lo..quite nice...but really cant afford lo...pengz...haiz...and yar..i saw those platinium ring...wa..really very nice...the design is quite unique...wa...so many desires...not being materialistic here lo...will work hard for all those desires....earn money for it...motivation lo...wahaha...after shopping for 5 hours....went to westmall to meet up with eveline, mel and andre...den we wait for the others to come after their attachment...and had dinner at Mayim...celebrate Yeting Birthday lo...and there's the LaBi...so cute nei...hehe...there's lots of talks while dining...arr...now kinda scared of attachment...they sound it so terrible..a No No experience that one would want to undergo....wahaha...hope next sem my attachment the boss not that fierce bar...hehe...we had our dinner till 9.30 den we step out of the restaurant...wow...we took 2.5hr to eat our dinner lo...and i heard outside was queueing like mad...ahaha...my friend was one who wait long outside...hehe...and he complained to me...saying our grp are so noisy and bugging on the table...oooppppsss...its our freedom lo...we pay money de lo...hehe...after dat went to meet my friends for chilling...

Planned!!

Have been looking for job this few days but to avail bar...ahaha...tml going for interview at scotts shopping centre for a part-time waitressing job...hmm..wonder if im up to the job lo...ahaha...nv been before a waitress lo...ahaha...hope everything goes out well...going alone lo...all my friends not free lei...hehe..nvm bar...im independent lo...hehe...hmm...by right tml nite should be meeting my friends for dinner cum chill session de...hehe...but i say cannot make it...really sorrie wor...ehhh...cos got a friend bdae...we'll celebrate her bdae lo....miss all of them lots lo....hehe...will join you guys after dinner with them lo...think you guys would be chilling out till quite late right...hehe...meet you guys later at night tml lo...dun say i bu gou yi qi wor...i love every of my friends the same...hehe....i still feel abit apologetic lo...hmmm...i shall buy you guys supper lo...surprise you guys with yummy food...ahaha...buy our fav pratas and dinosaur milo....yum yum...ahaha...really looking forward to tml lo..tml will be a busy day lo...seems abit cramped bar...but i find it fulfilling bar...lots of things in one day...it will be a day ful of FUN....im loving it lo~!!hehe...oh yar...must wish *.*Yeting..''.. Happy Birthday wor...hehe...May all you wishes come true and stay pretty forever lo....opppss...and not forgeting Chuan Ming lo....his birthday too...hehe...Happy Birthday lo...dun say i no gd ar...though nv go ur bdae chalet...bdae wish is still there lo...hehe...and yar...still got lots of them bdae cuming lo...got MF, XiuLuan, Yew Tong, Perry.....Wooo....Happy birthday lo....Let all the birthday babies get their wishes and stay handsome and pretty lo....hehe...gttg le...need an early sleep bar...till den lo....

P.S:
Forgetting someone,
May be very difficult.
The more you want to forget him,
It will only make you miss him even more.
Time may heal the wound,
But it will also make me get used to it
and yet stay in it forever.
For there is no specific medicine,
to cure this sickness.
The only way is to
Accept the ones who like you
And fall in love again.
But it is said easier than action
As falling in love again
takes more courage to
stand up from failure.

© Brigitte Khoo Jie Bin

haiz..

Arghz...today got diarrhea...almost went dehydrate...aww...den today din went out to look for job lo...went online to see if there is any job available lo...but din even see one that i can apply...haiz...oh yar...i wanna apologise to Jocelyn...din join them in the SC outing....i feel bad lo...should have gone to support Jocelyn de....ehhh...really sorrie wor...i'll be there next time...hopefully nothing crash with it...hmm..yesterday went to see my grandpa at the hospital...he seems to be in pain and i just cant do anything to help him relieve his pain...feel so useless...i just stand there watching him...lots of thoughts but never expressed out...really feel abit sad to see him udergoing such pain...hope that he can recover soon...i bet so...he is just that healthy man lo...yeap...and i prayed that he will get well soon...two days before was so worried about the operation...and yea...the operation should be quite a success...doctor say 2 more days he can be discharged le...yipee...next sunday is my grandma birthday lo...will be going there to see her...hmm...missing my grandma alot...always have that feeling that she is still with us...really cant get use to life without her when i visit my grandpa at their house...sobsobz...erm...gttg le...wanna be good ger lo...help mum to vaccum the floor bar...dun wanna slack at home...till den lo....

P.S.:
Never Say Goodbye
When U Still Want To Try.
Never Give Up
When U Still Feel U Can Take It.
Never Say U Don't Miss That Person Anymore
When U Still Love Him
Never Say U Don't Love That Person Anymore
When U Can't Let Go.

© Brigitte Khoo Jie Bin

Recalling....

Yawnz...just woke up....ahaha...i din go work today...its really too early lo...must wake up at 5am everyday...OMG...really cannot make it lar...plus the pay is not at all tempting...and i am so used to sleeping late lo...so really cannot make it lar...so i must start to search for jobs again lo...ahaha...hmm...maybe after this week bar...make use this week to go catch up with friends lor...hehe...this few days at home feel like maid lo...do alot of housework lei...ahaha...but at least i am not being demand to do things...hehe...gaming tru the hols is not a bad idea...but mum is going to strongly object it...opps...hehe...and yar...for the sake of extra pocket money next sem i should quickly get a job bar...hmmm...home alone now...abit bored lei...my friends all started working le...and cant ask them out...sadded...wad a lonely hols...my cousins are having exams lo...cant even ask them out too...hmm...i am so free now..crapping all my way in this post...should write sumthing meaningful bar...hmm....i had a real meaningful sem..i enjoy every moments chilling with the scotland group...and yar...it gives me the vibe of whats fun...i believe thats the most memorable days in my poly life...with all their laughters and smiles...just like that of my primary school life...ahaha..not secondary wor...cos secondary school i was really quiet and quite "obessed" in working hard(PSLE did badly lo...)and always with my outside friends chilling...ahaha...was really playful during primary school days...always like PE lessons...hehe...watch the malay guys play football...they are so pro lo...hehe...of cos wor...they are mostly international athletics lo...hehe...though was separated during primary four...still get to see them playing football...hehe...they may always bully me by giving me lots of nicks(just to name some:red bean,green bean, dustbin,jb...kiddish nick lo)...ahaha...they are really my great buddies...always get greeting from them and when i am sad they will always concern about me....hmm...but so long nv contact le...wonder how are they...they are really my best buddies ever...really miss those time watching and supporting them in the football matches...ahaha...and i wanna find my primary school cliques...we are the best ever sisters...always helping each other with homeworks and never forget to play hard after school...kinda miss those days we play at the fitness corner...had real fun there...childhood memories...so innocent yet so fun...come to think..i had not wasted any time in my life...its all so filled with fun and joy...though the laughters and tears that i had gone through...thats my growing up stage....stop here lo...wanna go gamin lo...till den bar...wrote sumthing quite meaningful to me below....

P.S.:
One sided love can be full of happiness...
For it seems to allow one to find a goal to pursue...
But it can also lead to losing a realistic goal to move on...
And yet pain begins...

© Brigitte Khoo Jie Bin

Mood??Confuse....

Yohoo...today went for the interview at jurong east mrt...initially ask my friend join me de...den she got sumthing on...den nv go wif me le...sadded...so lonely lor...all alone leh...no friends der yet...tml start work wor...and is so early...7am-4pm...arghz...hope i can wake up and ders bus for me...hope that everything would be smooth tml bar...only looking forward to the pay lor...cos now wanna buy lots of stuff...hehe....hmm...today actually tought wanna go to chuan ming's chalet de...but it rains and i've got lots of stuff to do...so din go lo...hehe...sorrie lo...but really lar...if i go i oso seat der do nothing...i dunno ur friends mar...hehe...hmm...dun feel the vibe of the hols...friends all looking for jobs...less chills less shoppings.....Arghz...so bored at home...have been watching tv and using the net the whole day...now feeling quite excited about tml job...new environment....wonder if i can adapt to the new envt...hope i can get to know new and funky friends der bar...hehe....always like taking up new jobs...cos ders a different circle of friends that i will be getting to know...hehe...hols come le...sum of them has attachment...hmmm..we all jia you bei...and i will miss Baoc days....i will miss all of them....and its really sad not being able to see them next sem...they are all a bunch of great funky group...so nice to be with...just with all their laughter and talks are enough to enjoy the whole day....what can i say....they are GREAT!!!! I love them all to bits lo...

Exams over~!

Yohoo...finally finish all the exams lo...Relaxing time liao~!!haha...today had a real painful headache...and guess wad...i had stomach pain during the exams...and was persevering to complete the whole exams...was real sick....after the exams actually wanted to go see doctor...but got meeting so drop the idea lo...all those pain really gives me a real hard time today...the meeting ends around 8++...and they went for dinner...i din join them...ahaha...abit anti social hor...but not purposely de...was in a rush...cos promise my friend to meet her at 5 to go out with her since last month...cos din went chill with her last month..so we initially wanted to go Lorong Mambong for chill after my exams...but who knows i got IS meeting...so rite after meeting went to the market and bought satay bee hoon for my dear friend cos she has great liking for it...i was queueing for about half an hour...real long queue der...but its worth it...seeing my friend gobbling on it....ahaha...she eat it as though she hasnt been eaten for days....went to her house to pass her some stuff...brought some of home made mooncakes for her too...hehe...after that went home....by that time i am too tired to even clear all the mess i had made during those muggin' period...all papers messed up on the table...ahaha...and here i am blogging...exam really made me mad...especially this last paper is so difficult...for that exam...i could have used up all my brain cells...hehe...hmm...need to catch some sleep le...till then bar....Headache~....hols is on the way...Finding job in few days time lo...anyone got lobang can tell me??ahaha..wanna try out different fields of career out der...end her bar...need to rest lo...eyebags are HEAVY!!Arghz....Signz off-------

To Jocelyn...Happy BirthDay~!!!

HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO YOU~!
HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO YOU~!
HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO JOCELYN~
HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO YOU~!!

Jocelyn...Happy Birthday wor...heehee...hmm...this is the second time we celebrate your birthday...how times fly...hehe...hmm...actually really wanna go over to wish you HAPPY BIRTHDAY face to face de...but really feeling sick wor...Hope you had a wonderful birthday that day....

Heart could only,
Love for a while.
Feet could only,
walk for some miles.
Clothes wont be forever in style,
But having you as my friend is forever worthwhile.

Tired~!!

Arghz...Today had serious headache...almost faint when climbing the overhead bridge towards canteen 1...suddenly feel abit giddy...din have much sleep...doing the proposal thingy...and yet in my sleepy mode...DIN SAVE my proposal...and was quite frustrated...all the nite gone to waste...have to burn midnite oil tonite to finish it...arghz....bad day here....din expect I&E to be so tiring...first time doing the project with lots of complaints wor...ahaha...but i love my mates...they are all so enthusiastic and they make me more determine in getting our event done to the very best...so looking forward to the day of our event...hope it will be a real successful one...hehe...hope i can sleep early....really dunno wad to write for the proposal...omg....there's just so little things to tok on...ahaha...think should be ok bar...had it only 3.5 page long...with the title page...hmm...not sure if its enough bar...but thats wad we have been doing bar...hehe...hope i can finish it fast...i m depriving of sleep...doing the proposal...im going mad!!!wahahaha...better continue to see what i can add on for my proposal...its damn short...i wanna pass my I&E wor....jia you le wor...hehe...and yar...exams are round the corner le...everyone jiayou bar...we'll do our very best wor...Gambandei~!!!

Saded

Hmm...Today got alot of things happening around...things just cant be done properly...my week start quite badly wor...humph...hope that my week will get better...hmm...abit of a disappointment today with all those things happen...yar..we changed our project to a camp...and i support it...but obstacles came by...i just cant book the place for our recruitment of people who wanna attend our camp...took 30mins of hard time trying to book it at the student service center...but failed...den the auntie suggested i should go to the estate management to tell them about it...ahaha...and i did...den i took to a dunno wad guy...he look fierce and serious...telling me that a $20 is needed....and i really dunno wad to say...den i just said i need to consult my classmates and went off...so shocked about the payment of $20...din we pay our fees to use the facilities around the school!!!!OMG...the school is so money minded...Pengz...Really cant stand it lol...wad kind of school is that...even need to pay to use the facilities...den wad for we pay that large amount of miscellaneous fee!!!Humph....and yar...bcos i had to do all those things i had to cancel our meeting and my lunch...i feel bad...make them wait and yet din make it to the meeting...sorrie guys...ahaha...isnt it a bad day...whole lot of obstacles ahead in one whole day...Arghz....quite tired of facing all those....not only this...i went to meet my friends...sumhow i feel that i am such an extra...that feeling is coming more harshly on me then before....or is it i too sensitive...hmm...but i felt a little left out...a little being ignored...a little being made use...this kind of feeling though not the first time...but now i feel it strongly...our gaps are getting further...Drifting really far apart...thats why i had been just keeping quiet...not probing, interrupting, talking, and all....just that abnoramal part of me...and i feel so inferior doing such a unlike me act...ooo....i must brace up...yupz...nothing can beat me down lor...hehe...now must really put in all effort to study and do my very best for my exams...what i promised my grandma....What i wanna say...
'I miss Her...I will do my best in my studies de...'
Till den bar....Hope that tml will be a better day.....

BA DAy

Yipee...here comes the weekends...have been waiting for the weekends...cos weekdays are really tiring and i haven been sleeping well for the past few days...all those weird dreams i had...makes me sleeping a creep...wahaha....hmmm..tis week is the last week of the semester...how time flies...the semester is ending soon...oooohhhh....i will miss those yr 3s...they will be going for their attachment soon...humph...life without them will be so less fun and so quiet...ahaha...i will miss their talkings lots lor....hehe...today had only one tutorial at 9 den had my things on...and at 2 went to meet up with the others to discuss the events thingy..it really gives a whole lot of headaches and nothing else but problems....wahaha...today went to see other possible venue to have our party held...hmm...tink the function room at galileo is not bad wor...hehe...after that went to the convention for the BA Day...woohooo....i enjoy all their performances...its so filled with laughter and their performance is great...hehe...had a heart filled laugh throughout the whole thingy...yea....after that went home and had to start my work again...ahaha...after finishing all those around 8 den realise i din eat lunch...hehe...oh yea..tml going celebrating sum1 bdae wor...hehe...hmm..30 mins more to her bdae...wohooo....wonder what she had plan for that day hur...oh yar...take this to wish her a happy birthday wor...and yar...yesterday was Wenni birthday...hehe..Happy Birthday to you too~!! I've changed a new blog skin...hmm...kinda sick of the old skin...and there's isnt any nice one...tink this skin not bad bar...hehe...oh...tis month i am really broke...no money left...went to buy all those birthday gifts...humph...september too will be like dat...oh no...i must learnt to be a little spendthrift le...hehe...better stop here le wor...need to do my stuff liao...till den bar...

Yupz...

Yohoo...Blogging here...have been long since i last blog...wahaha...hmm...yar...Failed my ECD...but i knew that will happen...cos i really not good at writing long thingy and memorising that whole big chunk of notes...yupz...and i am not going for the retest...cos it doesnt affect much of the overall marks..i rather go and study harder for the exam of other modules...ahahaha...and yar..i passed my CMA test too...though not very high....i am quite contented le...hehe...hmm...this week is abit of rushing up ECD project...and i am going mad doing all those...Arghz...ahaha...yesterday i went for the talk by willian tan...waaaa...he is a good speaker...a real motivating person....ahaha...after the talk i went home...hehe...cos wanna chong comics again..ahaha...my sis brought back 4 more...hehe...i am going to finish it...hehe...the comic really very romantic nei...so cute...hehe...gttg liao...have tons of things to do today...hehe...till then...

Broke~!!

Wa..today weather is so hot...had great headache and all stuff...OMG...wahaha...oh yar...BA day is coming...people do buy a tix to the thingy...Guess Wad...the tix is sold at only $1~!!Great deal here....hurry all BA students go grab this great deal~~~hehe...and yar...oso muz help my sis to advertise too~!This year ACJC will be having the funfair...there will be lots of stalls der...with purchase of each ticket you will get 10% discount from Metro and Long John Silver's coupon...wahaha.....lots of event coming up...hehe...and yar...last thurs and friday we set up a stall selling tidbits...and guess wad we got the highest profit among all stalls....yipee...all effort and time by P22...bravo~!!We did great job here~!!hehe...this week start very badly...feeling so sick...so germy...coughing my way to skool...hehe...and yar...din get to tok much...and yar...gotta take this chance to tok all those i din get to tok....ahaha...today during HRM did tok about things like Project Superstar...i feel like i have been wasting my time watching it all...the show is just not fair...bias judges(so wad if they are pros)..unworthy leftovers(cant see why they can survive here with sarcasm) pengz...hehe...opps..too emotional le...well..today feel so sick i actually din intend to attend skool...but got presentation...so buck up...and yar...presentation week....hehe...hmm...this week wun be my week bar...started quite badly...cos last week i spend my money away on thursday and friday...wahaha...went to buy some prezie for friends...Birthdays again...ahaha...this week im broke...if i dun control myself..next week i will oso be broke...wahaha...those who own me money pls zhi dong return me wor(ps:im desperate now and yar dun dare to ask from them...)...ahaha....really kinda broke this week...wonder how can i survive with only 2 bucks this week...plus this sat need to go out....OMG~!!Really hope this week ends fast....then next week i can spend cos i decided to use my allowance for weekly basis....but i doubt it works...wahaha...think its better than monthly bar...hehe...at least i wun be broke during the end of the month....and yar pals...sorrie i wun be able to join you guys for chilling this week at coffee house...i m really broke...next week will chill with you guys yar...hehe...i'll try to save money...really sorrie wor...=P...stop here le...blog another day ~!

Yohoo...

Yipee...all the test finally finished...the ECD test was so difficult...but thats the end to it...wahaha..humph...yesterday superstar result...WHY?? why is derrick...very sad leh...i think he is not bad...his voice is nice...its so pure and innocent...that wad i heard...and most impt he has his own way of singing...that makes him an unique one...and yar..the words he said when being asked about how he felt...i really feel touched for his parents...its like he said: Though I had never do something great for my parents to be proud of, I hope that having standing here till now, I did do something they can be proud of(translated)..and der he goes tearing...its really touching lor...and yar...i did drop to tears...ahaha...but i still think that Derrick shouldnt be out...and i shall not say which should be out...i feel that this project superstar's objectives is to build a superstar of unique way of singing...and bare that in mind NOT IMITATE others singer...that makes project superstar a meaningless one...if you like to imitate others why not go join the Top Fun...they have such a competition...and u cant do with that smirk on ur face...its such a chiller to see that...ahaha...kkiez...enough of that bar...hmm..today i chiong the comics my sis brought home...its very nice...and i had finish all 4 books she bought home in 3hrs...ahaha...so romantic wor...muahaha...there's lots to go...hehe...hmm..haven been feeling well this week...got bad sore throat..test stressed me down...but think its getting better...on my way back home from test....i saw 5n1 guy at the basketball court playing soccer...humph...they took our place for basketball..so we went to another place for the play...hehe...yar..i reached der arnd 8..played for 1/2 hr...den go back home for dinner...hehe...tml going to do volunteer work...yipee...i always feel good doing volunteer work...yupz...I miss all of the baoc people....they are all at Korea...Leaving Yeting alone...humph...nvm..yeting got us here...hehe...And yar...i miss my class too...wont be seeing them till monday...the weekends seem long to me...end here le...till then peeps~!

Sunday~!

Today is sunday...oh yea..i love sunday where i go to mass...listen to those readings and know more about the lord and its gospel...wahaha...and not forgetting...looking at my boy boy...he's so cute...wahaha...his new born brother also very adorable...wahaha...im sure when he grown up will be very yandao...hehe...humph...jocelyn and eveline went to help with winston events...arghs...i oso wanna go...playing with the kids...but gotta attend church...hmm...but at least i feel that i did gain sumthing through mass...yeap...wonder if tml wanna go skool for fmgt lecture...but i think i wun be going bar...most probably going back to sec sch for the national day celebration...wahaha...i miss my class...recalling those days during our o levels days...we all bury ourselves with work during lesson...the most attentive class in our stream...wahaha....i believe they agree on this...not saying the other class is not attentive...its just that we are less noisy...hehe....and i miss our form teacher Mrs Ooi...she's a great teacher...taught us for our secondary school life...wahaha...hmm...i miss my primary skool life too...so happening...had great friends...i still remember them...Desiree...Gayathiri...Jennifer...they are my best friend ever...always go for the chinese composition lesson together...fighting on who finish writing the composition first...wahaha...sweet memories...and not to forget my all time favourite sports primary school friend...Hisham...he is really good at football...really obessed seeing him playing football....wahaha..when he plays football...there is always a bunch of girls looking out for him...he really seek alot of attractions...recalling all those...hmm...so sweet n innocent memories...wahaha...i love it all...those simple life...how i wish i will have that now...no worries...no stress...just enjoy and do what i want...ahaha...now though no worries and able to do what i want...but the stress is really overbearing...too heavy for me to endure....my classmates are all a clever bunch...and i do always feel that i am that stupid one...wahaha...hey...i am not stupid...i am JieBin....wahaha...learnt this from You Fu...hehe...this coming week will be stressful bar...right after national day got CMA test...den friday got ECD test...Oh my~! and i am not revising....wahaha...maybe start that after i come home from the national day celebration bar...i am lazy....hehe...oh...i will miss my classmates and friends....i missing them all now...wahaha...miss class outings...scotland outings and all....wun be seeing them all till wednesday...its makes my holiday bored without them...hehe...oh yea...Candy birthday coming soon le wor...its on National Day...and i will remember de...hehe...here wish you an early birthday...after all the test we'll go celebrate ur birthday ok? hehe...test coming le...all atudying hard bar...we all jia you for the test yea...Gambadei~!!Miss you guys~~!!

Always look on the bright side of LIFE~!

hey...today got back our fmgt....hmm...quite satisfied with the result bar...though is not very high...wahaha...today very tired...slept late yesterday night...doing the fmgt tutorial...hmm...mum dun allow me to wear contacts...she says its bad for the eyes...humph...and she's not letting me to buy for the next month when the trial is finished....humph....think i have to listen to my mum....wahaha..and yar..i dun think i wear contacts is nice...so specs should be better....ok...i must say i am persuading myself to listen to my mum's words....hehe...yea...common test results are quite satisfying and i am definitely going to reward myself for all those so called 'hard work' i put in...rushing through lecture notes last minutes....ahaha...but i must deserve some rewards bar...hehe..maybe buy clothes or accessories bar...today had a really bad sore throat...and yar...i forgot to bring my wallet to skool...and i realise when i was digging out for my wallet to see if i have some coins for the sweets at np coop...blur me....hehe...wa...today saw stacy so formally dressed....very pretty wor...hiuw~ huet~...lecture ends early and i was back home arnd 4...and yar got medicine for my sore throat...oh yea...tml i am going to my grandpa house...so long never go over there...so sorrie wor...hehe...im sure i've got lots to catch up with my cousins....i miss them lots wor...hehe...hmm..weekends are coming right up...and im sure i had a great week...thank god for the heavenly week....and im sure i gain alot from it...next week is test week....we will all work hard for the upcoming test yea...jiayou guys~!!!till den peeps~!

Good Day

yohoo...this week starts great...yesterday i went for a one-day acuvue trial...its nice..very comfy...wahaha...and the promoter really had hard time to test my eyes and put on the lens for me...really felt abit paiseh...today went for the free 1 monthly trial...took about 2 mins for the first eye...and 15 mins for the second eye...wahaha...and yar taking it out is no problem....hehe...the guy who assist me is quite patient...at least he din really get agitated by me...and sorrie for having showing me how to put on the lens on urs...haha...anyway thanks for the help with the contact lens....hehe...and gd news...i pass my blaw n cma...the module i had no confidence with...yipee...luckily all my hard work is paid off...felt abit better than last week...cos hrm din did well..but that was expected...hehe...things are getting on well for me...had great times with my fellow friends with all those talks and chilling we had...though i spend quite alot for the week...haha...nxt week wanna watch bewitched...muz watch movie...the preview seems great...it will be on next week...i muz save money for that...oh yar...Mr Jansen birthday was yesterday...hehe...happy **th birthday...wahaha..think he dun wanna indulge his age bar....and yar...thanks for concern from my dear friends...im doing fine now...everything i had put aside...and i may seems abit too talkative today with you guys...ahaha...thats my old me...Yea~!!still got 1 more common test paper yet to be seen...hope i did passed...i got quite a number of mistake there...God bless me for that..hehe...gotta go liao...need to do HRM project stuff le...blog another day bar...=P

Charity...Makes you feel Good~!

Hey hey...so long never blog...weekends has come...and yea i am busying cutting out the Singtel Touching Lives Fund article to fold a heart...and yea...here i am encouraging all who saw this article...do play a part by just cutting the article and fold it...every heart means a donation of $1 to 6 beneficiaries...i feel that this event is very meaningful...and it takes every individual to play a small part to make a difference of the life of the less privileged....hehe...you can find this article at the TODAY nespaper...just fold the heart as instructed and drop it into any postbox....
Hmm...just got abit tired from those cutting of the article and come here to blog...wahaha...din did well for HRM common test...hope that the coming wont be like dat..abit disappointing...i did put alot of hard work studying...haiz...lets hope everyone got their desired results this week...yea...optimistic yea...Events management progress is not bad... i had finished the powerpoint presentation for the lecture publicity...wads left is to get the timetable of lecturers of different faculty so that we can start all those publicity...yipee...looking forward to the party...Weekends are just my day...somehow i feel that weekends make me so carefree...no more thoughts of sad things...guess its a good start for the month of August...yea...cheerful me is back den...dun feel weird if i talk more than often...wahaha...August coming...gotta prepare to go shop for presents again...lots of friends' birthday fall in the month of August....there's Candy, Peiwen, Fen, wenz, lingz,etc....opps...hole in the pocket....ahaha...but all are worth it for my dear friends...hehe...gotta stop here...going to carry on doing the cutting of article....Attn to all: Do play your part to help the less privileged....

LOVE?

Monday comes...And yar today got back HRM common test paper...did quite badly wor..erm but i passed lar...got scolding from mum...haiz...say i since starting of skool always skip lecture and always come home so late...Arghz...I know i haven been putting effort in studying this sem...i will be good girl as promised to my grandma...i must do it....seems so determined yet within my capability...wahaha...last saturday onwards i give up on messaging him everyday...today is the third day i din message him...feel abit weird without waking up at 7am...and always have the urge to message him...i just cant control myself not thinking about him...time had pass for a year plus le...why i still keep thinking about him....people say: To forget someone, you need to fall in love with the other. This saying is real true...it always happens to me...and now i cant stop thinking about him...haiz...What's LOVE? all those one-sided love makes me so tired...i dont feel the meaning of LOVE...the four letter word seems so easy to be said yet difficult to understand...I starting not to believe in LOVE...LOVE a word so hurtful....all the overflowing tears...the scars in the heart...nothing can amend for it...should i blame myself for being so into it? Or should i say i am stupid to believe in it?

kkiez...enough of sad things...opps...seems like i am a very sad person...wahaha...i am just too emotion...hehe...i went for the Z-Pop concert last saturday...not really fun...cos the people around not high...den dun dare to make wild movements...hehe...but at the last part was quite high when its JJ Lin...everybody get so high and with all those shoutings...i did dat too...and i feel good...the atmosphere is getting der...yohoo....was tired after the whole thing...cos friday i drank coffee and i slept at around 6am...and wake up at 11am on the saturday...ahaha...gotta go liao...blog next time...

Life?

Hey...Common test finished...yohooo....hmm...today started studying for today blaw test...then receive call from my uncle saying that my aunt's mum pass away...I really feel abit sad about it...heard that yesterday night things are not doing well...i had prayed for her since i heard that she is not feeling well...i really prayed hard hoping that there will be a change....or maybe a miracle can happen...haiz...really feel that life is so fragile...at any point you wont know what will happen next...and i really believe in placing health in front of anything...its gd to have a healthy lifestlye....haiz...have been moody since then...feel that life seems to be so meaningless...whereby death is around you...and sadness is so filled in the environment i am in...health problems of people around me...i really hope that they will get better especially my paternal grandma....is it such sudden death of humans make people treasure their life? Humph...really hope that my aunt, uncle, cousins and all will be strong towards all those happened...life is predestined...and yar...today i went for my sis guitar concert and din join jocelyn, eveline and all to the dinner...feel abit bad...really sorrie..but i must go support my sis....hehe...the concert lasted 2hrs...really did enjoy the concert...all those pros...so envy...ahaha...and my sis with that serious look playing on the guitar...so funny....the whole thing ends at 10...and haven had my dinner cos i rush to the concert...after the concert immediately went to the funeral...while sitting there got alot of emotions...really feel about things happening in earth...alot of 'why' questions popping up...haiz...things arent getting better....my world seems to be so messy...Argh~!who can save me from all those...now really cant sleep...cos drank coffee in the morning....abit excited about tml...going Z-Pop again~! yohoo...this time going with my sis...mum got it for me...yipee...can see the superstars there too...and congrats to WeiJian that he had get into the semi-finals...yipee...his singing too did touched me...Jiayou wor~!And not to forget to wish christopher HAPPY BIRTHDAY~! Im feeling hungry cos din eat for dinner...better go sleep now...till then~!

My Composition...

I had just compose a song myself...

Its in chinese...

I suddenly got such urge to compose this...

Its about my First Love...

To view it please encode it(Go to View, Encode,Unicode)...

分手的迷惑

当初我们那简单的爱

在我回忆里永远存在

握你那暖暖的手

陪伴着我一起走

即使有再多冰凉

也依然会变暖和

想起当初我们的分离

正反复出现在脑海里

我们共度的时光

却留下我的泪光

这一瞬间的冲动

却造成永恒的痛

*______To Be Continued...........

© Brigitte Khoo Jie Bin

This song is purely from what I had been through...

It may not of professional standards...

But this song expresses my feelings...

ME~!

I have always wonder if i am a lonely one in the world...
And at times I really feel so alone...
seems like I dont talk much except during blogging...
crapping all the way just in my blog...
Sometimes i wonder if i am just the only weirdo...
Living all alone left ignored by the rest...
It seems like I am not part of the world...
Like an alien...
Nevertheless I know that I have wonderful friends around me...
They are of great friends...
And I simply treasure them all...
At times there may be misunderstanding
But I just know that everything will be cleared...

At this point of my life...

I suddenly feel a need to be expressive...

But I am just not an expressive person...

I dont know how to express whatever I feel...

Somehow I may even give them the wrong idea of what I feel...

Its time I had to learnt to be expressive...

To clearly project what I feel...

And not like a block...

With no reaction and expression...

People may see me as an ignorant person..

Someone who is arrogant...

But I must say I am not...

I am more introvert...

Thats part of me.....

BAD day

Bad day today...was so tired...yesterday did my IS presentation thingy...and guess wad...i just realise i din save it...OMG...yesterday night work is all gone to drain....haiz...sadded...dunno wad to do now...dun feel like doing le...the presentation is like dat of what we have done on monday...Argh....i will try to do some tonight...abit tired...so maybe the presentation will be not very nice...brain cannot think much now...humph...hmm...did some reflection of the past few days...think i am weird...abit crazy...did silly things...ahaha...yar...den go skool too tired den dun talk for the whole day....wahaha...see now i am so full of nonsense...wahaha....this week should be a bad week and a bad start of the month...things doesnt go out well...haiz...and the horoscope suggested that i should keep myself low and do all my studies...wahaha...i tink i am going to do this...cos really need to study now...common test is coming....wahaha...oh yar...i had heard from teresa that the GOH for our NDP is a mixture of every CCA...Omg...i tink this doesnt work....oh please...if we mix...our guides will have to train their marching using their method...theirs is so different from us...i really dont think it will work out well...(* the above is purely my point of view...no means of criticizing any CCA here) Besides there's no best candidate for that GOH in guides where most of them are in the contigent...hmm...we need to really train the juniors marching...their marching *especially the 'Beloh' needs lots of attention...they can 'beloh' nicely...OMG...NDP is just one month more...and with this kind of standard...we will be laughed...i want back the time when my final year in the NDP...that was very nice..I really like it....wahaha..abit lau wang mai gua...but is true...from dat day....people keep saying that our guides have improve TREMENDOUSLY....wahaha....hope this year is the same...I believe in my juniors...ahaha...if cannot we will be having intensive marching session bar...to show how important NDP is to the name of the GUIDES...Juniors you all can do it de...kkiez...gttg liao...need to catch some sleep first...im depriving of rest...blog another day bar....

Blur Day...

Blogging here...ahaha...today I am really rush...first day in the morning i receive peiwen's msg...telling me that she'll be late for lesson...and i had a shock of my life...i thought i remember wrongly the time...quickly check with peiwen...still very blur....ahaha..then she confirm with me there is a change in the timing and no1 told me about it(thanks to peiwen..if not i would still be sleeping)...den i quickly went to brush my teeth, wash my face and everything....anyhow get a shirt and pants...change le den rush towards the busstop....wanted to wait for taxi...but the bus came first...so i took the bus...find the bus too slow...den drop at the CHIJ bukit timah der...hail a taxi...and that uncle brought me up to KAP to Sunset way...den U turn to my skool...and guess wad...he bring me to the convention...ahaha...den rush to the tutorial...was 45mins late...still very blur too...i took about 15mins to wash up...din get to bath...and i believe i really stinks cos i run all the way...sweating like hell....ahaha...bad start of the daysconclude the whole bad day....during tutorial my hp alarm suddenly rang...ahaha...that should be the time i actually should have woken up...cos last night did IS presentation till quite late...ahaha...after the tutorial went to HRM lecture...really pathetic...so few people...plus the lecture is speaking so so soft...hardly hear wad she's toking...den after that should be meeting up with my friends to watch initial D but they not free...den find friends see who wanna go but cos is quite last min so most of them cant make it....this few days i got no time to watch....i realise....24 HR is NOT enough...cant even catch a movie i really wanted to watch...tml hope i can watch..but got lots of work..hope i can go watch...today i am so blur....wahaha...look abit messy wor...yea...every feelings i had is some sort of cleared...and im getting happier....ahaha...i know why i haven been receiving his msg since 25 Dec 2004....not even one...but that doesnt matter anymore....all i know he is happy with his things...and yar...he will be going to the army soon...i hereby wish all the best in his future endeavour bar...wahaha...sounds like i have decided to take down everything...but deep inside my heart...i really dunno if i really done that...but not thinking about this stuff le...now concentrate on studies...dun understand alot of the lecture...better do revision now...but i haven start any...My promise to my grandma i must remember...my promise must be kept!!kkiez...gttg liao...need to tutorial...=P blog another day bar...

Done!

Yeap..things have gone out to be well...we did chat alot about things going on among us...everything is somehow settled...and I know we'll be friends forever....sorting out all my feelings today...be it friendship, feelings for someone...all sorted out...for now i will treasure all my friends, my family members...and study hard for my coming soon common test...i promise to my grandma that i will do well for the exams and study real hard...and i must prove to her that i can do it(*tearing...)

Today I shall do try to do some revision...i dun wanna break my promise to my grandma that i had made at the hospital...(*sobsob) i will definitely strive and work hard...I miss grandma...did went to visit her during fathers' day...and i realise i just cant stop missing her...she is the greatest grandma of all....(*I MISS HER LOTS~!..*Crying)

Kkiez...the cheerful me has been back le..wohoo...just come back after meeting with friends...feel alot better after everything...I now really very high wor...cos i finally decided to preserve the sweet memories...and not pursueing for anymore...it takes me alot of courage...hehe...now i feel so relaxed...and yar...Stacy birthday is coming soon...next friday...and i do her something really special...handmade de...specially from me to you...luckily my mum is giving me pocket money soon...then i have the money to spend...hehe...but when is she going to give me huh?? ahaha...i feel like shouting...."I Feel GOOD....dadadadadada....SO GOOD...So good..." wahaha...abit mad now...high for no reasons...wahaha...gttg liao...must do revision as i mention wor...promise made is to be kept....till then...shall blog another day...

Tired~!

Today a tired day cos the ECD lecture was really very bored...almost fall asleep...today should be the enrolment of the junior guides and i should have gone back to help out with the whole enrolment ceremoney...but due to lectures and tutorials...I could no make to the enrolment ceremoney...it must have been heavy for Germaine to help up in the whole thingy...i'll try to attend guides whenever I could...hmm...oh yar about my friends thingy...i just have to accept it...i dunno them really well and that our topics differ...maybe I had changed...but to the better or to the worst i'm not sure...they told me that i am just overly sensitive...but what can i say?? They join for an event together...and they din even ask me if i am interested...ok...maybe they think i will not be interested in that event...meeting them out tml...hope things will get better...today shall be a short post...gotta add on to the IS marketing proposal for the message and slogan stuff...will blog another day....

Nice Day

Yea...blogging again...hmm...this few days mood getting better...omg...suddenly feel that i mood swing so seriously...oh no...im not that kind who mood swings often...i think is due to all those problems i am having this few months...nothing had been settled...i look very pathetic rite...like so friendless...and like so out of their way...yar...haiz.. am i that bad...sumtimes i really do ask..am i a worthless person to be of someone's friend?? Lets keep those sad things away...ahaha...today went shopping with jocelyn, eveline and fangzhi at orchard...wa...i realise fang zhi a real shopping queen...and poor me can only see them buy clothes and stuff and secretly aiming at all those i want to buy...ahaha...saw some nice guy clothes and cap at 77th street..maybe going to buy someone gift for his belated birthday??considering huh...but the clothes are really nice at far east....opps...going to splurge money when the month of july comes...ahaha..den broke at the end of the month...ahaha...always turn out to be like that...must control myself more...humph..haven watch initial D...must find friends who is a Jay fanatic like me...hehe...*hint hint...it have been out for a week le...i wanna watch...but no money now...next week when i get money..i will watch it first...came home late again...opps...have been naughty this few weeks...ever since skool starts i think...mum have been saying that i have been always out very often...and she dun let me go idare...bcos she sae i need to be in singapore for some reasons...den i have to obey lor...shall stay at home this weekends to really do my tutorials...haven been doing properly..shall organise my file too...and have to come up with the financial management project and think i better do the proposal for IS too...kkiez...better stop here...blog next time...need to be good girl this few days...so have to attend all lecture from tomorrow onwards...wahaha...end here...

Yea...blogging again...hmm...this few days mood getting better...omg...suddenly feel that i mood swing so seriously...oh no...im not that kind who mood swings often...i think is due to all those problems i am having this few months...nothing has been settled...i look very pathetic rite...like so friendless...and like so out of their way...yar...haiz.. am i that bad...sumtimes i really do ask..have i done something wrong?? Lets keep those sad things away...ahaha...today went shopping with jocelyn, eveline and fangzhi at orchard...wa...i realise fang zhi a real shopping queen...and poor me can only see them buy clothes and stuff and secretly aiming at all those i want to buy...ahaha...saw some nice guy clothes and cap at 77th street..maybe going to buy someone gift for his belated birthday??considering huh...but the clothes are really nice at far east....opps...going to splurge money when the month of july comes...ahaha..den broke at the end of the month...ahaha...always turn out to be like that...must control myself more...humph..haven watch initial D...must find friends who is a Jay fanatic like me...hehe...*hint hint...it have been out for a week le...i wanna watch...but no money now...next week when i get money..i will watch it first...came home late again...opps...have been naughty this few weeks...ever since skool starts i think...mum have been saying that i have been always out very often...and she dun let me go idare...bcos she sae i need to be in singapore for some reasons...den i have to obey lor...shall stay at home this weekends to really do my tutorials...haven been doing properly..shall organise my file too...and have to come up with the financial management project and think i better do the proposal for IS too...kkiez...better stop here...blog next time...need to be good girl this few days...so have to attend all lecture from tomorrow onwards...wahaha...end here...

SADZ

Currently doing research for fmgt project...having PMS today i should say...really moody....Monday blues i think....cos my day started badly with just that msg i received...things are getting bad...Sorrie if i did aggitate you guys...wear sloppily today..messy hair...everything is so bo chap...haiz...very sad wor...thinking about whats live recently...why is live so fragile...death keep happening around me...and i feel really sad about it...i hope that there is miracles...and please show me that there is...cos i am clinging hope to believe that my cousin's grandma could recover...and i am still believing in this...sadded...things arent getting any better...i feel so bothered about things going on this few days...how??? people say i am too sensitive about things...and always stressing myself with all those minor things...I knew that i am really sensitive to people feelings...but i am just afraid that people around me will misunderstand me or i scared that they may feel that i left them out...i dont like to left all my friends out when i am with them...i will feel extremely bad and im sure the person who is left out will feel lonely...and i know that feeling is terrible cos me myself had experience it before...And i had sorted things out with them today morning...they admitted it themselve...I just knew that something is wrong...I know they are more closed than i am to them...ok...i think i am kicking a big fuss out of it...they are just leaving me out cos we dun have common topic and they find me too quiet...but whenever i asked question or comment on it they ignored me...i feel so sad...things become abit harsh i think.... but they say they din mean it...i believe them...kkiez...think all this thing must be settled....i am very sad about it...erm..gttg liao...have to continue searching for FMGT stuff....having serious headache now and cramps...omg...Fever too....Argh...feeling terrible...still have to do CMA later....till den...

Campfire's Burning

Yippee....just finish our BB guides campfire 2005 "Spooky Night"...Its so fun and miss all those...All fun time always ends so fast....and yar today's campfire could say quite a success....thanks to all the juniors for putting up such a marvellous campfire...you all did great and we are all proud of you guys~! We are proud of you say we are proud of you...We are proud of you say we are proud of you...We are proud of you say we are proud of you....well done guides...all those performances and games are really nice...

After the campfire, I din go with my friends for mac at westmall...I went home, had a bath and went to my house der de mac to chill with my scouts friends....its really long since we last chill together...think got about 1 1/2 yrs or so...and we had a long chat today...they said that our campfire is great...has lots of improvement made from the last campfire....ahaha...i do agree with that....cos last year campfire was a small campfire...hehe..they also made comments on the fire thingy....hmm...and yar...i see that problem...but its all quite nice...they said that the souveniors are creatively made...wahaha...and den we chat about how their own activities that are coming up soon...it seems so fun...i hope our guides can have that...Expedition!Pioneering!it seems more of a scout thingy...hmm...maybe we can merge with some other skools scout and have an expedition...where we walk from bukit batok to mount faber...and by the end of the whole expedition...we'll be at the mount faber having song session under the moonlight...wow.....hope we can organise such thing...ahaha...hmm...maybe can propose this to Ms Lim...Cool~!

Gttg liao...need to catch some sleep...tommorrow is someone's birthday....shhhhhhh.......

Blues....

I had a real hard week...really glad a new week is coming..hope everything would be doing fine next week...Dear friends...thanks for all the concern...Im sure i will be able to cope with everything...though all those sad feelings had dampen my everyday mood...i have been quite messy this week...be it tutorials, presentations, attire,etc....the blues are giving those moody feelings...I love skooling...I had all those wonderful classmates and friends there...not forgetting my friends i always chill with...they had really made my day better...and at that moment with them...forgetting all those problems i had...today went home quite late...bump into them...sort things out abit...but was left ignored after 5 mins of talk...had i done anything wrong? then i came to realise...our friendship is that fragile...even more fragile than the glass...i somehow feel the changes they had ever since they always go out without me...what can i say...people are just so realistic...once they feel the distance...its like the gap will never be closed...i had always treasured our friendship...really hope that things will get better...if i ever given you guys black face...do forgive me...im just so depressed about the whole thing...it had been on for months...stop here le..gttg do BLAW e-tutorial....take care guys...looking forward to tml BB girl guides campfire...I LOVE GUIDING~!IT ROX MY LIFE~!

To my juniors: You guys jia you yar...all your effort will be well paid tml...im sure we'll all enjoy tml's campfire...take care all and prepare to rock,cheer and have fun tml...I Love you guys...

Problems~!!!

Tired,tired,tired...din have much sleep this week...and i look so sloppy and plus my bad mood about my friends thingy...this week really very bad...having blues almost everyday...OMG....just came home from skool...abit regreted going for CMA lecture...cos the lecturer cant speak properly...dun really catch what he is saying...ahaha..before lecture went to library with friends...do some catching up and sleeping...wahaha...on the way home think alot of things..especially my recent problems i had with my friends...abit sad about the whole thing...why things become like that?? We seem not to have any common topics...and what we used to tok on seems rubbish and unrelated to what they are toking on...depressed... wrote a poem that describe a little of what i feel.....

Entitled....Friendlesss

Left out is a feeling i never wanted...

loneliness is a feeling i always hated....

but now i feel neglected...

Friends I always treasure...

times spent are of great pleasure...

but now our friendship is so unsure....

JieBin

Looking forward to the weekends...Its Mel birthday this saturday...hehe...and yar today is winston's birthday...

Happy Birthday To You~!

Thanks

Hiyoz guys...thanks for everything...Im so touched...I know I still have you guys...hehe...haven been blogging for days...cos i left my lappy at my aunt's house...hmm...today went karaoke session with a bunch of Scottish...and was really fun...Melissa has a great voice...wahaha...problems are left unsolved...things arent going smoothly for me...WHY?? I really did try to talk to them...But was being ignored...Sadded...Does our friendship ends here?? I dont want...friends I really treasure them all...those who loves me and those who I love...I must admit I am poor in expressing whatever I wanted to say...and may seems to be cold...but all these doesnt mean I am not bothered about our friendship...haiz....Loneliness I do feel when I am with them...but why I feel that?? The feeling of being left out...the feeling of being made use...What can i do??Confused.Sadded...Really hope that things will get better...Have been really bothered about it...that too causes many of my sleepless night....When I am with them..I really feel so much left out...so lonely...so alone...wonder if things will get better...*Sigh....but I know our guides Campfire is coming...Is this FRIDAY...yohoo..Am really excited about the whole thingy...hehe...blog another time..gttg do CMA tutorial...Thanks guys for ur concern...

My Voice~!

Have you ever been left out by a whole bunch of friends?

Such feelings i had it...

and I really felt saddness...

But no hard feelings...

I really felt abit being make use of...

And that Friendship is nothing to them

Am I abit over sensitive?

I had ask myself repeatedly...

But this is not the first time they treat me so cold...

Suddenly I felt so lonely...

So friendless...

I must say I am an introvert...

But I love making new friends

And i must say for the past few years..

I have known marvellous friends...

I treasure them...

And really did enjoy those time spent with them all..

They are always there when I am sad...

Special thanks to Anqi, Sam

We have been tru all those happiness and sadness together...

Be it break ups, friends problems,etc.

But whats the best is that

WE HAVE EACH OTHER~!!

Love you guys lots...

Haven been seeing you guys...

Now University should be on hols

We'll meet up one day yar..

I wanna see the new guy you know at the pub...

I must really thank you guys for being there for me this few days

Cos the sadness even my secret recipe(SWEETS!!shh..is my secret!!) cannot get rid..

This recipe does work for me since I was working in Motorola

It helps me stop me tears from rolling down

Have been feeling down for the past one month

Hope that I din aggitate anyone...

If so I really have to apologise for my act...

I'll stop here...got loads of work to do..blog again next time..

Blog

Time To blog again...haven been updating my blog..hmm..this month really very broke...i left $52 for the month...omg...intend to watch quite a number of movie wor..shall cut down on the list...but i must go watch D-Initial, Monsters-In-Law..hehe...hmmm...how can i survive!!Have been chilling out with friends almost everyday at night...and thats how all the money is gone...hope anybody who own me money could return me..ahaha...now really in need of money...hmm...should i get an early allowance of nxt month??ahaha...Im financially broke...Must learn how to thrift...but think i can make it through with the slimming process...shall have muesli bars for lunch...ahaha...today so fun...we played VOS...its so so exciting...we played at skool from 2 to about 5++...after that went to causeway with peiwen and liqing...i did window shopping..while they really did shop...ahaha...but did aim at some clothes...shall "con" my mother there to buy for me...ahaha...so bad...hehe...left causeway point at 10+ and reach home arnd 11...and was so sleepy...but VOS make me so clear minded...yohoo...is so fun..have been playing since 2am...and i am still so wide awake...ahaha...its really fun...thanks to peiwen and liqing for introducing this game to me...hehe...BAOC afterglow for all is coming soon...it will be an barbeque at west coast park...Looking forward to it...cos i miss BAOC lots...SCOTLAND Rox~! we'll have a session of yo-ing again..till den...

To Anqi: How have you been? must take care of yourself wor..working night shift must have more sleep yar...hehe...dun tire yourself wor...and ahaha...how i hope i could go back and work there again...I really miss those days there...Especially you, Sam, Violet and rest...Really fun knowing you guys...hehe...when im free i'll go der and visit you wor...hehe...Is just to catch up with you guys only wor...no other motives yar...cos you are my best buddy ever...Love you and miss you lots...Muacks~!
As for him...I still haven organise all my feelings out yet..still am thinking about him all day...wahaha....

Kkiez..gttg continue playing VOS le...will blog some other days...Miss you guys..

Bad Day

Hiyo...am here to blog...ahaha...wa today I&E really drag so long...people end le...we still stuck in the classroom...I choosen the wrong tutor...omg...he is so crappy...end the whole thing around 5...and now vexing about which specialisation should we do...cos its like the toy exhibition is not working...oh no...and guess wad...more problems came by...some other junior guides from other skool called me...ask me lots about the campfire thingy...cos their senior dun bother them anymore...and yar...the questions are all so ridiculous...am really pissed when hearing all those...did lecture them...cos last year campfire they din take initiative to learn from their seniors...and the attitude they give me...like i have to help them...its like..OMG...but luckily everything is settled now...kkiez...i know i am abit harsh on you guys...but forgive me yea...cos its really lar..you all should have at least a bit of knowledge as to how to plan the campfire...you guys must jia you...wish your campfire success hor...hope all the information is of good use to you guys...and yar...my own guides will bring us the best campfire entitled 'Spooky Nite' by the Bukit Batok Guides...yohoooo...i m sure looking forward to 23june...i bet it will going to be fun cos its bukit batok guides...hehe....oh yar..tml we'll go back marina der and catch bears...Scotland Yo~ Yo ah yo, yo ah yo, yo ah yo ah yo ah yo...heehee...tml all scotland in scotland tshirt wor...cya guys den...miss you guys...